Ah today...

Today was gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you. I have today off. It is nice I slept in until about noonish. A much needed sleep since I was almost up 24 hours yesterday. I think I am going to watch a moooovie or something today. Oh yeah.... Last night I got decently drunk with John, Phil, and Ed. Ran into Sheri, Jackie, another Kyle, and I think Sheri's other roommate Sarah was there but I don't see her enough for me to be certain. Ran into an old neighbor and yeah that was oh so much fun let me tell ya. I saw Katrina Kristofalakas and said hi to her and a friend of hers at the PUB knew Ed as a Springfield bartender, that was funny he can't get away without being recognized. Met 2 guys who shared our table that are from Elkheart I think and they frequent Springfield alot and went to colleges there LLCC and Springfield College. I forget their names already. It was loud and I was toasty. John had to seperate from us because he had business to take care of. Ed and I set some moderately high scores on PHOTOHUNT at the PUB II. Of course we have the top score now.I spent more money than I should have and had to add to my loan. I get paid tomorrow though and that should be fun. So yeah, if anyone ever wants to just visit me, call me and I'll see what I can work out. Oh and Crow wouldn't come and hang out last night. Said he would come after he got his Chinese dinner but apparently that was a long ass dinner because he never showed. I had to park on the street in the tightest parallel job I have ever done. Ed and Phil both saw it and it was amazing.

God works in mysterious ways whether we agree with his ways or not.

Oh God....



OH GOD THAT WAS CLOSE! sigh.... We can breathe now...

OH YES!...


Woo baby, I'm so excited. I am off of work starting now at 4pm until Friday at 11am. I'm having some fun tonight. It is like a Saturday for me. I already got invited to the Pub to watch the Cub game which is somewhere I was probably going to go anyway. YES! I like the Pub alot and if I recall it is 3 dollar pitchers on Wednesdays unless they changed that since I last was there a long time ago now. Actually I just figured out I am going to go in an hour to the Pub. Wooo!

I talked the talk...


I was saying that I wanted to hang out with people tonight and something came up and I could have done it but then the realization that I wouldn't get to bed at a decent time and responsibility of waking up for work hit me. I decided to pass on going at to friends' apartment at the last minute because I felt that on this particular night sleep is more important. If it were any other night I'm sure it would be different but I have to open the store in the morning and it opens at 8am so that means that I have to get there at least 20 minutes before that and leave my apartment even 20 minutes before that so I have to more than likely get up at about 6:45am for 8am work. THAT my friends is damned early for me, about 2 weeks ago that would have been when I was getting home from a night of partying in Springfield but tonight I have to hit the hay and go to sleep so I can wake up that damned early. WOOO! I love responsiblity. So, sorry to Karah, Phil, Crow, and Heidi that I said I would grace you with my presence but then bailed. I do need sleep because today was an ass long day and I expect it to be the same tomorrow.

Chatted with Shoofly briefly tonight not much about anything in particular. Then I chatted with Reier and he caught me up on what was going on in his life. Grrr I would rather be chilling at the girls' apartment right now but stupid working at 8am and needing sleep. I wish I never needed sleep and was always refreshed.

Ed if you read this I am actually going to sleep soon so don't give me a heartattack again and think I am up. HAHA. I was so disoriented, I'm sorry my computer made you think that I was up and at my computer. It is stupid like that. Just like how I have no sound right now and also how my computer just shut down during a power surge and wouldn't come back on at all and then after sitting unplugged all night I plugged it back in and hit the on button and it started right up. It is turning into a piece o crap.

Oh yeah people of Springfield... I HAD TACO BELL TONIGHT! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

Ah to be back...


I finally feel like I am back in Normal. I worked today just like usual and then I came home and started drinking. Oh yes, I love having a few beers after a long day at work. I hung out and played Washers with Phil and Tony for a while. Then played some Hot Shots Golf 3 with Philly on the PS2. Phil finally went to work on some school related stuff. I then chilled until Crow got home and I then hung out with him the whole rest of the night. I probably have more to say right now but it isn't coming to mind.... let me think.


Oh yes, today Monday was Farah's birthday so Happy Birthday Farah! Sorry I couldn't be there for your actual birthday but work has been calling my name. I gave her a call a few minutes ago to see if she was enjoying her birthday night but she didn't answer her cell phone. I hope she gets my message but I don't want to be woken up here after I fall asleep in a few minutes.

There has been talk about our party. Beach Party : Girls Clothing Optional is the theme that we are working on. Don't be shy ladies you know you are all exhibitionists at heart. You might say in your dreams and yes I am a dreamer.

I have Thursday off of work this week so I am going to try and have myself a good time this Wednesday night. Gotta love being able to sleep in. I think I might hit up the Pub II. I haven't been there in forever and then follow that up with some LA BAMBAS! WOOHOO!

Oh yeah, I shaved my head... and no not just buzzed. It is shaved to the skin. Big difference it is. I just hope to get some reasonable amounts of sun on it so it isn't so white. :) I think it looks good but will take some getting used to.


I saw Kill Bill vol 2 yesterday, and it rocked as do most QT films. Uma is the shit. Even Cowgirls Get The Blues.

I could have won...


Lots has been going on. Where do I start? Well shoot. I slacked on updating and now I don't feel like recounting much of what I did over the past 2 days. Okay here it goes. Got paid Friday, went out and bought a case of beer with my first paycheck, started drinking that, hung out with neighbors and played washers, watched the Cub game and they won, went to Chevy's with my friend Tammy, ate a lot and had a grande margarita, came home had a few more beers with neighbors, went to Lori's party at her apartment with Phil and Crow, I was soooo full from dinner I wasn't able to drink anymore which I was only in the toasty stage and that died off quickly, Crow left early and I realized I should have gone with him but I didn't so then I could tell Philly didn't want to take me home yet so I just walked home, that was a nice walk. Got back to my apartment and then went to bed.

Saturday morning I went and opened up the store. It was stupid customer day and everyone was dumb as a box of rocks. I had one customer who had an extra digit. Yes, he had an extra thumb coming off of his actual thumb. It was so cool but I tried not to stare. I wonder if he has ever thought about having it removed cause it was smaller of course but big enough to actually be called an extra finger I'm sure. Oh also the air conditioner at work is broken already so Tammy and I were burning up in there with no breeze on a very hot day. After work I closed shop and then went back to my place and took a wonderfully cold shower. Got ready and headed back to Springfield for the night because Farah was having a birthday bash for herself at her place. That was fun lots of good food which consists of burgers, hot dogs, and chips and Melissa's punch which was delicious. We chilled at Farah's until about 10pm then we headed to The Bar which is where I ended up staying the whole night until going to a 3am bar which last night for me was Stella Blue. It was a pretty calm night, no drama, lots of fun, fun seeing people that I hadn't seen in a week. I saw Laura C and Jon R last night too and I actually haven't seen them in quite a while. They don't make it around too often.

Ed tells me that last Thursday when I was at Dempsey's I had put my name in a box to win Blink 182 tickets. Well apparently they drew the names a week later which was like 4 days ago and that name was mine!!! WHAT THE HELL! I apparently had TO BE THERE to get the tickets or else they go to someone else. I put my phone number on the ticket which means that they will call you right??? APPARENTLY NOT! I was in Freakin Bloomington this week because I finally went back to work. I lost out on winnning the Blink 182 tickets. THEY WERE MINE! I COULD HAVE HAD THEM! I'm pissed. I never win. But I won. But I didn't. It sucks. I know. Feel sorry for me.

Right now I'm about to have my head shaved. Wish me luck.

PhotoHunt


Ed just made himself a blog too!!! WAHOO! Everyone is doing it. Ed's blog is Theed's blog.

Check it out, that is all. Later!

Cleaning...

I actually do get hit by the cleaning bug every so often. You people may not believe it but it is true. I just got done spiffying up the kitchen and the living room. They are looking pretty good. Now I plan on starting to throw away all the garbage that is in my room. Some I don't really consider garbage but I am probably going to decide it isn't worth keeping and will throw it away like note books, weird trinkets I kept, and other random things.

Naps...


Yes. Naps are good. Everyone should enjoy a nap as often as they can. The best naps are when you least expect it. Like today I went to work and did all that then I got off earlier today at like 2:30pm. I headed home and hung out. Tried to fix my computer because it isn't playing any sound right now and is PISSING ME OFF. Anyway after I fiddled with my computer for a while I was like whoa, I need to lie down. So I did. At that point it was probably about 6pm and I woke up later at like 9pm by a phone call from Shoofly. It was freaking dark out! I couldn't believe I had just slept for 3 hours when I just wanted to lay down and rest for a few minutes. Apparently it was a much needed nap and very satisfying. It was one of those naps where I was dreaming the whole time it seemed cause I would wake up then go right back to sleep often. I can't remember any of them now but it was fun stuff. Dreams are darned cool. I wish I could document my dreams a little better because they would be some good watching for when I am awake, I'm sure of it. When I woke up Phil, Crow, and Kara were hanging out downstairs and I decided to join them because I didn't want to waste my whole night. Heck I don't work tomorrow and I don't want to sleep the whole night away, that would be a waste. So we hung out and watched a movie called Buying The Cow which is a good movie. It has Jerry O'Connell, Ryan Reynolds,Bill Bellamy. Alyssa Milano, and Bridgette Wilson (Veronica Vaughn) and was a pretty funny movie. Then we hung out and watched Conan Obrien who is much much better than Kilborne. Thank you thank you I know you all agree on that. I get paid tomorrow! YAY! MONEY! WOOO! I'm so excited. I also am going to start packing my crap up and throwing a lot of junk away. This should prove to be fun, I'm a pack rat I hate to get rid of stuff cause "You Never Know"

Well peace out. I'm going to bed. Call me, we'll do lunch or a whole lot more... oh baby

Bowling...

Well tonight was my last night of ISU Redbird League Bowling. It was so much fun. All the way back to the second week of classes this semester up until tonight I have bowled 2 nights. Well worth my 55 dollars that I paid to join the league and then the 13 dollars to become sanctioned under a Bowling Assoc. People had fun bowling in my while I was gone. I didn't really get to know more people like I thought I would because yeah, being there once in the middle and once at the end doesn't quite cut it. Some people are like who is that guy bowling over there. Well maybe not but I felt people thinking that is my thought. I sucked tonight only 1 decent game tonight for me out of 3, my high game was a 169. Bowling people are a lot of fun. I wish I had gotten to know most of them better. It would be cool to see them around after college is over.

I got a call from Jules tonight. I hadn't talked to her in quite a while. Not since the night she left her keys at Perkins and I had to take her back there then back again to downtown ending the night with the sun coming up. That was fun! But yeah, so she hadn't returned my calls for like the last week and a half or so... yeah cause I called he the next day and then the next weekend too, but yet, here she calls me and I'm up in Normal now. So we chatted briefly about me bowling and then about how I should be heading home this Saturday after I get off of work. So we will more than likely get to chill Saturday and then Sunday I will head back up here to Normal.

Funny thing tonight... I had put the coffee table askew and Phil noticed it and was all like, why is this like this, and i'm like does it matter it isn't hurting anything, and he was like yes it matters and fixed it immediately. He's so Obsessive Compulsive.

Oh yeah, last night's ravings were alcohol induced. I'm not as angry as I can sound.

AH! Ed found a website of a guy who is claiming that he and others have set a high score of 603,000 on PhotoHunt. WOW! Check this out.... http://www.whalehouse.com/news.html Start at the bottom and work your way up. It is a blog and has some short news about their Photo Hunt adventures.

So day 3 of really cutting back on how much I eat is going well. I think I may try to cut out soda from my daily diet and only drink it with alcohol. I am having pizza tomorrow. I have already decided that I will. I know it is bad for me in the sense that it isn't a healthy food. Hell I can have what ever I want but yeah, I've been watching what I eat so I feel that if I have a few slices and do not over do it then all will be well. Kind of one of those just go ahead and get it out of your system and then get back on track immediately types of things.

Work was good today. Busy to the pace of we had customers but then we didn't get backed up with stuff because they were coming in hordes. I like working there. It is fun. The staff is good and fun and friends. Ron my boss was back today and was happy to see me back. I showed him my scar and he was impressed and didn't think it would have been so big.

Well, I'm about to head to bed. It is almost 1am and I work at 9am and I like sleep so I'm going to try and get to that point. Goodnight all! Drop me a line.

Love me?...

Love me love me say that you love me. What's up beeyatches? So am I the last man standing? Has it all come down to me? Does that mean things are bad or fresh. Women don't know what they want. Men want what all men want. We know what we want. We cannot outwardly admit what we want as to not piss off what we want. I am a guy. Granted I'm probably not as jackass as most guys and I pride myself on this fact but at the same time I am a male.

My friends don't tell me shit anymore. Friends who don't talk can kiss my ass. If I want "friends" who don't talk about shit then I will go hang out with a group of strangers so I can sit there the whole night and try to figure out what they are talking about because that is exactly how it is with my "friends" right now. Important shit happens in a friend's life and I would think we are close enough to talk or share that. Reverse it I would be cool but apparently not with the way it is.

Can I just move away now. I thrive off of my friendships because I feel friends are the most important thing next to family. BUT lately I feel like I just want to move and leave everything behind. Kind of like just going to my room when I'm pissy but actually getting the HELL OUT OF DODGE. I would really like to maybe just start working on a cruise ship or something. Sail around the world while making it a pleasant trip for passengers of the cruise I would like to be able to take a "lady friend" with me and just start a new life. That would be cool. Sure we would struggle and have hard times but that is what life is all about. If things were always freakin easy then life would be boring as hell.

Da Cubbies...

The Cubs rock. The Cubs rule. If you claim any other then you drink dog drool.

haha. I love poetry. mmmm sigh.

I've inspired someone! I never knew I was inspirational. It's cool, I'm just sitting here thinking... "hey, that's cool" but that doesn't mean that I'm cool because if you say you are cool then you are not cool. Miss Lauren has started her own Damn that Connie Chung! blog. I think it shall prove to be a good blog.

My work was easier but still tiring today. Not used to being on my feet as much as I used to. I saw Shelly today. A very good looking customer who she and I have a good repore (sp?). I think she is a few years older maybe like 3 or 4. I asked her to go out for drinks with Jarod and I back in December but she declined because she was driving on a ticket. So yeah, I don't know if I should consider that shot down or not, shady on that one.

Ok, I'm watching COPS right now and I just saw them pull a drowned young man out of a river and into a boat. Both creepy and gross. I hope I never see something like that in person. There were other boats just sitting around watching the cops pull the body out. Like it was neat to watch or something....

Damn crap...


So yeah, work today was exhausting. I haven't done that much physical activity in a long ass time. What sucks though is that I have a nasty uncontrolable cough right now and my sinuses are going crazy too. So I'm trying to help customers and I kept having to turn away and cough infront of them. It wasn't like I could go around the corner and get it out of my system because it was a continuous all day thing. Actually I had crappy sleep last night because of the cough too. I took some dayquil stuff but that didn't help me at all. Well maybe right at first but yeah that didn't last long. I hate coughing infront of customers. I feel like it is so incredibly rude and gross but I can't help it. They want to ship their packages and then be on their way and I can help them do that but the cough comes along with the help. I know I don't like people to be coughing alot right infront of me. So that is why I really hate when I cough infront of others plus coughing in general just sucks ass. Other than that just a usual busy exhausting day at work today. If I wasn't feeling sick I was going to try and go for a walk tonight but I would be coughing the whole time and I also don't have a coat cause I left that in Springfield like an idiot.

Crow and Philly wanted to know if I wanted to go in on pizza with them tonight. I passed because mainly pizza is bad for you and then also because I'm trying to live off of what I have. By living off of what I have I then also can limit what I eat because even when I eat good for you food I eat way too much of it and then it isn't all that good because that is like overdosing. So if I have the mentality that I don't have much food to eat then I ration it out a lot better than a full pantry. I had myself some good salad and like 2 slices of ham and some V8. Good stuff and I'm making that all I have for the rest of the night. I hope to see good results soon. :)

Tonight is a tame night. Again trying not to spend money so that means not really going out. Trying not to drive my car much so that I can conserve gasoline. Trying not to buy food out as to save money and eat better at the same time. Trying to get back on a better sleep schedule because I am now going to be working every day. Save money cause I will soon have hella bills to pay.

That is all that is on my plate right now. I'll touch back later :)

Homework....


So I sit here at my computer, in my room, in my apartment. My roommates are doing homework as they should be. I am going to try to go to bed since I have a decently full day of work tomorrow and I haven't worked in about 3 months. Plus I don't have homework, HAHAHAHA. I shot pool tonight and that was fun. Played some Photohunt and that was fun too. It felt like I was still in Springfield. The machine that I play on here though does not have Wordster and that upsets me. I want to work on my skills while I am not in Springfield and keep them fresh and toned. Saw Chris and Kim tonight cause they were working at the BBC which I will inform you all this one time that BBC means Bowling and Billiards Center which is part of the ISU campus. Tomorrow is Monday and it is full of possibilities. I'm so excited. WOOO!

Easter Sunday...

Today is and was Easter Sunday. I got up for church with the parents and my sister. That was fun. While at church I chatted with a lot of people. The whole congregation has been praying for me throughout the entire time I've been sick and then the surgery. It has meant alot to me. I saw Amy A. there at church too. I chatted briefly with her before more people came up and interrupted our conversation. Then I came home and started to watch the Cub game and also had Easter dinner at the same time. I am so full. Very enjoyable and they won too. GO CUBS! Only butted heads with my dad like 2 to 3 times today. I think it is because he doesn't listen to me and orders me around. Not in a bad way but in a "hey, why don't you just freakin listen to the words that are coming out of my mouth" because then things would be a lot easier instead of assuming your son is stupid. He "over saw" me making a pot of coffee. Instructing me on how to do it. Use cold water he says, and I'm like ok. I'm just rinsing the pot with hot water first then I will put cold water in it. And he kept on me, no use cold water and I was like, dad I am and then he got pissed be cause he didn't listen to what I said. That is how I see it. If he would listen to his son instead of thinking I have no idea what I am doing. All this over a pot of coffee. Then he walked off mumbling to himself and then of course I'm like WTF what did I do, I said I got it. But he doesn't trust me. He doesn't have to wipe my ass although he acts like he needs to. I say stay the hell away from my ass pop.

I am about to head back up to BNL and I've got work in the morning. It is a beautiful day out and I'm hoping I get the energy to hit the road soon so I can drive in this beautiful weather. I'm ready to start making the bucks again. Yay for money. I like money. So for a while my posts will be from me back up in BNL at my apartment. I expect future posts to include work stories, drinking stories, and bowling stories. I think that Phil, Crow, and I are having a party at our place coming up soon. Get ahold of me for details.

So much but so little...

Merf's celebration was a good time. The birthday boy appeared to have an awesome time and that is what matters. It was his birthday after all. I had an ok time. I thought Phil and Vancil were going to come but they decided to say they were coming and then not show up at all or even call to give a heads up about not coming. That is a mark in the book under Bogus.

I hate times when it seems like there is more on your mind than you care to deal with. Then you think about what is on your mind and it is really nothing at all. I got into a funk tonight and I don't know for sure what it was that is the deal. I just feel that I need to get my shit together. I'm thinking about taking some drastic measures because extreme results require extreme measures to get there. Granted I say I am thinking because right now that is what I am thinking. Thoughts are a lot different than actions.

My time of fun and chaos is almost over and practically is right now. Sure I will be partying soon enough but on a daily basis? I think not. Nope. I go back to work on Monday morning after being off since January. 3 months of me just being a lazy bum. It has been fun and I have enjoyed every moment of it... of what I can remember. Now I need to get my ass in line and get some shit done. Yes I say shit a decent amount I hope I don't seriously offend anyone.

All I gotta say though... is what does that guy over there have that I don't have?

Don't make me out to be the chopped liver.

My Word...


One of my favorite lines from a movie right now is "The Dude abides" which is of course from The Big Lebowski. It is very close to my own feelings on life right now. People get reiled up over petty crap that won't matter tomorrow or even in a few hours. Going with the flow should be something that most everyone should be able to do. I am finding that it is not too easy for everyone. Some people want to be the center of attention and people who are actually at the center or are striving for the center cannot fully go with the flow. I like attention. It is nice. I feel though that if I get attention then that is cool but at the same time if I don't then it is whatever. Something else that has been pissing me off lately is when people do not take me seriously when it is blatently obvious that I am being serious. I do not get upset or rather mad very often. I have nothing to get mad about. If you give me something to be serious about then make it out like I am a bad guy and will not listen to me then that really irks me. Go ahead and try me. You don't want to piss off a pacifist. Does this make sense? I don't like fights (physical or verbal). Not my style but if things get pushed to that then I don't know what would happen. It hasn't happened so if you see where a guy has never been there before then expect the unexpected. I'm just saying. When I am serious then that means that I am serious. I wish every single person in the world who drinks alcohol could be paired with a nondrinking designated driver. I know I need one but I feel everyone needs one. I'm sorry that I care. I'm sorry that I don't notice these things like I should when drinking. Blah. Okay. I am tired about talking about this.

Today is Merf XXV : Twenty Five Years of Craziness. http://merf.justshoo.com It has been a long time coming. He has a hall rented and a band lined up and a DJ lined up and lots of Old Style Beer for Cubs fans, games, music, hot women. I think it will be an awesome time. Easter is in the morning so I think that might suffer a little bit. I warned my mom ahead of time so she wouldn't be freaked out if I can't wake up early.

OH! Today. Josh, you crazy kid. If I don't get to bed until about 6:15am then don't call me just over 6 hours later at 12:30pm. AT LEAST wait until about 2:00pm and even then I may not be able to function properly if I wake up. I need like 10 hours of solid sleep anymore and 6 hours is nowhere NEAR 10 hours of sleep. Also IF you wake me up go ahead and expect me to be very short, grumpy, and grouchy while talking to you and that is IF I talk to you at all. This goes for anyone who is calling me not just Josh even though he is the one who woke me up today suggesting I play frisbee golf which is ludacris. I don't play sports. Well I can but I don't desire to just play on a whim. I like to watch. That does not require an early call to wake me up. HEY! Want to watch us run around and throw a frisbee? My response is go away, I might meet up later.

Ok here is a motto that I have lived by for a long time. Running is only necessary if someone is chasing you with a knife.

With that I shall part ways until probably after the celebration. Peace, Love, and I'm outty.

Good Friday....

Yep. Went to the surgeon today for my 1 month follow up from my surgery. I got a clean bill. She said that I am healing up nicely and that I don't have to come back unless something unforseen comes up. I sat in the little room for like an hour just for her to say everything looks good. Man that was boring. I nearly fell asleep because I was out late and drank a decent amount last night and then I had to get up at 8:30am for this appointment.

Last night was a good time. I got pretty toasty with a lot of shots, some guiness, and some other beers here and there. I ran into a friend that I hadn't seen in a while because she had moved to Florida a while ago. She apparently loves guys with buzzed or shaved heads. I was like whoa. She said I looked hot and kept rubbing my buzzed head and also Ed's shaved head. It was a crazy time. This was over at Dempsey's which it was WDBR's Thirsty Thursday. It was pretty crowded. I'm not a big crowd kind of guy though. I always feel like I am knocking people over when I try to cut through the crowded masses. There was a decent crowd over at the bar also. Quite a few people that I knew and I met this guy Greg Potter and he is pretty cool guy.

Luva?....


I am a Luva to so many girls now. Oh baby! K gets around... well not really. It is a friendship I think you are cool just as a friend never gonna happen kind of term. Just like how a girl I knew a while back name to be withheld used to call me StudWagon. Or there is another girl who I shall withhold (to be fair to the first girl I withheld) who called me StillShaggin. Yeah, damned cool names but they didn't back any of that talk up. Which means "Friends Zone" (dun dun dun). I'm used to it. I smile and keep on trucking through the highway of life. Hoping to hit up a few rest stops along the way before I settle down where my truck runs out of gas.

Today was a fun day. I got up at 11ish today. I was very happy that I got up in time to actually enjoy the day. I started it off by getting my neighbor's dog back to their house cause they didn't know it was loose. Then I went to see Miracle at the dolla theater which was a good sports movie based on a true event. Then I went home and Ed picked me up and he and I ran errands. I went to the downtown post office for the first time. Before that I had only drunkenly walked by it going from bar to bar. Then he and I went to the park for a leisurely walk because we were both in sandals. To me this means walking slow and checking out all the goodlooking women that inhabit the park on a beautiful day. Since it is local school district spring break we were assuming a lot of 18 year olds. We sure were off today. There was like one good looking lady in the entire park! Well except the girl with the dog that was up by the trees as we were driving out of the park. Where was she when we were walking, hell if we know?! Farah met us there for a brief walk before she and Ed decided to go get greasy bad for you food after a healthy walk at Darcys. I opted to go home for good home cooking. Then during the home cooked dinner I realized that the Cub game was starting so I watched that and had a few beers and then got disappointed because they lost. Then I finished watching the Cardinal game and they won. So that sucked. Then after all the games Ed called me wondering where I was because some ladies had been wondering where the heck I was. WELL! I felt that much requesting of my presence warranted that I go to this place where they all resided. That my friends would be The Bar. I think I took last night off from the bar and that was because 2 of my buddies were at a Cardinal game which that one they lost. :0 So anyway, I hang out at the bar tonight and play some wordster and photohunt and talk shop with the fellas. I end up having 2 beers and 2 shots. I love that place. As soon as I have good money I'm like buying rounds upon rounds for people. Cause shit let me count the people, Ed, Mike, Lori, Lauren, Shoo, Matt, Melissa, Reier, and I'm sure Monica and Kristina too. So I'm just going to have to get everyone really drunk a few times to make up for all of their kindness because I have no income right now. OH! and LU and HENRY! GOD I can't forget them! So besides the bar just being a darned cool place it is the people who make it all worthwhile. I have a great time EVERY time I go and lately that has been like 5 nights a week minimum.

I wish I had money. I want to hit up La Bambas here in Springfield. I have yet to patronize it since it has opened and a Super Burrito or a Super Nachos always sounds so good. It's so good, Cause once it hits your lips, it's so good.

Well, That's all I have to say right now. I think of thought provoking things to say throughout the day but then forget them by the time I sit down to type stuff out. You know how that goes? I assume you do. I need a pad of paper and a pen and just write blurbs down to prompt myself for when I sit down at this keyboard. I swear I think of neat stuff... well... it is neat to me and that is all that really matters right? Because I view this as exhibitionism (sp?) and voyeurism. I put myself on display and you read it whether you like it or not! HA! And you read it whether you like it or not BECAUSE you don't decide if you like it or not until AFTER you read it so then you're stuck because you can't take that back. You cannot UNREAD something right? If you can unread something then let me know because I've read some crap before that I want to erase from the greymatter. Anywho. That's about it. Again. See... I love tangents and just writing off of the top of my head because sometimes I never know where it will lead me and I don't care how interesting it is because yeah... I don't care. So I will talk to all yaz playa hataz lata. PEACE LOVE AND i'm outty 5000

Happy Birthday!...


Well, today is my mother's birthday. Happy birthday to her. I have spent so much money lately that I don't have enough to get her a good gift. So I did what any good son does when he is broke. I cleaned the house like never before. The kitchen first of course because it needed a good cleaning. Then I did some vaccuuming and busted out the Old English and did some dusting. I did this all while she and my dad went to a movie this afternoon. I do plan on getting her something else though but I feel for now it isn't a bad start. It will be better once I have an income again. My mom is so cute sometimes, she can pick anywhere to go to dinner tonight and she really wants to go to Subway to try their newly advertised salads. Which is fine with me but knowing me I would have been like let's go to Olive Garden or Smokey Bones Restaurant. Alas though we are headed to Subway here in a few minutes for some delicious salads. I just thought, I should get my mom a new book. She loves to read and I do have a discount card for Barnes & Noble that I should be using more. *Note to self research books that my mom would be interested in.*

Well, Easter is coming up and that means family and good foods and I heard there is something religious about it too. Shan is coming home from Chi-town on Friday and I am happy to see her. I haven't seen her since February 20th. I wish I could see Jen here soon too because I haven't seen her since X-mas.

Well, I'm off. Drop me a line letting me know what you think of all of this :) The blog and all. You know what I mean.

Check ya later!

Unexpected AGAIN!...


Well, I just got home at 5:30am on Monday night/Tuesday morning. The plan was to just hang out with Ed while he tended bar at the bar tonight. But there seems to be a common occurance on Monday nights. We all seem to get much more intoxicated than we ever planned on getting. The bar was slow tonight so Ed and Lauren closed the bar down a little early because no one was in there. After close we headed next door to Dempsey's to have a few Dolla Rolling Rocks and see Merf and who ever else was working. That was fun and we stayed there until about 1:20am. Then Ed and Lauren are like Do you want to go to The Curve Inn? And I'm like sure whatever I'll hang for a little bit longer... WELL apparently shots and non stop beers are commonplace at the Curve Inn when I hang with Ed and Lauren. We had quite a few. We then decided that we needed to cool down and we went to Dennys. Mmmm. That was good but then we stayed there for over 2 hours. We didn't leave Dennys until about 5:15am. Luckily with the time change it is not getting light out at this time so I didn't feel as bad about drivinghome at 5:30am. It just ended up being a very long night. But every Monday lately has seemed to end up this way, seriously. Well, tomorrow or rather today is my Mother's birthday. I hope to be able to wake up early enough to be a good son and go get her something or else make something that she can appreciate. I am about ready to crash. I am sorry this hasn't been a cooler entry but yeah, I am VERY tired and sooooo about to crash. I will talk to you later. Byebye PeaceLoveandI'mOuttaHerree

What I do....


So, when I'm not out "getting my drink on" people wonder what else it is I do. Well, not really. I don't think people really care what I do at all. But let us assume that people have been asking. It is obvious that I spend a decent amount of time online, especially late at night. What websites do I go to you ask? I will post a few of my favorites right here.

http://www.imdb.com/ To check out old and new and future movies

http://www.amazon.com/ I hit up the DVD section and check out what I want to own

http://www.kryptonsite.com/ Smallville dedicated website, very professional and accurate

http://www.justshoo.com/ My bud Shoofly's website and blog

http://merf.justshoo.com/ Merf XXV "Twenty Five Years of Craziness" Birthday Site

http://chicago.cubs.mlb.com/NASApp/mlb/index.jsp?c_id=chc The Chicago Cubs OFFICIAL Website

http://sports.espn.go.com/mlb/clubhouse?team=chc The Cubs Clubhouse of Espn.com

http://www.robrob8.com/games/slap_the_monkey.htm I slap the monkey! 807mph is my highest.

http://kerasotes.com/Home.aspx I check out local movies and showtimes here in Springfield.


Well, I hope you enjoy those links as much as I do. The Chicago Cubs play today (Monday) at 1pm on ESPN and on Fox Sports. I am so happy the regular season has started. Wood is pitching the first game. GO CUBS!

Also, Yeah, I took at nap at 9pm for an hour and now I have been up most of the night. It is almost 4am and I have done absolutely nothing today or tonight. I've chilled and relaxed and didn't go out. That is about it. I will catch you "fans" later. Peace, Love, and I'm outtaheerrrrreeeee

T t t tt time change...


Quit stuttering boy, it makes you sound stupid. (in the voice of foghorn leghorn) Well last night was another fun night. I haven't really done a Saturday night in like 2 or 3 weeks now. It was a good night for me I suppose. Just a chill night like I wanted it to be. I helped out the bar by running (litterally) all around downtown trying to get it $5's, I swept up a broken glass that some drunk dropped on the floor, I helped to check I.D.'s with Shoofly at the door. We tag teamed that shite. I love shots of Jack now. I used to live in fear of them now I have embraced Jack with open arms. I didn't see many people that I haven't seen lately though last night. I sat and chatted with Natalie, Kristin, and Kristine for a while then Amber showed up and I graciously (as I could) got out of the booth and let her have a seat.

Oh and get this... Damned people were monopolizing the video game machine the entire night. I was like geez people get off of that! I wanted to play. That did not come until about closing time and there was still a decent crowd in there but the machine finally opened up. I got in a few games of wordster and photohunt. It wasn't enough though, I wanted more. So I was going to the Curve Inn with some people then they said they were going to go eat and not the Curve so I was like well if that is what is happening then ok. But nooo then everyone changed their mind again and I hear everyone is going home. So Ed and I not tired at all say let's go to the Curve. Lauren decides to join us there. Ed and I get there first and find out that they are strictly abiding to the 2am jump to 3am crap. It is exactly 2am when we get there and they are like sorry not serving. So that was crap. Ed and I got in one game of wordster before we were about to get kicked out. Then we saw Lauren and the 3 of us decided to hit up Steak N Shake. That was good.

OOHH! I found a new thing in the food world. Well, this is for people who want to eat healthy but like those spicy foods. I get a salad usually with a grilled chicken of sorts but it can be whatever. I have been getting just regular italian dressing on it because that actually isn't too bad for you. Then I ask for a bottle of tabasco sauce and sprinkle a little bit of that on the salad and mix it up. WOW! That has now become a spicy hot meal. I love it and is my new thing in the food world. What made me decide to do this was the fact that at O'Charleys I got a spicy cajun chicken salad and it had no spice to it whatsoever. I had to give it kick and then the idea of tabasco popped into my head. It's history from there on out. Tonight my grandma is taking us out to eat for my mom's birthday at applebee's. I love a good meal. I think I may get a steak. I have not had a good steak in a while and they have darned good steak for applebee's.

Other than all that not much is happening today because of the time change I didn't wake up until 3pm and also it may be because I took a tylenol PM before I went to bed really late. Oops. Right now it is just an hour and a half before dinner and I still feel like I just woke up. I don't know what I am doing tonight after that. I might just stay in or something. Yet to be determined.... Peace, Love and I'm outtaherre

Options...


I have a few options tonight of things to do. Well actually it is just 2. I can either go to a more than likely awesome party in Chamaign at Emily and Phil's apartment. Which the last one was a very good time or I can go down to the bar and hang out with Ed while he works the door tonight. I'm still feeling a little hazy in the head from last night being such a long ass night. I went and walked in the park again today. It was a beautiful day again but this time I went by myself. I felt I needed some time to just think and get some real fresh air with some exercise. Being at the park has made me realize that I want a new dog. There were so many neat and cute dogs being walked in the park today. I won't be able to have a dog of my own for a few years. Not until I can afford a dog and also have my own place that allows pets. I miss our family dog that just passed away. At first it was like, yeah she died. Now barely over a month later I am starting to really miss her. BJ (our dog) was about 11 and a half years old and I am 22 so she has been a part of our family for half of my life. I want to take her for walks. She loved the park and I didn't take her there often enough. Squirrels have total reign over the back yard now since she isn't chasing them back up into trees. It is very different and empty around here. I'm not fond of this at all.

Philly is in town tonight through tomorrow. I may just hang out with him tonight down at the bar. I don't know... I don't know if I even really want to go out tonight. I am opposite man. I go out all week and then the weekend comes and I don't feel like going out. Crazy huh?

Long night...


Wow. What a night last night. I had another fun and interesting night last night. I am apparently awesome to someone that I know to the point that if she wasn't in a faithfully committed relationship I think she said she would be all over me? Maybe or something to that extent. I'm flattered beyond belief. What do I say to this but thank you. Of course I think she is very cool. She also said if she had a younger sister she would introduce us. But she doesn't... Why can't single girls (that I connect with) start admitting that they like me? (Not saying this in a cocky way, ok) What gets me is that she said it doesn't matter to her that I am a big guy. I'm like whoa. Because most girls (and people in general actually) are pretty superficial. No one looks for the good ol' boy anymore even though they say they do. I just look in the wrong areas I suppose and granted I don't just go hitting on girls. It isn't my style to just try and pick up women with lines and such. I jokingly will say lines to friends all in good fun and that is about it. And people need to stop acting like we are still in high school. We are all adults. We can have fun but still be adults. I will always be young at heart and I know this because I know myself. I'll settle down yes, someday, but not now. We are young and now is the time to have fun but do it with some maturity people! Responsibility is cool. Goofing off is cool. Splice it together and you have a damned good fun time no matter what you do. You make your life however you want. You are in more control than you may lead yourself to believe. Also, you don't have to have alcohol to have a good time either. Granted when you are in a bar the bar likes it when you drink. But you don't have to drink to be in a bar. I'm nice about things though and like last night I got a water at the end of the night at Top of the Hilton and I tipped a dollar because I appreciated the fact that the waitress went and got me a water even though she didn't expect to get paid for it or get a tip from it. But I was the only one who ordered and she made a trip just for me.

Well, I just realized that I just rambled alot. I hope everyone can follow that thought train because I just wrote as the thoughts were coming out. But yeah, I'm not really looking to just party all the time. It may look like that but I just am trying to have fun and if something other than bars presents itself then cool. Right now it seems that hanging out with my friends is all I have going on for me right now. So hang out I will. I'm getting pretty good at hanging out too. Like I say, let me know how your life is going. I would love to hear from you. IM me, E-mail me, or call me. Peace Love and I'm out of here.

PS. The long night is referring to the fact that I didn't get home and into bed until exactly 6:15am. It is fun watching the sun rise, let me tell you. :)

Bad Vibes.....


So tonight, a night starting off just like any other. I have no money so I don't plan on drinking. That doesn't happen because my friends like to buy rounds and who am I to argue with the offering of alcohol. So I end up having about 2 beers and 5 or 6 shots throughout the evening. This is nothing for me now and especially when it is spaced out. So yeah my main point about tonight. I got this really weird vibe about halfway through the evening. I will state this right off the bat though nothing blatently obviously bad happened. First of all the night seemed to progress very very slowly. When 10:30 rolled around I thought it had to be sometime after midnight and the rest of the night kept on that way. Lou seemed to be in a zone but not a I'm so happy to see you kind of way but a I'm going through the motions lets get this night over with kind of way. Some bad karma was in Ed's area when a bottle topper broke and fell and then like 3 other bottles fell about him while down to pick up the first one. Only one hit him in the lower back and I hope he is feeling better from that tomorrow. No one seemed genuinely happy tonight. Everyone seemed to have some sort of chip on their shoulder over things that I obviously don't know about. But don't worry people I'm not posting your personal crap up here. We all have crap and if anything I will just post stuff about myself or people no one knows about. Like Bob from Tuscola. See? Exactly you don't know who that is and that is how it will stay. Maybe instead of a bad vibe night I should have called it a VooDoo night. Sounds spookier doesn't it? I think so. So yeah, one friend had a few too many cocktails and shots and was not driveable. I offered to drive the friend's vehicle to their house or be the one to follow so that the friend will have their car at home in the morning. Others passed on this opportunity. A few people went to extend their night at the Curve Inn and also some went to cool off. I hope people didn't steal that lady's new pack of cigarettes cause that was not cool. Even though she checked a few times I just hope it is that she misplaced them.

I hope the night went fine for everyone and that my bad vibe feeling was just that, a feeling. If anything crazy and bad happened I wouldn't mind hearing about it. I do like to be in a loop but also just to confirm or disprove that bad feeling I had. You know what I mean? Just hear something to get it out of my mind or confirm it.

I saw Jen Valar and Julie tonight at the bar. It was Julie's younger sister's 21st birthday. They spent most of the evening in there. Julie introduced me to her sister and it was weird cause it seemed like Julie was baiting me or setting me up cause she was all like, isn't my sister cute (or hot I don't recall) and I'm like oh yeah, you are gorgeous. Which was the truth. She is a very good looking girl. And that is funny cause I say girl like she is so much younger than I am but she is less that 2 years. Lately I have been feeling old though seeing all these people I always thought of as much younger and less mature but in reality now they are just up to par with me if not better off. Anywho, it was a good evening overall I suppose because I saw a lot of people. I got 2 different pecks on the cheek tonight. I enjoy some affection here and there. You might say sarcastically "oh, wow, a cheek kiss" and I say so what. You don't know me! I'm Kevin Bacon. Also, I got invited to a high school friend's wedding which is in just 1 month. I don't know if I can make it though cause I will be in work mode then and hopefully working my ass off to make some money at my old job. I am brizzoke. Ha. That's all for now. Call me or email me or IM me people. Don't lose touch. Peace, Love and I'm outta heeeeeere

Almost back to reality...

Well, I got an email today from work. It is getting close folks. They are wanting to know when I can come back so they can put me back on the schedule. Scary. I've been off of work since the middle of January and I have been enjoying my time off. Well, besides having major surgery and all the not lifting more than 10 pounds crud. I am ready to go back and not ready at the same time. I assume most people know what I mean. It actually is good to have a mix of responsibility and fun at the same time. Too much responsibility sucks and too much fun can wear someone down to the point that it sucks. I have found this out. I won't be able to head back to work until April 12th and today is April 1st so I've got 11 days left until I have to get back to reality. Eek!

Not much planned today. I am going to see another cheap movie for the heck of it which is Win a Date with Tad Hamilton. Looks like a cheesy feel good movie with a few dumb laughs here and there. I am easily entertained though so it will be worth a dollar I am sure. Nick W. may be going with me. I just found out he is home for a little bit while he scours the job market. It isn't his type of movie but I may have persuaded him to go with me. Time will tell when it comes down to the wire.

Other than the movie. Ed is working the bar tonight so I plan on going down and hanging out with him while he works. Maybe play some freaking WORDSTER! Yeah! I'm still sore about that. I will have a pocket fullll of quarters ready for that game. Granted this is a different machine but I have that score to beat branded in my mind. So it will be a personal victory when I beat that score. Stupid score, I hate you!

I actually woke up at 11:30am today! Before noon, I know. Isn't it great! Especially considering I didn't fall asleep until at least 6am. So I may be able to get a decent night's sleep later on this evening. Wahoo!

F%^&ing WORDSTER!...

So yes... You know those video game machines in bars where you can play poker games or word games like WORDSTER or find'em games like PHOTOHUNT. Well, tonight was a night that Ed, Shoofly, and myself will never forget. The addicting game of wordster pissed us off like no other! It made us feel stupid and uncapable of making words. Okay so this game goes... you get 8 random letters and you have to make words out of them. Simple enough. Well, we were playing on the left machine at Mowie's Cue and some people have apparently set some really good scores on WORDSTER. Ed and I started off by ourselves playing it. Thinking, ohhh this won't be too hard because we are pretty smart guys. Apparently NOT! We came really close to just making 10th place but not quite. How sucky is that. We spent some time playing PHOTOHUNT but the majority of the time was on the evil game. We ended up enlisting Shoofly, April, and the group April was with and it still didn't help us at all! Stupid stupid game. It is like I just want to memorize the freaking dictionary and go back there just to try and beat that damn game. Ed and I have never been so frustrated with a game before, so much so, that we tried to just play an easy game of PHOTOHUNT but it had us so pissed that we could not even focus on that. TWO HOURS! playing a game and still not breaking the top ten. It was damned addicting too. We just kept playing and playing, on and on. Finally the place was closing down and we actually had to leave... THANK GOD! I am going to work on my "skills" with the Yahoo Games game called Text Twist. It has a similar idea as wordster. I suggest everyone practice on that and then when you play with me you will be ready! Do or Die!

Side note, seeing as how it is 3am on April 1st. I will post that Melissa M. is quitting smoking cigarettes today. I and everyone else are here for you. I am up to 9 months of being quit of smoking from a pack a day to cold turkey. I know you and anyone else can do it too. Saying no is easier than you might think. Peace Love and I'm outtaherrrrrre