This one is on me

Hello readers of my life. How are you today? I'm doing fantastic. Well, I'm a little down about the fact that I have to go back to work in the morning after a wonderful weekend on Current River in the Ozark National Park. Things are going pretty well for me or at least I keep telling myself they are.

As of today I have lost 32 pounds. I am down at the weight of 318 pounds. I'm well on my way. The only thing that I am still sad about is that I don't physically see the results. You would think that 32 pounds would be very visible but alas I guess it is not because I started at such a high weight. I know that if anyone I personally knew lost 32 pounds it would be obvious. There is always an exception, Me. Anyway, I forsee a bright future of me losing all of my weight that I have set out to lose. Again, I have a huge goal weight and it isn't going to happen over night, I know this, but my goal is 200 pounds or less if possible. I think that 200 would be ideal for me with my build. But when I get there and it seems like I could go further then all the further I will go, but that decision will be dealt with when I get there in the soon to be future. Even with not seeing the results physically, I am very happy with how well I have done. This is without much exercise too. My foot is almost completely better and I expect to get going on the brisk walking schedule that I have in mind and getting back to FitClub and fulfill my end of the membership by actually going!!!

I'm about to

Leaving in a few minutes to go to Current River with a buttload of people. I think it is going to be like 19 or 20 people. It is going to be a freakin awesome par-tay! WAHOOO! I've got my cooler with Natural Ice 30pk (hope it is enough for me) and bottled water. Party on Wayne!

Gifts

I am God's gift to women.

YOU DON'T KNOW ME!

I'M KEVIN BACON!

Nomar Rules!

Tonight it going to be a blast. I cannot wait. A bunch of us are going to Peoria to go see Nomar play with the Peoria Chiefs. Game time is around 7 and I am leaving Springfield at 6. So I'll be getting there like in the first inning I assume. Oh boy oh boy, I cannot wait. Details on the game after it happens....

Know when to hold'em

Man, I just can't seem to win the pot. I played poker last night with my buddy from work. I brought Ed along because I know that he enjoy's playing poker too. So, as it turns out I was the 3rd place finisher. I didn't get squat. Ed ended up winning the pot. It wasn't much though about 50 bucks or so. It was a great time though. I am continuously getting better. It is like bowling for me. The more often I do it the better I feel I do. I would just like to win outright sometime soon.

Thank you Lord for thinking about me

Oh boy oh boy oh boy. I just called the jury people. I have been dismissed. YAY! Never had to go in but they still annoyed the heck out of me. Since I had to call them the past 4 days morning and evening just to see if they wanted me to come in and do my duty. Finally! I thought it may interfere with going to the Chiefs game this evening or even me going canoeing tomorrow afternoon.

Watching the tide roll away

The jury people are starting to piss me off. They keep telling me to call back at a later time or the next day, I have now called 5 times each time telling me to call back later cause I am not needed just yet. I just want to get it over with. This better not end up affecting my plans Thursday night and into the weekend.

Today is only Tuesday and it feels like it should be Thursday at least. The week is just creeping by. Probably because of this jury stuff.

I think I have lost a little bit more weight. I'm at 323 which by my math, double checked, is 27 pounds total.

I thought that my foot was feeling better but today it is aching like crazy. No sharp pains but it just aches and is bothersome. I've still got some time before it is totally better I guess.

NOMAR!

Oh yes. Nomar Garciaparra is going to be playing in Peoria with the Peoria Chiefs this Tuesday through Thursday. I heard it come straight from Dusty Baker's mouth last night while being interviewed during the game with which we narrowly beat Saint Louis by a GRAND SLAM by Neifi Perez. I'm planning on going to the Chiefs' game this Thursday with Nattie and company. Nattie is the one getting it together so get ahold of her but I hear she is going to order the tickets by 3pm today. So catch her quick! I am so stoked. I haven't been to a minor league game since the "Cardinals" were here in Springfield back when I was a wee little boy. Do all of you remember that? The Springfield Cardinals which then was followed by the Sultons and the Capitols. Yeah, Glory Days!

Twenty Five

I have lost about 25 pounds so far. This is without much exercise. My foot is getting better and I am pretty close to being comfortable with walking on it for long periods of time. I did my second session with the hypnosis clinic today. They are pleased with the results thus far. I still have a long way to go but I'm on my way. I'm looking forward to my second canoe trip this coming weekend. It is great exercise paddling down a river in a canoe. I figure I will shed a few more pounds over the coming weekend. I'm looking forward to hitting 300 pounds pretty soon. I know it won't take much longer since I plan on sticking with this until I attain my goal weight of 200 pounds. Of course I will still eat healthy once I attain my goal weight. Who knows, maybe I can go lower than 200. I'll deal with that once I get there. All in due time.

I did not get picked for Jury Duty today although I still have to call back at 5pm this evening to see if they need me to come in tomorrow morning.

Summer Heat

Today is going to be excessively hot. High of 104 degrees is expected with heat indicies of around 115 degrees.

I don't know if it is the summer heat or me just being me but girls that I know are looking exceptionally good looking. I wish that I knew how to cross the friends line. Any suggestions from those that have been there?

Sometimes I think about pulling the high school bull shit. Have someone on my behalf mention to a ladies that I'm interested and then see how they react and then report back to me. I'm not big on confrontation when I know nothing about the other hand.

So hot! Want to touch the hiney! Arrroooooooo!

Movies

I'll just post it here because I don't feel like telling everyone face to face. I'm pretty low on money right now. I just paid a lot of bills. I won't be doing any movies this week. My movie money ran out on the last movie I went to last week.

I have a few movies that I bought a few weeks ago that I have yet to watch so I figure I should probably watch those before I go see more movies in the theaters or even buy more DVDs.

Beer

Well, I've been steering clear of beer lately. Actually almost all alcohol entirely. I'm mainly doing the no beer thing because I don't want the extra calories and such. Also I have not really been in the mood lately. I haven't really had a desire to have a beer. Sure I think, man, I would love to join in on that round of shots but I want to join in more because I feel left out rather than craving the alcohol. Things have been going well. I still have yet to get out and exercise but my foot is getting better. Sometimes it aches but I don't have the shooting pains very much anylonger.

Unexpected

Last night I was hanging out in front of Mojo's shortly before I was about to head home. A female acquaintance of mine was walking by and we said our goodbye's. Then she said something that caught me off guard. She said that I "look good." Now, you may not think of this as a big deal but it got me thinking. I don't know if she knows about me losing weight. Also I am still a real big guy so I wonder what prompted this statement. Plus she hasn't been one to ever give me a compliment before. So whether or not she checked me out, it totally made my night. That is a confidence/motivation booster too. I've got a real good feeling about losing weight. I'm going to have to walk around with a pimp stick to beat away the hordes of eligible women throwing themselves at me.

Scales

So I've been told to not pay attention to the scales. It is tough because I want to be reassured that I am making progress. Granted the progress that I make is going to happen regardless of what the scale says. Now though I am no long doing my summer job and I am back to the regular grind at my normal school. I don't think that this school has a professional scale for me to use every so often. I really do enjoy tapping that little thingy downward to make it level out. Especially when I get to tap it lower than where it was the previous time that I hopped on the scale.

I think that with me getting back to my normal schedule I will be losing more weight. My reasoning for this is that I have to be at work at 7am as opposed to 10am. I am up earlier, this causes me to have to have breakfast earlier and thus jump starting my metabolism earlier too. I had previously taken naps in the middle of the day but I am planning on eliminating this bad habit. Since I have not taken a nap in the middle of the day since about May. The tough part is going to be coming home in the morning and not eating anything until my actual lunch time which is at about 11:30-noon.

I may start eating a bigger breakfast. I never was a breakfast person unless out on a vacation or it was a special occassion. So eating anything at all before I go to work is a big deal. I usually just have a banana and a big glass of milk or OJ (depending on my mood). I just eat enough to get my body and metabolism going. Since I am getting up earlier I have more time that I am burning off calories so I may be able to afford to eat a larger breakfast now.

I am working the door down at the bar this evening. Everyone should come down and see me. It is freaking hot outside and I know that a Frozen Vodka Lemonade sounds mighty tastey and refreshing right about now. So if I'm not enough to draw you down to the bar then maybe the drinks will. If the drinks don't appeal to you then hopefully I do. If it is neither then you are S.O.L.

First Day

This morning was my "first" First Day of School. You may think, well, Kyle has been with Scope almost a year now. Yes, almost. But I started after the beginning of the school year last year so I was not there for a first day of the kids. Rather the kids were there for my first day. It was interesting. It is neat seeing all the new little kindergarteners come in all shy and big eyed. Parents were all very nice today. I hope that this afternoon goes smooth also. It is nice to get back into the rhythm of the everyday job. I do enjoy my breaks in the middle of the day.

In the name of all that is

So today I went into the little employee bathroom that has a professional scale. I hopped on. And I was like whoa! I weighed 5 pounds more than yesterday. I'm thinking, no way, this cannot be right. So I think, well, I did weigh myself in my birthday suit. So with the door locked I stripped down to my skivvies. I hopped back on and weighed exactly the same as yesterday. I'm happy about that but then pissed at the realization that my clothing all together weighs 5 freaking pounds. That is a lot for clothing right? I would think so at least. Oh well, at least now when I weigh myself I know to subtract about 4 to 5 pounds.

P.S.A.

This is a PSA for my friends. I care about my friends a great deal. If ever you realize that you should not be driving late at night or did not drive and need to get away from where you currently are because your commrades do not feel like leaving yet. Give me a call. I would rather be woken up in the middle of the night to come get you and make sure that you are safe than to know that there was something I could have done if something unfortunate has happened. Never should you feel like you are stuck and HAVE to drive drunk. I am here for you.

I'm math deficient

Yeah, I just noticed that my math is messed up. I started at 350 and am now at 327. That is a difference of 23 pounds. Still great though. I'm planning on being at the 33 pounds gone really soon though so this math mishap won't matter that much. I feel so stupid.

I'm on my way

And I do know where I'm going.

Today I hopped on the professional scale that is at my place of employment. I did this when I needed to change back into normal dry clothes since I had just been swimming. Well, low and behold, I am down to 327 lbs. I KNOW! I've lost 33 pounds so far. Only 120 to go. Some say that they can tell. I personally cannot tell. I don't feel any lighter and I don't think that I look any "thinner". The only way I can tell is that the scales tell me so. So I must be doing something right. Of course I know I am doing everything right. I'm eating very very healthy, eating 3 meals, not snacking, and not eating after dinner. Oh, also, I have given up cola beverages for the most part. I'm still deliberating whether or not to let myself have them with alcohol. ALthough I have cut back on alcohol intake also. The only thing that I have not really started in on yet is the exercising. Which is the only gauranteed way to increase metabolism. And and increase in metabolism is exactly what I need the most.

So for those of you rooting me on to become the new me. 33 pounds of my old me is already down for the count.

New DVD's

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

Aladdin 2-Disc Special Edition (Platinim Edition)

Movies

What is up with people not wanting to see movies any more. I even tried to give people notice. Everyone seems interested in the movies when I talk about them but then when the time comes no one answers their phones and doesn't get back to me. It's crap. No respect, I tell ya, No respect.

It has begun

Well, I've been keeping loose tabs on my weight. I have now lost 14 pounds. Only 136 pounds to go...


All Star Game tonight. Go National League!

I've seen better days

What is my motivation? You. You are my motivation. You make me that much more motivated. You are where I want to be. You are too good for me.

If only

I wish that I had the ability to turn off emotions. I get sick and tired of thinking I like someone only to hurt myself. It is my own fault. I'm a dumbass and should become a monk or priest or hermit or something along those lines. The less contact with "possibilities" the better.

I'll show you all. There is a prince in here somewhere...

In The Beginning

Tomorrow morning I begin 10 months of hypnotherapy. I have already started motivating myself anyway. I've done diets. I start off strong and steady but then I usually come to a fizzling halt. I have a tough time sticking with it. Food is the enemy. Sometimes I think that I may be addicted to food in the wrong way. Food is only a part of life to stay alive. Life does not have to be centered around food. I'm trying to make this true. Some people think that I am doing a diet. Diets are usually viewed as temporary. This is not going to be temporary. I'm planning on eating right for the rest of my life. Sure I will have a bad for me meal every so often but not all the time. Healthy Kyle is the way it is for now on. Hopefully my foot will get better soon so that I can start exercising more and get better results. In 5 weeks when I go back to the dietician I want the doctor to be surprised at how well I am doing. It is going to be great.

I told my family tonight that once I get to a good weight the first thing that I want to do is go to Six Flags Mid America and ride the roller coasters... Especially the Batman. Reasons for this you may ask? Last time I attempted to ride that coaster I was unable because I was too big for it. The safety restraints wouldn't latch. I love roller coasters. It saddened me. So look for a trip to St. Louis when I become the new me.

My Life

Things have not always gone well for me. Sure, I've got it good in some areas. I've got a great family and tons of great friends. I live practically rent free with my parents which is a plus and a minus. School has always been tough for me. My head has not always been in the game. I'm working on that though. Now my biggest burden has smacked me in the face for the last time. My weight has always been an issue since I was a little kid. There were times when young that I was in shape and not fat. Those were the days. If I only knew how good I had it then.

I am taking healthy measures to help me lose all my excess weight. I'm not talking 50 pounds, nor even 100 pounds. I am planning on losing 150 pounds. I am already 5 pounds on my way as of today. One measure that I have taken was to meet with a dietician and figure out what I need to do to lose weight. Then after that I have taken another measure to help keep me motivated. I have enrolled with a hypnotist to help me along the way. I forsee great things in my future. This won't be all over night but I think that I can get to where I want to be within a year if I try hard. Sounds crazy I know but I do think that it is possible. And what is another year when I've wasted so many years of my life already.

I may not show it but my weight consumes my life. I cannot do anything without it smacking me in the face. Even going to the movies is tough because I don't have anywhere to put my arms so I usually put them together in front of me so that I don't hog the arm rests. The stress fracture in my foot is still hurting me. A reminder of how I need to lose this weight. My biggest beast of burden. You all will see a new me surfacing. I hope that this all works out. It will work out and for the best too.

New DVDs

The Fifth Element (Ultimate Edition)

12 Monkeys (Special Edition)