Hate Myself

So my great mood from earlier is gone. I am about to sit down and write an essay which shouldn't be too tough but still. I'm upset because I think that I threw out almost all of my old papers that I have written. All the essays, term papers, and whatnot that I have done are gone. My old computer hard drive is no more and even though I think I might have saved my documents onto a disk before the cpu became no more, I have no idea where the disk could be.