Beast of Burden

I'm moving on. I have to leave you behind. I cannot live life like this any longer. All you do is hold me back. You have never been kind to me when all I am is kind to you. Maybe I have not actually been kind and that is the problem. Indulging you whenever you want. Was that the answer? Obviously not because it has only made me miserable in return. I have to live for me. I have to live for my future. You are in the past and I won't have you back. Once you are gone life will be so much lighter and sweet. Life will be enjoyed again for the first time. When the day comes a celebration is in order. The biggest bestest ever because I will be free of you.

I wish this road was an easy road. It is not. I will be tempted by you over and over. My will may be wary but it is renewed and shall overcome. My answer to you will be NO!