No frame of mind

Yeah, I haven't posted in a while. Melissa is getting antsy again for a post. I've been working. The kids are great and annoying at the same time. I have come down with a head cold. I blame the kids for never covering their mouths when they cough and sneeze. It is an energy draining type of cold. I slept for 10 hours last night. Up for 4 hours and then slept for another 3 hours and then back up for work again. Mr. D saw L today and asked how I was and she said I was sick and then he tried telling L that I was working the bar last night as for why I wasn't feeling well. L knew better and told him that I had a head cold. I was like What?! I haven't been to the bar since last Friday night. Why would he say that? Is he trying to get me in trouble? I would never never never never let going out at night affect my performance at work. I thought it was rather shocking to hear that he said that at all.

So, Sorry to anyone for whom I haven't answered your calls. I just really have not been in the mood to talk or I have been asleep when you attempted to call me. I'm sick. I have nothing to say. I'm tired. I don't feel like doing crapola. Josh called me at 10pm last night. Woke my ass up. I was like, What the Hell. But I did not answer it. Silenced it and went back to sleep. It is a Wednesday night and I work at 7am. I thought I made it clear that I'm not going out before Thursday nights. Unless there is some special reason that I need to be out that I have prior knowledge about. Now I'm not saying this is some mandate. But I'm trying to adhere to it for the sake of doing well at my new job. I like it and I don't want to mess up. Not that I mess up at jobs but still.

OK, I keep talking and I said I don't feel like talking. I still feel that way so I am going now. I'll catch you on the flip side. Wherever the hell that is...

YAY for JENNY!

Jenny finally got her call from Scope. She's hired and starts immediately. And I didn't realize it but she's already moving on up starting at an Assistant Lead position. That is just awesome. Now that she's in with the school district I feel that things and job possibilites will be going more smoothly for her.

As things are slowly starting to get on the right track for myself also. A job with benefits was my number one priority. Now my next goal is to finish that damned composition class at lincoln land community college that I never finished before I went to ISU. With that class I can officially say that I have an Associates Certificate in the Arts. After that which then won't be probably until next fall I will apply to go to UIS which I 99.9% sure that I will get in. I look at it as another lincoln land where everyone gets in. Then I will see where my 92 credit hours combined from llcc and isu get me with them. I will apply to get into the elementary education major and work towards becoming a teacher. I'm pacing myself. I don't want to take on too much at once. I don't want to get behind again. I've wasted too much time in my life already. Plus I'm getting tired of saying... I have "some" college. It makes me want to explain myself as to why I don't have a degree yet when all of my friends are with degrees and moving on with their lives. I don't want to get stuck in a lifelong rut.

TONIGHT! TONIGHT was the Season Premier of the 4th season of SMALLVILLE!! Oh man it was awesome. There was a guest appearance by Margot Kidder who played Lois Lane in the feature films. Lana is as hot as ever. Lois Lane as Chloe's cousin makes an appearance and will be in a few episodes this season. I saw Clark fly. Oh yeah, it was awesome. It was so Kick Ass. I recommend that anyone who hasn't watched Smallville to get their butt in gear and catch up with the first 2 seasons that are out on DVD, then to start watching this season immediately, then in about a month or so season 3 will be out and you will be all caught up to where it is right now. So so so so good.

Ed is the MAN! He got himself an ASSLOAD of Cardinal playoff tickets. Some for himself and others to sell. You want to buy tickets he is the man to go to. I don't know if he wants me to advertise but hey, he is selling.

Tomorrow is Thursday. That means I allow myself to go out Thursday night. Then Friday is well... Friday and that means after work on Friday it is the WEEKEND! The week goes so fast once you hit Wednesday night.

This weekend I plan on working the door at the bar on Friday evening. Making a little spending money. Then on Saturday I am going to a wedding in Morton, Illinois for some friends of mine that I worked with up in Bloomington. It should be a good time. If time permits and Crow doesn't run off and be a Chode we might head over to Peoria after the Reception and hang out with him and Ben for a while. But we have to head back to Springfield because of morning obligations so it won't be a real late night. Sunday I think I am going to go downtown for the International Route 66 car cruisers event that is going on all weekend. Sounds like there will be tons o' cars that will be awesome to look at. I went 2 years ago with Phil and it was really awesome.

Yesterday's addendum

So here it goes for summing up what I was saying about my work day yesterday that I accidentally deleted.

My day was going along fine. I did the morning shift and then went home did the usual Regis and Kelly and then a nap. Well, on my way to work on the radio at about 2:20pm I hear that a security guard on duty at the State Capitol has been shot in the arm. The man who did the shooting fled the scene. I'm like WHOA! This doesn't happen in Springfield. Sure there are shootings here and there but not usually at State complexes let alone the Capitol. So, I immediately call my parents to let them know what is going on. I continue on to work. I get there at 2:25 like I usually do. I like to be early. I let the janitor on duty know about the shooting and he thanks me and informs me that his wife works at the state capitol but is off today so that is a good thing for him. I proceed to go hang out in the Gym where we hold Scope. Loretta comes in from the office and I share with her. She has yet to hear anything about it either. School gets out just like normal at 3pm and all the Scopers come to the gym and we get things going. Then Loretta gets paged and calls the Scope office. All schools are to now go on lock down for the rest of the day. We are all stuck inside. Oh boy. That wasn't a huge deal but I was pissed. I was really pissed because I had found out about the shooting at 2:20 and it is after 3pm now and we are just now going on lockdown? Did the administration for the district purposely wait until all of the kids were dismissed before they started the lock down? So there is a murdered fleeing from the scene out and about and we just let all of the kids out onto the streets to do who knows what. Apparently the shooting happened at 1:38pm so I'm sure the school district had plenty of time to find out about this shooting and administer a lockdown order. Also my school is not too far from the capitol and down town, just about 6 springfield blocks from the capitol is my estimate. Not far for kids who like to ride their bikes all around.

So anyway, we lock down the school. We do snacks on the gym floor instead of the stage, the kids are wondering what is up, Loretta hears from someone that the guy shot actually died so it was a murder, when I heard it was just in the arm, so apparently the first story wasn't totally accurate. One kid over hears the word homicide and then later comes up to me badgering me for information, "come on, you can tell me" I'm like no, now go sit back down and eat your snack, don't worry about it. I wasn't too worried about it. We Were on lock down so no one was getting into the school without a key. Loretta had to sit by the front doors so that she could let parents in to get their kids. We were going to let the kids just play in the gym but they kept misbehaving and not listening to us at all. The were an onry squirrley bunch. So Loretta mandated that because no one would listen we would finish the entire book that we are reading to them. So I proceeded to read The Mouse and The Motorcycle to them for about the next hour and a half or so. Wow, that is the longest period of time I have ever read outloud to a group of people. A few fell asleep and were in such deep sleep that they had to be shaken awake and then once they were awake they didn't seem to know where they were. They just sat there with a blank stare not responding. So I had to start talking slower and using hand motions to try and get their attention. So that was fun. Not all the kids fell asleep though, others had energy and would not sit still, some kept edging closer to me so much so that they were almost on my feet. I would stop reading and be like, what are you doing. Go back to where you were there is no need for you to be this close. One of the kids, once she got picked up apparently her parents let her go out on her bike and she ends up riding over to the school. I'm like what in the world. Here we are on a lock down and the kids come back and just hang around outside.

So that was my crazy day with the kids yesterday. Today is a half day for the kids so that means a longer day for me. Instead of going back at 2:30 I get to be back there at 11am because the kids get out at 11:30. What fun. At least it isn't a whole day off and Scope is still running. I know I'm guaranteed a few of those days in december. I hope I make it through today. I'm not getting my nap in today so I assume that I will sleep very well tonight.

Don't you like me?

So, here it is... No one likes to comment on what I say but everyone loves to read it. I see Shoofly's site. It makes me jealous. People comment on his short quips and small stories. I write and write and apparently nothing is worthy of a comment. I do get the occassional comment from Melissa or Shoo. They are kind and loyal but I know more of you read this blog that I share my life in. If you want to just keep being a "silent partner" so be it. But I see what goes on behind closed doors. Well, not really. If I did then this blog might be more interesting.

So I haven't posted in 2 days and for Melissa she feels like that is forever. I appologize. I just figured that writing about how I just sat around all day on Sunday and never left the house and never amounted to anything would be boring for both you and myself. Because it was. I am not proud that I did jack crap on my Sunday. The second day of a whole weekend off. I assumed that I could take a day off from writing in here but that isn't the case.

So this will be of news to Shoofly. My dad and I had a mini tiff this evening. I know that Shoo loves to hear about my squables with my dad because that is one way that we relate so well. So I'm talking at the dinner table about how the Governor, Mr. Blowjobovich, is supposed to be on his way down to Springfield to hold a press conference about the State Capitol security guard that was shot and killed today by some lunatic. Says that that wasn't why he was coming, I'm like no, I heard on the news radio that it is the reason. Then he makes the statement that the Governor doesn't care about that. I'm like WHAT? How can you say that. You are saying that the Gov. does not care about a guard at his state capitol who was murdered while on the job in the actual state capitol. He is like I didn't say that. So then I repeat exactly what he said, and he was like, no I didn't say that, I'm like HOW can you say that. And we go back and forth. I say then explain what you meant by what you said. He wouldn't back up what he said because in my mind he knows that he is wrong. Finally he says He did say that but he isn't going to discuss it any further because he can see that an arguement is about to start. In my mind he already started an arguement by claiming that a man getting murdered doesn't matter to the governor. I was fuming. So I dropped it but I was PISSED. We haven't spoken the rest of the night. That is usually how that goes. Tomorrow we will talk as if nothing has happened and life goes on. Not worth it to stay bitter. Glad my dad isn't a politician, he would be like, who died? oh ok, so what's for dinner.

DAMNIT. I JUST WROTE A WHOLE STORY ABOUT MY AFTERNOON AND I ACCIDENTALLY ERASED IT. AHHHHH. That was a lot of writing too. I might post that later but I am pooped. This is all you get for now...

A horse with no name

So today is laundry day for me. I have nothing to do today. I am in dire need of whites. Been having to wear sandals because of the lack clean socks. Which actually I prefer to wear sandals and flip flops as opposed to sneakers and socks. My feet like to be able to breathe, they told me so. So, I'm just lounging around the house, watching movies, playing online poker, eating, chatting with the parents. I think I might wash my car in a little bit if I afford myself enough time. It needs a good hand washing. I haven't done that for it yet since I got it in December.

I like how people refer to events that don't even concern them drama. Like "Oh, I hear I missed the drama last night" For one, I feel that drama isn't that big of a deal in the scheme of life. If it actually affects you personally then ok. But if it is someone else's drama then let it be. It isn't a big deal. Don't get involved if it isn't a direct concern. It is interesting to watch sometimes but just to watch. Too many emotions flowing in drama for me. I like to keep my drama to myself. That is why people don't think I have much drama. Or maybe you do think I have drama and you keep it to yourself? It's whatever.

1 week until my old coworkers' wedding up in Bloomington. I'm excited. It should be a good time and I love weddings too. I haven't been to one in over a year. Since my sister's wedding to be exact. Which was a kick ass time. I don't expect to have that good of a time but I know it should be fun.

Well, off to put in another load....

Mamma said knock you out.

Yay, Thursday is finally here. Going to the bar tonight. I'm going to relax and gripe about kids. I couldn't imagine having kids yet. Wooo baby, not anytime soon. Of course I wouldn't have 20 at one time but still sometimes just one kid can be the annoyance. I had kids beating on other kids today. I had to lay down the law and they didn't think that I was serious. Oh boy, I'm going to start being "Mr. Kyle isn't joking around" Kyle. I had to send them in from the playground because they were playing too rough. Putting dirt on each other then hitting. I'm like Whoa Whoa Whoa, come here! Then one as he is coming climbs up the slide and runs down it which is against the rules too. I'm like no way! He is in trouble and then breaks a rule as he is coming over to be in trouble. These kids have some nerve. Let me tell ya. I'm like go inside right now. They just stand there. I'm like GO NOW! Still just kind of whine saying stuff to get out of going inside. I'm set though. Not budging. I radio in to Miss Loretta and let her know that they are on their way inside and to expect them. Oh yeah... They knew I was serious then. And in they went. I had to do that with another kid who was doing some pressure point on his cousin so that he was on her knees, I'm like stop that. He keeps doing it. Shouldn't you stop immediately when a teacher says to stop. Well, I told him to go inside immediately too and he is like "what?" " I was only doing this, no big deal" I'm like yes it is, you don't do things like that. So in he went.

Well, I'm done ranting about the little devils for right now. Heck, I still have 1 day left in this week. I could write a daily book about these kids. I still like them though. Even though they test me all the time. But now it is about time to sit down and drink a few imports and throw back some popcorn and relax at my favorite bar DH Browns.

Hump hump hump

Yes, It was hump day today. I was so happy when hump day finally passed. It is practically the weekend now. Tomorrow night I am going out. I work the door Friday night. The next 2 days should go by pretty quickly. Work was a light day today. They wore me out still but they didn't bicker like thay have been. I got about an hour of Butt Soccer in before everyone decided that they did not want to play anymore. I shot some hoops with the new kid. He kicked my behind. Not literally. One girl was throwing up towards then end of the day and had to go home before real school was over. Oh boy am I glad that happened before she got to me. I didn't feel like dealing with another vomit kid.

I did another good deed today. I did the grocery shopping for my mom. She's been tired lately and when needed I step up to the plate humbly. I also went on a prescription drug run yesterday for my great uncle who just got out of the hospital and my mom. My parents bedroom is almost finished. Yay. I might be able to talk my dad into getting Microsoft Office 2003 which I see is newer than Office XP. If he can find our Office 2000 box then we may be able to get the upgrade price instead of purchasing it new price. Grrr. I'm still up. I really need to go to bed. But I'm so not tired. I've drugged myself already and this is pissing me off. I'm going now, bye

Too Sweet?

Ok, I have a problem. I hate it when people say that something is too sweet to eat. Is that really possible? Isn't sweetness a characteristic that most people enjoy. When someone says that something is too sweet it means that they are eating something sweet. So when they purchase an item knowing that it is sweet and expect it to be sweet how can they not eat it after tasting it and say that it is too sweet. That is just nuts. If something is sweet then it is sweet. Now there is a level above sweet and that can sometimes be called bitter because I used to have these concentrated sugar pills that you put into a huge thing to sweeten it. But if you just put the pill on your tongue then you would probably spit it out saying it wasn't sweet because it was beyond sweet.

I am just saying. If you like sweets then embrace sweets. Don't be a pansy and order a sweet item and then not eat more than a bite because it is "too" sweet. You just can't handle its awesome sweetness. I say the sweeter the better.

I was planning on calling it an early night but I don't seem to be tired...

Long ass day

Man, today was long. I knew when I woke up today that it was going to drag. The morning was slow. I actually had stuff to do during my break between shifts. I was almost late getting back to work at 2:30pm. I'm usually there early because I like to be early. I walked in exactly at 2:30pm. Then it was soooo freakin hot. OMG. Hot inside, more hot and more humid outside. So we stayed inside. The kids decided to not get along today and the only thing they could do was argue. Wow can they argue. With me and more with each other. It was wearing me down. I was so happy when 5pm rolled around. Granted I still had another hour but most of the kids leave between 5 and 5:30. So it gets quieter and quieter until it is just Loretta and myself. Then we just sit there and sigh. Usually discuss how the day when and what went well and what went wrong. If there are certain kids to work on or not. We got a new kid to the program yesterday. He has been quiet so far and I hope it stays like that but he participates well and follows instructions. I might start using him as an example. Say things like, look how Justin is following directions... and such. I was so happy to get off work today, come home and relax in a nice cool air conditioned house. Woo wee. It felt nice.

I'm looking forward to Thursday for 2 reasons. First of all I believe that it will be my first payday. Which I am in dire need of because my money I got back from ISU in June is about to run out. Literally. Second I think Thursday might be the first night this week that I will be able to get out of the house. Anna is coming to Springfield from Chicago to hang out with Farah and Melissa and company. I don't know if I will actually have cash yet but I have my ways of having a few drinks.... a tab. Then they put me to work to pay it off. It is a fair deal. I have already drugged myself this evening so that I can get a full night of sleep tonight.

So Ed is working at the bar tonight. I want to go visit but I can't. It isn't in the cards. I really need to get a full night of sleep tonight. I don't have money anyway and I would end up staying out later than I planned on. So I am being responsible to myself and not even going out in the first place.

My parents have finally gotten their new carpet in their bedroom. I expect them to move back into their bedroom tomorrow and out of the guestroom next to my room. It is weird having them on my side of the house. I feel as though I have less privacy and run into them more often when I don't feel like interacting.

I miss my spleen. I worry about getting sick so much more now. No more worrying about bruising. Now I worry about germs and infections. These kids cough and I'm like, COVER YOUR MOUTH! WASH YOUR HANDS! Kids are dirty. When I have kids I'm going to make them be clean. Maybe even as clean at Philly Cream Cheese with up to 3 showers in 1 waking day. This one girl always has a runny nose. I don't know what the deal with that is. I'm like carry a tissue, it's running again.

Is it the weekend yet?

A girlfriend?

So my weekend was good. Saw Crow on Friday night. He decided to drive to Springfield to hang out for 45 minutes and then drive back to Peoria. He saw me so I suppose it was worth it. HA! Saturday I went to the Hangar Party and saw F5 with Jenny. That was a good time. Today I did a little mowing that I really really needed to get done. Sat around the rest of the time. Reier stopped by the house. We chilled, watched a movie, and then he went and got an ice cream pie from Baskin Robbins. That was really really good. Today I watched Lost In Translation and Deuce Bigalow on tv. Those are good. I've seen Deuce before. I'm kind of tired now so I'm going to stop writing. Catch you later...

Remembering something that can never be forgotten

Today is September 11th, 2004. Three years since the tragic terrorist attacks against our country, The United States of America. Many people died that day fighting, fleeing, helping, and some never even knew what was happening. Please take an especially long moment to reflect on that day. Maybe say a prayer for the surviving families and loved ones.

Remember, think rational but always keep love in your heart.

Ah memories

Today I got an email from Tammy from up in Bloomington. I had been meaning to give her a call and her email finally pushed me to the point that I had to call. So we chatted about little things. I filled her in about how I finally got a job. I will be seeing her in 2 weeks though because old coworkers of ours are getting married and I am invited. Tammy is a bridesmaid. It should be a good time and it is an "adult" reception. Aww yeah, no little kids running around. I like that alot. I think for now I'm going to try and keep the kid interaction down to relatives and at work.

I got my packet from work with all the forms for insurance, retirement, and pension. I'm becoming a member of a few organizations now. It's going to be cool. They take my money and I will see no immediate results. What fun. Dues and taxes are wonderful.

Last night was a good night. I chilled down at the bar until about 11:30pm. Then I headed home and proceeded to just lay in bed awake until after 2am. Yes, I actually went straight to bed too and did not hit up the computer. I hate laying in bed awake. I feel like I should be doing something, but if I get up and do something I also feel that is not helping me to become tired. So I then will stay up later. So if I had gotten back up would I have stayed awake longer than 2am? I don't know. I didn't try it. Hard to try 2 different scenarios at 1 time. Kind of impossible for us mere mortals.

I'm up for doing something tonight, but I'm wondering how much energy I will actually have. I don't work the door at all this weekend, that is unless Ed really wants me to work the door for him on Saturday evening. Since he somehow got scheduled for door even though there are 2 official door guys. Matt and myself.

I'm happy to see someone likes my format. Yeah, I talk about my day. It's my life. Sure I'll talk about it. If I don't talk about my day then what else do I have? Not much. Maybe some politics or something. The weather even. I could just post every time I hear something new about any type of hurricane. No? You don't like that? Oh ok.

Oops, I did it

Yay! Hump day is officially past the hump. No more humping today. At least in referencing the passing of the middle of the week. Today was a good day. Even though I couldn't fall asleep last night I woke up fine and went to work. The mornings always go by pretty darned quickly. Heck, I'm only there for an hour and a half. Then I head home and eat and plop down to watch some Regis and Kelly every morning at 9am. I love that show and of course Kelly is hot. That always helps. The only thing that doesn't help is that she is married and has about 3 kids. But, she is still hot. So that's cool. So after that I take my midday nap. Something that I can't seem to avoid. I think, hey, I've got energy and I should be able to stay up all day. Well at about 10:30 or so I hit a wall, and I hit it hard. I can't keep my eyes open and I have to go sleep. I always think that I might just sleep for an hour to catch up. That never seems to be the case. I usually sleep until about 1:30ish and then I get ready to go back to work for 2:30 until 6. This is a fun schedule but no one can complain anymore about how I sleep because I am working now and that is the important thing. See, I got criticized about my sleep patterns quite a bit while I was unemployed. So, I say, Hey, I'm working, so back off. Those rugrats wear me out. Oh! I got to read outloud to the little children today. It was great. I read 2 chapters from The Mouse and The Motorcycle. I even put 2 kids to sleep because I was so good. I think I did a great job. There were not too many disturbances today and it appeared that all were paying attention. I played some candy land this morning and some chutes and ladders. That was great fun. I haven't played those in so long. Although as we play all I hear is that I could have done this or that could have happened if I did this and I'm like, well it didn't just take your turn if you actually want to play. Sometimes I don't think it is the actual game that they want to play, more of the action of playing anygame.

Well, tonight I'm going to do my first week night out in over a week and a half. Apparently Wednesday nights have become ladies nights at the bar. Large hordes of cute girls come in for the frozen vodka lemonades. Which won't be around much longer. So, I figure since I am able to take a nap when I get home from work, I will be able to go out for a few hours this evening. Although I do need to get some mowing in sometime soon. Since I said I would....

"I think about you day and night. When I look at you I know it's right. You mean more to me than I can ever say. In the future will be our day."

poetry, or something like it

I would wait for you to see
All for you that I can be
I can walk through the blazing fires
Watch patiently as time transpires
I feel in my heart all that can be
The most I can do is just be me
Fill your glass with an honest compliment
Then I sit nearby and just lament
Why can't it be all that it could be
There is no need for an army
To storm down the barrier of your lot
A wish for all I have to do is knock
For if the key is a simple handle turned
You think with time I might have learned



Keep your friends close
Keep your enemies closer
Keep those you love closest

VOODOO Daddy

Man oh man. My sleep still isn't right. Of course I had a long kick ass weekend but geez. I feel like something is wrong when I pass out in the middle of the day for 2 and a half hours. I could sleep more but I have to go back to work here in a little bit. When I woke up this morning though I actually hit snooze. Which is a funny word in itself. Just look at it "SNOOZE". Oh well, I knew that I would probably need some more sleep but when I got back from work I was wide awake. It is always gradual for me to get to that passing out stage. Usually after I eat my brunch too. I never eat before work. Because I'll be home in 2 and a half hours anyway and be able to take my time and eat. I think it is the food that really induces my mid day coma. I'll have to put that into further review.

Oh, I put the phone number for cool 101.9 into my cell phone so that I can call in and win things now. Because I listen to them on my commutes and I do get to listen to them while at work. We have a radio playing oldies in the background throughout the day.

If anyone in insterested this is a POSSIBILITY in the near future. Ed and I are trying to work this out. We are thinking about going to VOODOO Music Festival down in New Orleans, LA again this year. It is usually right at Halloween but it appears to be 2 weeks before hand this year. It is Oct 16 and 17 which is a Saturday and Sunday and they have about 40 bands usually divided up on 3 stages over the 2 days. There are going to be some kick butt bands and musicians there to name a few Green Day, Cowboy Mouth, Kid Rock, New Found Glory and so on... I suggest that you check out their site. http://www.voodoomusicfest.com/home.htm They list the artists that they have signed up already in their neat webpage. Ed and I are thinking about getting the 2 day superpass which is 70 dollars because 1 day is just 40 bucks and there are bands that we want to see on both days. If you are interested when you see us bring it up. We are not sure we are going yet either. It may conflict with baseball playoffs. Or other personal things. BUT it is in the talks stage.

Happy Labor Day!

What a WEEKEND! WOW! I haven't done that much exciting stuff in my life! Well, maybe I have but I just haven't told you about it. I don't tell you everything you know. More because I forget to put it on here but sometimes I don't fill in the whole story on purpose. For example, Friday after I got off working at the bar had a little fun. Went for a ride in a limo. Hung out at Big Al's. Celebrated my bachelor party. No, I'm not getting married. I met a few cops. I had some donuts. I worked Satuday night also. Amanda G and Nick L were home for the weekend. I got to see them a little bit. They didn't really hang out with me at the door so it was more of a few words exchanged then they hung out with everyone else that came to the bar. I went home afterwards. Took Amanda home so we got to chat a little more. Then I get woken up at 4:10am by Miss Jenny who can't seem to find Farah's house. So in my sleepy pissed off that I got woken up state I directed her there. Jenny was being nice and taking Farah home but my guess is that Jenny shouldn't have been driving either. I hope that they had fun, from what they can remember from that night. Something about some guy's swimming pool ? So I get back to sleep because I have to get up in the morning and drive to Indianapolis the next morning because I'm going to a Ribs Festival. Oh yeah! Ribs Across America! That was a blast. No one would come with us or rather everyone had "other" plans. Crow is the one I'm most disappointed in. I told him and told him of his options. BUT! He wanted to see his family. He complains and gets very defensive too about how he hasn't seen his family in 2 months. I'm like, fine. Okay. So you choose this weekend to see the parents and not party with friends. I get it, you don't want to chill. I pick family over friends once in a while too. But it is nice to balance. So here is the kicker everyone!!! Crow calls me up Sunday evening while I am in Indy at the Fest. He says he is bored and wants to go out but there is no one to call. I'm like BULLSHIT! YOU SHOULD BE HERE! I have been pushing for him to go see Cowboy Mouth, my favorite band with me for a long time now. And he has expressed that he really wants to see them too. So when he gets a chance to see them for FREE! and stay at a hotel in another town and kick it with really good friends. Don't you think you would jump on that? He didn't even stay in town for the day. He ended up going back to his apartment in Ptown before the night was up. So he didn't even stay the night at his parents! AH! What's up with that? All this family time that he has been raving about? Well, I don't know if I can let this slide this time. Then there is Shoofly. He was the one who discussed with Ed about getting a hotel room and making it an over night thing. Ed calls me and is like I got the hotel room and I'm like... We're staying the night? So yeah, Shoo was a big part of this and then he decides he doesn't want to see a kick ass band, drink some micro brews that are only days old, and have fun in an awesome town, but he goes camping. Because you know winter is coming this next weekend and camping isn't allowed after that. Everyone get your snow shoes out. So I'm ranting and ranting. I know you can't hear my tone but I'm not pissed but I wanted to have a kick ass time with all of my friends. I know that Ed and I can have a kick ass time with just us but we like to share these experiences with others and not to just tell them about it. It is cool if you are there with us. Phil didn't come cause he had bowling, or family, or situps to do. I'm not sure on that one. But he has seen Cowboy Mouth with me before and can CONFIRM how awesome of a live band they are. You can be in the most depressed mood and if you go to their concert you will say. WOW, where did I get all that energy from? They are just that good. I finally got my White Castle. I have been craving that since I saw the movie Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. Ed and I met an interesting guy who apparently is a bathroom attendant at the near by Strip Club. He talked our ears off the entire time. I learned about how grey hound busses don't get pulled over on the highway, and White castle has 24 hour surveilance that is piped into come company in Texas, and they are the first ones to respond to things that happen within. They have access to the intercom and can say "wake someone up" if they fall asleep there. They listen in too. I'm like, neat, I've never heard of that before. He seemed to go there often. Ed got a little antsy when he noticed that the guy had a medic braclet, and I'm like, it's cool. It's just another adventure in our lives. There's nothing wrong with taking the risk of sitting next to the looney guy. He can probably provide you with the most interesting conversation you've had in months. And he did have some interesting things to talk about. But Ed kept asking me if I was done with my burgers. I kept telling him no because I wanted to hear more of what this guy had to say. Plus maybe not many people listen to this guy. If people are chatty like that then maybe there is a reason. They don't have someone to lend an ear. I'm going to be in there munching on my burgers not talking much. I say, let the man speak.

I go back to work in the morning. My first 3 day weekend is over. Blah. Hehe. Can't wait to see the little tykes. Of course.

TGIF!!!

YAY! I can say TGIF! And I am too. I know I know. I have only been working 3 days but woo this has been an exhausting change for me. The place where we hold Scope at Enos is in the Gym on the Stage. This is an old school. I'm guestimating that only 2 to 3 rooms in the entire school building have air conditioning. The air flow is horrible too. It is stuffy and hot even in the early morning at 7am when it is really cool outside. So we sit on this hot stage for most of the time besides when we are outside watching the kids play. The heat zaps all of my energy. I have been getting decent nights of sleep in and I am still really tired at other times. Today I had to crash and sleep at 11:30am and I slept until 1:45pm and then I got up and went back to work. I allowed myself to sleep because I knew that I would be up late working the door at the bar this evening. Those kids are exhausting too. We have about 15 to 20 of them, the number varies. It takes alot to keep an eye on them. Always complaining, always fidgeting, always being annoying and picking on other kids, tattling on other kids. I don't remember other kids being like that when I was little. But of course this is Scope. This isn't a normal classroom persay. I do like the mornings a whole lot better than the afternoons. The kids are still waking up so they are quiet. It is only and hour and a half and breakfast time is included in that also and then I can go home and do whatever I want until I go back at 2:30. I'm ready to sit down and have a few cold drinks this evening. sigh

So Early!

Well, this whole work thing is just crazy. For 3 days now I have been getting up at 6 am or earlier. I already feel like I've been doing this for a long ass time. I have been going to bed at about 9pm for the past few nights also. That is even crazier. To think that I would ever be going to bed that early is weird. Now, here I sit and it is the middle of the day. I got a full night's sleep last night and I feel so tired. Isn't it supposed to be that if you get a good sleep in the night before then you should be wide awake and alert the following day? I'm about to have to take a nap. Especially so since I work more this afternoon and then I work the door tonight from 9 until 1am which now is past my bed time. I also work tomorrow night at the door from 9 until 1am too.

Thought it was a good idea

So here I sit. It is 2:30am and I am wide awake. I don't believe this is because of my old sleep schedule. I usually can start a new schedule pretty easily. I was up at 6am this morning. I had a full day. I worked. I worked out. I worked again and then I was pooped. Yes, I couldn't believe how tired I was at the end of the day. I nearly passed out while watching the Cubs play. It was about 8:30pm and I couldn't keep my eyes open. So I think this is a really good sign. I can get another full night of sleep in to help me get back into a normal sleep pattern. So I head to bed and pass out. I sleep and sleep. It feels like I've been asleep for forever. Well, I wake up and I think that it must be nearing 6am soon. I put on my glasses and check out the clock. Well, it is only 12:30am. I'm like, WHAT!? I was wide awake. I only slept for 4 hours. It doesn't seem like nearly enough for as tired as I was. Well, I say to myself, it is probably in my head and I am actually still tired. So I lay there in bed trying to fall asleep. Well, I tossed and turned for over an hour. I'm like OK! FINE! So I get up and get on the computer. I check my email and I've gotten a few real ones. I try to unsubscribe to the loads of junk emails that I get every day. Some are successful and some are not. But yeah, I want to know why I am awake. I really shouldn't be up right now. I hope to get back to sleep soon but I hate just laying in bed awake.

I felt bad. Ed wanted me to go out and hang with him down at the bar this evening. Not late or anything. He knows I have to get up early and I was almost willing to go out until maybe 10pm and then come home and go straight to bed. So damn tired that I had to pass. But now look at me, I'm up and wide awake.

Scope was good this afternoon. Some of the kids are hyper-hypos. Others are a little off. And others are pretty cool and just kids. I guess that our max enlisted at our school is just 22 kids. Today in the afternoon we had 15. They don't always come. Scope is there to help out working parents who can't keep an eye on their kids until after they get off work. It is a very good program. We try to help mold them by teaching manners and how to play fair among other things. They get snacks too. Lucky kids. I am really excited about this job and the lead that I work under said today went well. Meaning that I did well and she thinks this will be good. The kids were not as wild today apparently and she says that it is probably because there was a Man presesnt, that's me. They all want to play games with me and I'm like okay, 1 at a time. Or I try to get them to play games together and I can supervise. Teach them to share. Even if it means sharing me apparently.

Well, I am going to get a glass of water and attempt to go back to bed. It is nearing 3am and I get up at 6am so maybe my body will view this as 2 long naps in sequence and be refreshed for a full day tomorrow too. I hope... Goodnight all!

First day. Jitters?

Today felt exactly the same to me as when I was a little kid and that is like the first day of school. In a way it is the first day of school for me. Although I'm not going to learn and I'm not going to teach persay. I woke up at 6am like planned. That was weird in itself. My dad was already up, showered and finishing breakfast by 6am. He is always on the ball. It helps that he goes to bed by like 9 or 10 in the evening. I myself got to bed by 11pm which is really early for me but anymore I think that will be just about right. I may try to get to bed earlier too. I'll see how 11pm works out for now. I was acquainted with the morning children this morning. I have only really learned for sure 1 kid's name and the others will come to me slowly. It's the one that are the trouble makers that seem to stick out the most. I think they won't be too much of a handful though. I was told that more children do the afternoon Scope than in the morning but total there are only 22 children enrolled. This shouldn't be too tough. It is the Lead of that school's Scope and myself that oversee the children. It appears to be pretty calm and orderly in the morning. I'm anxious to see how the afternoon goes, seeing as how it is longer and also the kids have pent up energy by the end of the school day from sitting around learning all day.

I just wrote my old boss from Box & Go an email catching him up on my life now that it appears to be going somewhere. I like to keep in contact with him because he is a great guy and I like him alot. I'm probably going to call my old job up in Bloomington in a little bit also to let them know that I have finally found work and see how they are doing.

It is shortly after 11am right now and I feel as though I've only been up an hour or 2. It is weird. Even though I've been up 5 hours already. The morning went by very fast. I wonder if every day will be like this. Will the afternoon shift go by just as fast? Time will tell on that one.