Hello McFly, Anybody home?

Well well well, What do we have here? I don't know. I just like saying that. Angelina Jolie has to be one of the hottest women ever. I like her alot.

Well, tomorrow is my official interview with Scope for my more than likely new job. I'm excited and still nervous at the same time. If I land this job I know I will like it alot. For one I love kids. This might change my view of kids, I realize that but as of right now I love them. This will be great job and life experience working at Scope. Meeting people from all walks of life. It will be quite a bit different from packaging items up and shipping them UPS. Ah, I miss those days. I always felt that I would be doing the shipping industry for a long time. It is what I knew and I loved it. This will be a huge change for me. If I go into teaching like I am thinking about then Scope will be a good basis because both teaching and Scope are all about the children. I will get used to being around children through scope because I have no previous experience being around large groups of children. It is usually smaller groups that I know most of them.

Do you ever feel like you are living someone else's life? I do. I feel like I am living a life and just watching it and not really participating in it. It is like I am waiting for the real stuff to happen. Or like I'm just here pinch-hitting and I'm not doing a very good job of it and screwing it up for the real Kyle. Does that make any sense? I think it does. I know I am Kyle but sometimes I feel like I am not really Kyle, just standing in for Kyle and doing a botched up job in his place. Things are not all that good for me right now. Yeah, I've got it easy but is easy the best way to do things? Easy is not very fulfilling and is void and empty. Living with the parents, Jobless, Girlfriend less, near broke, and overweight. I've got quite a few strikes against at this point in my life. Now I'm not crying anyone a river, don't take it as that. I am doing what I can to fix a few of those. But others are not as easy. Effort and dedication. I can apply those to certain parts of my life but not others. Why would this be? If able to do it somewhere shouldn't I be able to do it everywhere?