Friends in the woodwork

Yay! Things just seem to happen for me. Wednesday I hung out with Jenny and Shoofly and saw others at Dempsey's. Thursday I went and saw Posamist with Shoofly, Philly G and others. And tonight Kevin Cash calls me up cause it is his birthday and he is cooking out and such. I thought I would be all bored this week cause Ed is in New Orleans. Apparently that is not the case. HAHAHA. I wish I was drinking. I am real pissed about not getting the Family Video job and wouldn't mind having a few drinks to relax but NOO! I can't. I promised myself I wouldn't. Catch you on the flip side. Give me a call. Lata Playa Hata

Another Candidate

The shot me down.  Family Video said that "We went with another candidate".  Well Whoopeeeeeee.  Isn't that just wonderful!?  I woke up before I needed to just so that I could hear some bad news today.  Now I have to focus my energy on getting more resumes out.  Granted I have a few out there already but I'm going to put some more out into circulation.  One option I'm looking at is a FT Dental Asst. with no experience necessary.  I'm jumping on this one :)  Benefits, Holidays, and weekends off.  That's what I'm talkin about.  But I'm not getting hopes up for much anymore.  I am a beaten man.  I've never had so much bad luck.  I just want to know what I have been doing wrong. 

AGAIN AGAIN!

So I finally call up Family Video this evening giving them the benefit of the doubt that they needed most of the afternoon to decide on a candidate that they interviewed for the managerial position.  Well I call.  I get Aaron with whom I interviewed.  I told him who I was and asked him what the status was.  Well, he asks if I can hold on for a moment.  I do.  I think oh he must be talking to Tiffany the head manager.  No, I hear him helping customers and from the sound of it there were a few.  It took a few minutes for him to finish.  I hear him finish and then quiet and then just talking and THEN he goes and does something else!  HE FORGOT ABOUT ME!  What the heck, I was a little hot about this.  So I figured, I have nothing to do I will wait this out and hope they feel bad when they realize that I am still holding.  So finally after 13 minutes of holding a girl asked if she could help me, and I'm like yes, I was put on hold by Aaron about 12 minutes ago but I would like to know blah blah blah, she told me it has been a hectic week and the head manager Tiffany will be in at 10 until 8 tomorrow and I should talk to her but she wasn't in today, apparently a manager or someone is new or just quit or something.  I didn't totally follow.  I hope I can have some good news for everyone tomorrow, I am planning on calling Tiffany at 10:05am tomorrow to figure this out.  I NEED A JOB! 

Side note, I think I may be walking with Shoofly here in a bit, I don't know though cause he disappeared before any discussion happened.  Tomorrow at noon I still plan on exercising with Josh.  But so far today I have pretty much just sat on my ass.  I need to get moving.  I did just start laundry and get out of the shower, so things are moving.... slowly....

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Oh I sure do love that question.  Where do I see myself in 5 years.  Well I hope I'm not still sitting around getting asked that question in 5 years, that's for sure.  In 5 years I see myself in a stable job and I have a good relationship with a girl friend and I live by myself.  I am not necessarily seeing myself in Springfield though.  That doesn't sound too far fetched now does it?  I think it sounds plausible. 

Jenny and I are going to start walking in the evenings now.  She apparently needs some motivation and so do I so we shall motivate each other.  She works a normal work day and walking before work is just too early for her apparently.  So I will nag her of an evening to get us out and about and walking.  I will still be working out with Josh on MWF at noon.  And I will do the extra things that do actually help out like when I go somewhere park far out in the parking lot so you have to walk a little farther.  Staying active is the key.  Gotta raise that metabolism.

So I stopped into the bar this evening on my way into Dempsey's.  It was weird.  Ed's mom even said she didn't expect me in since Ed is out of town.  I'm like, oh come on, I can't stay away from this place even when Ed is gone.  I almost went down Monday night because Monica was working but I got lazy and ended up not doing anything.  I know most of the regulars now and all of the staff so I have no problem going in there and hanging out.  After one drink "water", Jenny and I headed over to Dempsey's to hang out until about close.  Shoofly came too after he got done bowling with friends.  Natalie and others were there too.  They didn't stay until close like Jenny, Shoofly and myself.  Also, sorry Shoofly that I didn't feel like going to Stella Blue with you.  I'm not a huge fan of that place. 

OH!  I did well tonight and did not drink.  Not that I planned on it or anything but I said no.  Although it is weird explaining why I am not drinking.  The "Hey!  I puked blood the other night" doesn't set well with people.  I think I may start saying for health reasons.  Or something like "Doctor's orders" you know what I mean.  It gets the point across that I am not drinking for my health right now. 

Oh to look good again.  I hate getting judged by the way I look.  I know girls like me but they are like, oh you're a little big.  I am more compatible than most guys I would figure.  I don't make a huge fuss.  All so superficial.  I see past your faults.  We all have them. 

 
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO JESSICA WAKOLBINGER!!! Today July 29,2004 is her birthday.  YAY!

Book Moods

Tonight I went to Barnes & Noble with Shoofly for a bit.  While there I saw this book that I didn't know about.  It is in the Artemis Fowl series.  Which I didn't know that there was a series.  I read the first one in my Children's Literature class up at ISU.  I enjoyed it immensely.  It is compared to Harry Potter and LOTR but yet it is it's own style.  Well I find that there are 2 books following the original.  I want to get them!  They sound very intriguing.  Then while looking for these books online to see where I can get cheaper deals I start thinking about how I really want to read the Harry Potter series too.  So I find that there is a Boxed Set of the first 5 books of the series.  And I can get the set averaging about $13.30 per book.  Which is a great deal.  Of course this is all hardcover.  I like hardcover editions so much better than paperbacks.  They are easier for holding.  They don't wear out as quickly as paperback.  The look a lot nicer.  I like to keep books for reference and to read in the future too.  Have them for even farther down the road possibly for my children to read too.  But my dilema is that I have yet to finish reading the LOTR Trilogy of books.  I have yet to pick them back up.  Which is crazy because I know when I do I will keep reading and reading but yet I just don't seem to sit down to read them.  I also can't bring myself to read new books when I have a book already in progress.  I feel like I am cheating on LOTR if I pick up Harry Potter or Artemis Fowl.  You know what I mean?  Sounds stupid I know but I have my notions and morals.  I don't know if you would call not wanting to "cheat" on a book moral or immoral but that is how I feel.  So by talking about this and thinking about my lack of reading and wanting to be reading I am going to go into the living room and pick up where I left off from LOTR: Two Towers a few months ago. 

So, I have a few good books that I plan on reading, LOTR series (finish up) , Artemis Fowl series (purchase?), and Harry Potter series (purchase?).  Does anyone have any books that they might recommend that I or any readers of my blog might want to check out?  Go ahead and mention those in the comments section.

Live, Love, and Good Reading - K

Grass forever grows

So today I found out something new.  The alarm on my cell phone if set.  Then the phone is turned off.  It will still ring at the designated time.  Who knew?  Not me.  But now I do.  So no more people calling me and waking me up in the middle of the night because I have my cell phone on because it is my clock too.  YAY!  Take that late night callers. 

I finally mowed some today.  I think I am going to start wearing one of those things that measure how far you walk because well I would like to see how far I walk.  Especially mowing.  It is hard to tell how far it is when you just go back and forth in a yard.  My dad says he can see that I am starting to look like I am losing a little bit of weight.  Not much though.  I usually start to show it in the face first.  My goal though is to just raise my metabolism so that I will forever burn off what I eat and no more storing it directly to fat.  You know what I mean?  High metabolism is a good thing.  Of course that means I will have to keep exercising my whole life, but hey, shouldn't we all be exercising more anyway.  Sitting on your ass is fun and all but it is actually nicer to be out and about and doing things.  Even just walking around the mall browsing, not buying, is good exercise.  Just staying active is the key.  The key to a healthier life.

Where are you at?

So this is my blog. I have been blogging for about 4 months or so now.  I really like it.  I didn't think I would keep it up as well as I have been.  Granted I had some weeks where I would only post once a week and I hope that didn't turn too many people off of reading what I have to say.  I appreciate people who check even when I'm not putting forth the energy to enter a post into the blog.  I love it even more when people comment on what I have to say, on what I have been doing, or what I could be doing.  I had an old comment thing on here and yes a few people commented on it but I recently switched over to the comment section provided by this wonderful blogger service.  I would like to thank people who comment like Melissa and Shoofly.  It appears that you two are the only ones who also have something to say.  But come on, anyone who reads my blog is reading me.  Can't I read you?  You can post anonymously I believe if you don't want me to know it is you.  I don't care either way.  I am really go with the flow.  Yes I do have things that bother me but I deal with them in my own way.  I won't criticize people for saying something on here.  Maybe you can help me think about things in a different manner or help me to think about things I've never thought about before.  Who knows?  Not me.  Every day is a new day.  Live it.  Be happy that you are alive and healthy. 

Side note, it is now Tuesday, July 27, 2004 and today is APRIL'S BIRTHDAY!!!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY APRIL!!! WOOOHOOO!  She's a gettin OLD!  Ha, just kidding.  If anyone sees April online or out and about wish her a Happy Birthday.

Tonight I hung out with a few friends that I don't hang out with too very often.  Jude, Kevin, Mike, Colin, and Dave.  It was a good time and I had fun.  Kevin's house where we were at is pretty darned nice.  I am envious.  He has a "fun room"  With an entertainment center, pool table, electronic dart board, and a poker table.  Very nice. And this is his house and his alone.  No parents, no siblings. 

Also I walked to Kevin's house from my house.  It is a nice little walk.  He is about 2 blocks north of Chantilly Lace.  I didn't time it or measure it but I think one way the walk was Maybe about 30 minutes or so... I'm really not sure.  But I walked home from there too.  It is creepy walking along dark corn fields at midnight on a Monday night.  I kept thinking a hobo would jump out of the field and kill me.  It didn't happen of course since I am sitting here writing in my blog.  :)   So that was my good exercise for today.  I am happy I did that.  I feel really good now.

I also did not drink any alcohol today.  I was offered a few beers over at Kevin's but once I explained why I am not drinking alcohol right now the peer pressure was no more.  I was fine with my glass of water which is healthier for me anyway. 

Ed called me tonight while I was at Kevin's house and told me about his evening watching the AAA Cardinals play a game down in New Orleans.  You'll have to ask him about that, he had a good time. 

Well kids and children, I am going to go to bed.  It is a little late and I hope to do stuff tomorrow.  Fun stuff. Like party and get laid.  Well... Like I say you never know what the day holds because nothing is set in stone... HAHAHAHA

Live, Love, Laughter - K

I'm always leaving but I never go away

Today, well today is just another day.  Or is today the day that everything will change in some way or another.  No matter how planned out your day may seem you must realize that anything can happen.  Like today I could possibly move along in the Family Video process.  I plan on calling them here in a little bit and see what's going on since I interviewed last Tuesday and the guy Aaron said to call back on Monday if I haven't heard anything by now. 

I went and saw The Bourne Supremacy yesterday with Miss Jenny.  It wasn't as good as I had hoped.  It appeared to be well acted and such but it dragged.  I thought there would be more action, more suspense, more to keep me on the edge of my seat.  None of that.  I at times was more focused on my but being uncomfortable in my seat.  There was a guy whose cell phone kept ringing also.  That was annoying.  We went to the cheapy matinee at East for just 4.5o.  I have the Bourne Identity on DVD and I think I am going to watch that a few times then go see Supremacy again because I do have a free ticket I got with the purchase of the new better dvd.  So maybe it will be better the second time around.  I don't know.  But it will be free for me the second time around so I won't complain too much.  hehe. 

My best buddy Crow says he barely reads this.  It is a shame.  His theory is that I should just tell him everything that goes on in my life.  Well if he knows me well enough he knows how bad my memory is.  I forget stuff left and right.  Not big stuff.  I can be counted on for that but usually the smaller stuff.  If I put it in here I do that because sometimes I forget and then I can come back and reread what I said and be like, OH YEAH! I remember now.  He should read more often if he is really my friend.  Muwahhahahaha

Live, Love, Laughter - K

Life goes on

So yeah, I am feeling fine today.  Although I felt fine last night.  I am having a tough time bringing myself to telling my parents what happened last night after I got home.  It is easy to just type something on here and post it but to do things face to face is so much different.  I am not going to be drinking alcohol for a while.  I've been thinking about that.  I think it might be doing something not good to my stomach.  Maybe I have an ulcer or something.  I don't know and I won't be able to find out anytime soon because I don't have the right kind of insurance right now.  I have the cheap kind that is for big incidents and such.  I need a real job so I can get good benefits or at least be able to afford my own health insurance.  I think I might even cut out carbonated beverages too.  I really need to get my health in order.  I have started that anyway but shoot.  Maybe last night was the wake up call.  I have to keep a better eye on myself.  I need to be nicer to myself.  I know I can have a good time without drinking or over eating.  I will have to prove that to myself now in the long run too.  God I pray that this isn't something serious. 

Not much else going on today.  Ed leaves for New Orleans for a little trip to visit his friends from school down there today.  He will be gone until next Monday.  I will be pretty darn bored while he is gone.  I will probably still go to the bar a few nights this week to hang out.   I'm watching the Cubs play the Phillies right now.  Cubs are not playing great ball right now.  I wish they would get their act together.2 or 3 people can't carry an entire team.  The team consists of everyone and everyone has to do their part to succeed.  Well, I will chat with you party people later.

Live, Love, Laughter - K

I am scared.

So yeah, tonight was Reier's birthday party at his bar Dempsy's.  All was fun, all had a good time.  I heard no complaints.  My problem with the night is the end of the night.  I came home and I was good but I knew I had a decent amount to drink.   I didn't feel like I would be able to sleep well so I went to the bathroom and I had to get sick.  Yes, I threw up some.  Well this isn't unusual for me.  Sometimes after a night of drinking my body realizes that it isn't setting well with me and feels like it should get rid of some extra.  Well tonight I got scared.  Everything that I threw up was completely red.  Blood red.  I had nothing red previously that would color my throw up to that color.  I assume that it is blood.  I have no idea why it was blood.  It was not a hard throw up.  My throat is not sore so it isn't that I wretched too hard.  I am scared about my insides.  I had surgery in March for a bleeding disorder that I had.  I have been completely healthy since.  Am I not as healthy as I thought I was?   I have no complete health insurance now.   I got kicked off of my parents insurance when I turned 23.  I now have this insurance that does not cover preexisting conditions.  So if I get sick with something I had before they won't cover it.  This is probably the most personal thing I have ever written about.  But incase I have something actually wrong with me then I want a record of it.   My parents don't check this site.  I will tell them shortly about this because I feel it is important.  But for now I am going to go to bed and pray and hope for the best. 

I love each and every one of you.

Peace, Love, Laughter, - Kyle

Oh la la

Well, it is Saturday now.  I wake up and my parents are out running errands I guess.  I find a note that says my Grandma wants me to wash her car.  She has never had me wash her car before that I can recall.  I wonder if she wants me to hand wash it or if she wants me to take it somewhere.  I assume hand wash cause she could probably take it somewhere... or maybe she can't.  Washing a car is good exercise though.  I should probably get ready for the day and head over to my grandma's and see what's going on...  I just woke up at noon.  Not too shabby since I couldn't fall asleep until about 4am.  Reierpalooza is this evening at Dempsy's on Monroe between 2nd and 3rd street!  BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!  Wear a toga too.

I smile therefore I tip

So tonight was a slow night for me at the bar.  Although it wasn't dead I could have sworn time was going at half speed.  The first 2 hours dragged and I never looked at my watch so often before.  It was weird.  I saw a few people I knew and a lot of people that I didn't.  OH!  I walked to work tonight.  Yeah.  From my house just south of Wabash and Macarthur all the way down to the bar.  It took me about 1 hour and 20 minutes.  Ed and I measured it when he took me home tonight and I walked right at 3.5 miles cause I stuck to the main road the whole walk because I wanted it to be just like I was driving it.  I could probably get there quicker by going through neighborhoods but I opted not to.  So yeah, that was a decent walk.  I am proud of myself and I think that I might start doing that.  Give myself an hour and a half and just walk down there to the bar.  I know enough people that I'm sure I can catch a ride for the way home.  I'm pretty much on Ed's way and I'm usually with him chilling anyway.  But I won't count on that, just saying it might happen that way.  Mamma always said not to count your eggs before they are hatched.  :)  Oh I am glad I walked now though because my will power got the best of me and some people gave me the leftover pizza that they had and WOOO!  I went to town on that.  I hate to see good food like this go to waste.  MMMmmm It was good.  So yeah, I'm going to have to walk extra tomorrow to help burn off this pizza that is hanging out in my belly right now.  I ate very well all day in addition to the hella lota walking.  So I feel the pizza won't hurt me but then again I am positive it didn't help me with anything but make me full.  And oh man am I full, in a good way too, not overly full, just right full, the best kind of full.  Aww yeeeahh.  Well, I am going to try to go to bed here now.  I will talk to you crazy people later.  Melissa, the Care Bear sheets sound great for a toga.  I couldn't find superman sheets the other day so I will have to go with what I have....  If anyone finds Superman fabric or sheets let me know.

Info found on the internet about weight loss

Successful Weight Loss
In my experience, lasting weight loss requires the following:
You must have an incentive to lose weight
You must be willing to modify your dietary habits
You must be willing to accept slow steady weight loss, rather than fast weight loss
You must be able to modify your lifestyle in order to exercise regularly
You must be prepared to learn about diet nutrition
You must be patient enough to persevere when your diet goes up in smoke!
If you can overcome these barriers, you'll find dieting and weight loss to be much easier than you think.

Oh yeeeeah

So tonight I work the door down at the bar.  Carding all those party people who like to drink a little alcohol.  Hopefully people come in and see me.  I love it when people come to hang out that I know.  Ed will be tending bar also.  Tomorrow is Reier's party down at his bar Dempsy's.  I still haven't gotten my toga but I may just wear a sheet that I have on hand.  Come on down to DH Browns tonight everyone!  It is Friday, get off your bum and come see me sit on my bum.  hehe. 

Go ME Go!

Yay!  I worked out again today.  Even without Ed.  It was just Josh and myself working out.  I bumped up the tredmill to 3.5mph with a 1.0 incline.  Helps to burn calories better and worked my calf muscles better too.  Working out makes you more aware of how much it takes to burn off those calories that you get from food you eat throughout the day.  Like I burned about 400 calories by working out earlier.  I hadn't eaten yet so when I got home I was pretty hungry.  I made myself a sandwich and I counted the calories for 2 slices of hearty bread, 2 slices of ham, and 1 slice of fat free cheese, and it was about 350 calories.  JUST ONE SANDWICH!  And it was a pretty healthy one too.  What's up with that.  What if I had a fast food hamburger on my way home instead?  I would have totally shot the workout and been even worse off than before the workout.  So working out and seeing how many calories are being burned makes me more aware of what it takes to lose some weight.  So since my sandwich I have abstained from eating more.  Diet coke and unsweetened Black tea have been my drinks of choice today.  I need to make up a few batches of Green Tea although I hear they are not all that different actually.  I was just reading about metabolism.  It was saying that the best way to increase metabolism is by increasing the amount of exercise you do.  The harder you push yourself and more often you do it the higher your metabolism will go.  Also that by not eating your metabolism actually goes down so it is good to keep eating but it is a matter of what you eat.  So eating low calorie foods in small amounts pretty often are good for you and probably the best thing to do too.    I'm thinking about keeping a food diary, not on here though, but something so I can see what I eat and when I eat.   

OIY!

So yeah.  What do you do when you find out someone likes you?  You think, sure, they are attractive.  You feel like you could possibly "be" with them.  But then you think about it and you realize that you are not really attracted to them at all.  The only attraction is that they apparently are attracted to you.  What do you do?  Do you dabble and have a little fun?  Or will your conscience get the better of you and not actually let you have fun?  Is it appropriate to say to the person let's just have some fun but You never want this to be serious?  Do you not do anything and ignore it and hope nothing comes from it?  Maybe an attraction will form later on but do you want an attraction to form later on?  Crazy over analytical world We live in...

Comments welcome on this one as they are on all entries anyway...

And then I wiggled my ears

So today I did a little job related stuff.  I had a lead for an assistant manager position at shoe carnival.  So I went in and introduced myself and handed the manager my resume.  He asked me if I am relocateable and I said yes.  For the right money I am willing to move.  Ed and I went and looked for fabrics for togas for Reier's shindig this coming Saturday.  Ed could not find Cardinal fabric and I could not find Cub nor Superman fabric.  We did find many other baseball teams and Spider-Man but yeah not what we wanted.   OHHH!  Ed and I got free pairing knives at Walmart today because we stood and listened to a demonstration.  Yay for free things for deadbeats without day jobs.  The deal the guy had wasn't too bad at all but I didn't want to give in and give him money.  I settled for free knife.  I bought the Super Duper DVD of The Bourne Identity instead.  Much more useful than a whole set of knives in my book.  It came with a free movie ticket to go see the movie sequel too so I got 2 free things at walmart today.  Walmart kicks ass.  Then Ed and I went and read at B&N for a while, I wasn't in a comic mood so I read Entertainment Weekly.  Which is a magazine that I used to get but no longer get because I can't afford it.  I wish I still got those.  I love that Magazine.  THEN Ed and I went and had dinner at Barrel Head and I got myself an awesome Chef's Pride Horse shoe.  Damned good.   So, good food, free things, dropped off resume.  Pretty good day for me.  Now I am going down to the bar to hang out.  Today also is JUDE'S 23rd Birthday!  YAY!  WOOHOO!  Happy Birthday Jude!  He will be down at the bar probably around 10pm he said so I will see him there.  

Flipmode is the greatest!  - K

I HAVE A TITLE LINE!

YAY!  Today already has been a productive day for me.  I got up and went and worked out.  Yes, I know you are probably saying, "That's it?"  and yes you are correct.   That is a huge deal for me.  I don't exercise much or even at all.  I went and worked out with Ed and Josh and I feel great.  Happy that I have finally done something.  I needed someone to get me motivated and with Josh and Ed both working out also it should keep me going.  I really need to lose some weight.  I know I have always been big but I have gotten a little bigger around the midsection lately and I can feel it.  My back has been hurting more which means I've got more weight going on in the front.  NOT GOOD.  So, I have decided to eat less.  No not starve myself people.  I will still eat a good meal or even fattening meal but that will be it.  No snacks besides beverages.  I jumped Ed's case about wanting to not eat late at night and watching his figure.  I said all that because I have a thing about people who are not fat saying that they are fat and need to lose weight.  He wasn't really saying that just that he didn't want to eat at night cause he didn't need to.  Which is fine.  I love giving people a hard time is all.  So hopefully we keep up this exercising regiment which I think will be 3 times a week on MWF.  That is good for me to start.  I don't want to kill myself I am trying to get healthy so I will live longer you know what I mean?  Plus, when I lose all this weight the superficial ladies will be all over me.  I can't wait.  I love self centered superficial women.  (sarcasm of course)  I will try to keep a log on here of working out and such.  Today I walked at 3.3mph for 15 minutes, tried out the bench press and leg press briefly, then I did this crazy machine that moves your legs in crazy ways that I can only say is similar to taking big strides up a hill or something.  I did that for 1 minute 18 seconds.  It was crazy hard on my legs and I'm not in shape enough to tackle that but when I feel that I am in shape for that I know it will get me into even better shape.  I look forward to being able to stay on that for long periods of time.  Then I got back on the tred mill and walked at 3.3mph again for 30 minutes straight and then we were done.  Cardiovascular is what I need to focus on.  I've got some good natural strength anyway and I assume just cardio will help build muscles too.  So it is all good.  WOOO!  I'm happy I am working out again.  It has been so so so long.  Thanks Ed and Josh.  Let's keep it up!

Peace, Love, and Cookies - K

Other News...
 
So I see this away message just earlier today "Hey everyone, Emily and I got engaged last night!! I know I'm never on IM, so if you want to email me or call me feel free to. (email and phone omitted for privacy)  -Aaron" It looks like Duf officially popped the question to Emily.  Congratulations to Aaron and Emily you two are a wonderful couple.  I am very happy for both of you. 
 
Today is Reier's 23rd Birthday!  Happy Birthday REIER!  Give Reier a call or email wishing him a happy birthday.  I will also take this moment to advertise his birthday celebration which is being held at his bar DEMPSY'S this Saturday night the 24th.  It is called REIERPALOOZA.  Everyone is supposed to wear TOGAS.  There will be great drink specials.  Cheap bottles and imports.  Bands will be playing.  It should be a great time.  It is a bar so you have to be 21 and older to get in.  If you come wear your toga.  If you don't have one then plan ahead and go to Walmart or Michaels and get fabric to make one.  DEMPSY'S is on Monroe Street downtown between 2nd and 3rd street right next to DH Browns which is the bar I refer to when I say "the bar" anymore. 
 
Also on the marriage news.  If I haven't already mentioned it Ben Cloyd is engaged also.  He and his fiancee Katie are planned to wed sometime next year in Peoria where they met.  Also another great couple who are great together.  I wish them happiness for the rest of their lives also. 

So Much To Say...

 

Well, It looks like my blogger has changed a little bit.  I have a little more control over how my text options look.  I like it alot.  Apparently I can upload photos.  I will have to try that out here soon.  Not right now though.  Other than that it looks like I have a few fun days to catch up on.

Friday- Friday wasn't too crazy fun.  Of what I remember my parents woke me up pretty early to say goodbye.  They were heading up to Chicago to spend some time with my sister Shannon.  I then proceeded to try to go back to sleep but couldn't.  So there I was awake because they wanted to say goodbye.  I hate that.  I felt tired.  I knew I was still tired but I couldn't fall back to sleep.  So this kept me in that sleepy haze and I couldn't get out of it for most of the day.  I was supposed to go see Anchorman with Ed but I had to decline because I was in no mood to do anything.  I did end up doing laundry though so I was somewhat productive since that was in dire need of being done.  Friday evening I worked the door down at the bar.  That was a good time.  Although it was the Chatham Sweet Corn Festival a decent number of people I knew eventually came in. 

OK, I got a little side tracked and I don't feel like writing out my whole weekend now.  I will sum it up the best I can.  Saturday Ed and I drove to Chicago.  My first time ever to drive in Chicago.  That was fun.  Ed said I did pretty well for my first time. Stopped off at my sister's apartment and got her spare keys for her place.  Then Ed and I walked about a half hour to go see COWBOY MOUTH.  My 4th time to see my most favorite band ever.  Their performances just get better and better.  After a lot of walking, standing, singing and dancing later Ed and I went to meet my parents and my sister and friends at Package Goods which is a bar just a block away from her apartment.  It was a good time there.  Ed and I were exhausted and just wanted a seat.  I had one beer and I knew that was it for me cause I was way too dehydrated for beer.  I sat there and drank about 4 or 5 pints of water while everyone else hung out.  We all went back to my sister's place and Shannon, Ed and I watched So I Married An Axe Murderer which is a DVD that Shannon had borrowed from me.  Then she went to bed and Ed and I watched The Butterfly Effect on DVD which Shannon hated but I liked, I didn't say I loved it but I thought it was an original concept and like that. 

 

Sunday was a little more lazy.  We did some crazy amounts of walking again.  Wrigley field is about a 20 minute walk for Ed and I from Shannon's place.  We went and hung out at The Cubbie Bear which is a famous bar outside of Wrigley and this was all during Sunday's game.  After that we walked around and just admired the excitement that was going on.  We were finally getting hungry and Ed had another mission that he wanted to eat the famous stuffed pizza of Giordano's Pizza.  It was soooo good.  We got a medium with sausage and pepperoni and we finished it off.  It was tough but we did it.  It was all we had to eat that day too and well worth it.  After that I took Ed to another bar by Shannon's apartment which Shannon calls The Moose Bar but that isn't actually the name.  It is something like Will's Northwoods Inn or something like that but it has a HUGE Moose statue in its beer garden that you can see from the sidewalk.  Ed would have gotten a picture but when we were there the sun was just behind it and it would not have been a good photo.

 

Monday was the big day.  Ed and I went down to Wrigley at about 1:30 and had a great burger and pitcher of beer at Murphy's Bleachers which is another famous bar outside of Wrigley Field.  Then a little after 2 we got in line for the game.  We waited in line from 2 until 5pm when they opened the gates.  We got in and Ed and I ran to get the best seats I've ever had.  First row bleachers on Left Center field right next to the evergreen in the middle.  It was so awesome.  I loved it.  I had a blast and Ed did too.  The Cubs lost to the Cardinals but it was still great.  After that great game Ed and I stopped in at Shannons for a pitstop and to say goodbye and then we drove back to Springfield. We got home at about 2am or so.  A great trip.  It ranks high in the Ed and Kyle Road Trip history.  Which we have quite a few now.  Indianapolis, New Orleans, Kirksville, St. Louis and so on.  I'm sure there are others but I can't think of them right now.

Well, I said I would be short winded and I tried the best I could but there was a lot to say. 

 

Peace, Love, and Road Trips - K

That is absurd...


A conspiracy. I have no job still. I am even with a hiring agency and they never call me for jobs. So I keep looking on my own too. Well in the mean time I like to make plans so I don't go out of my mind. I have made plans to go to Chicago from Saturday through Monday night maybe even into Tuesday morning. Well, the good old hiring agency decides to give me a call for a 3 day assignment that would start tomorrow and continue on Monday and Tuesday. What the hell. I am going to be gone and they give me a call now? I think they have spies set up to see what I am up to and then when I make plans they go ahead and give me opportunities at the same damn time.

No the MLB has nothing to do with NASA. Even if it did who cares. I like NASA and I like the MLB. SO combined I think that should be fine also. Who am I to question things? I am just an unemployed bum.

Everyone. Ed is trying to watch his weight. No more late night eating, donuts, cookies, double bacon cheeseburgers, or anything else that will make him fat. He is soooo fat. Damn Ed is fat. He makes me look like Calista Flockhart because he is so big. Alcohol has a whole lotta calories that make you fat too and that is beer and shots too. Ed should only drink water for forever. Or else he will only get fatter than his fat ass already is. Ed agrees that he is fat so this public service announcement goes right along with his way of talking.

Going to see Anchorman really soon. I hope it is good.

Best away message I see right now is that of Katiyo with a quote - "The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the starszBR>--Jack Kerouac"

Second place away message is Phil O. with "diesel-scented deodorant tomorrow. for now, woman-scented sheets"

YAY! I WANNA GO TO HAWAII!


So I did not win the lottery this evening. The mega millions jackpot is up to 20 million. Chump change to some but that is a lot to me and worth buying a ticket. I also got and instant scratch ticket and won 2 dollar but it cost 2 dollars to buy so I broke even on that one. It was fun playing for free if you look at it that way. I have more to say but I am going to bed so I will leave you hanging until I write again.... Later

Live, Love, Laughter, - K

It Is About Time...


Well, I finally did it. Yep, You probably thought it would never happen. I watched the movie Chicago for the first time ever today! It was pretty darned good. Miss Natalie got the Chicago DVD for me as a gift while I was laid up in the hospital after my surgery back on March 2nd, 2004. She has been getting on my case anytime that it has come up asking me if I had seen it yet. And the answer was no. I just never got around to sitting down to watch it even though I have seen countless movies since then. Certain movies I have to be in the mood for and other movies I can just sit down and watch because I can. Now I can say that I have finally watched it to its fullest. Even the deleted musical scene which was good of Queen Latifah and Zeta Jones.

Today was another scorcher here in Springfield. The highest heat index that I heard of today was at 108 degrees. As for the actual temperature I don't know. The heat index is all that matters around here. It is so freaking humid and muggy outside and HOT HOT HOT. You walk outside and you start sweating immediately. I again passed on mowing today because of the heat. I was unable to wake up at the buttcrack of dawn which for me is about 7 or 8am. I have been having trouble actually getting to sleep. Late night movies have been a great friend to me lately. After I get home, tired, wanting to go to bed. I get to bed and can't fall asleep so I end up watching movies on TV which is something that I am not very fond of. I hate commercials during movies. I don't mind them during just regular television shows but if it is a movie then I don't like to be interrupted. The night before last I watched Great Expectations with Ethan Hawke and Gweneth Paltrow. Last night I watched parts of Rocky 3. I saw Rocky get his assed kicked by Mr. T. That was pretty cool. I think I fell asleep before the end though. I assume that Rocky trained his ass off and came back to beat Mr. T in a rematch of some sort. I never was a huge Rocky fan. I've seen bits and pieces here and there.

This coming Friday I work the door down at the bar. That will be a good night. On Saturday Ed and I are planning on going to Chicago to see My Favorite Band COWBOY MOUTH play in a festival that only costs 6 bucks as a donation for a garden. Then Sunday we will probably be doing not much of anything. Maybe just walking around the town and such. A museum maybe. I don't know. Then if all goes well we may be seeing the Cubs Cards game at Wrigley on Monday from the bleachers!!!

Oh yeah, SHOOFLY is bartending on Thursday night which is $1.75 import night at DH BROWNS. Come one, Come all! I think Ed is bartending also. It will be a good time. Door man is not needed during the week so I will just be a customer that evening.

In the world of...


In my world, if I am not in the best mood then I am not too talkative. I feel that if I am very obviously not talking and keep to myself people might catch the drift. I don't like hovering and people being loud in my ear. Not even when it is well intentioned. This is because I am not in a good mood. You do not need to try and figure out what my problem is. If I wanted help I would ask for help. I am that dense. I am aware of the world around me but the world around me does not need be concerned with me when I am not in a good mood. I say, let it pass. No it will not change in a moment's notice. It may last the rest of the day. I can still carry on while in a not good mood. I am not incapable of this. I may not want to carry on with activities even though I am capable. With this mood situation it is good to know that I can quickly go from great mood to not a good mood very quickly but it takes time to go from not good mood to a great mood. It is like climbing a mountain. It is easy to just fall down it. But to get back to where you were is tougher. It is not possible to fall up. At least not on this planet. Did I mention I don't like hovering.

Yeah right...


So yeah, the heat index outside right now at 6:30pm is still at about 97 degrees and very very HUMID. Less than 2 hours of day light left and it doesn't look like it is getting any cooler outside. I am going to make a valiant effort to mow early in the morning tomorrow and just get it all done at once. Now in the mean time I am probably heading down to the bar for a fun, wild, exciting night of hanging out with Ed and whoever is cocktailing tonight, which is probably Mandy because she is usually there on Mondays.

News that I didn't know but now I do... The Wayne's Red Coach Inn restaurant had opened back up. I had been closed for 2 years and apparently opened back up this past December by an old employee who wanted to see it opened back up to its original splendor. I suggest anyone and everyone go have a Horseshoe there. They had the best horseshoe in town back in the day and that is where my parents took my sisters and myself to have our First Horseshoe EVER! That was many many horseshoes ago. Hopefully they have their original receipe. They have other good food there too but they were famous for horseshoes.

Tea is good...


So today has been alright. Not a whole lot to shake a stick at. I couldn't fall asleep last night but I eventually did. I probably fell asleep at about 5am. Then I wanted to get my butt up by 8 or 10am. That didn't happen. As tough of a time as I had falling asleep, once I actually get to sleep it is so hard to wake back up. So I got up and slowly got going at about noon. Which isn't too late for me lately. Some days I sleep until about 1:30pm or so depending on what I did the night before.

I did a few job related things today. Called about the Mental job and all interview spots had filled up already. They are still going to send me the packet of information and there may be another set of interviews opening up down the road it sounds like. I stopped by the family video that I dropped my application off at on Thursday. I briefly talked to the manager Jennifer. She hadn't had a chance to look at the applications yet. So no news yet but I hope to get a call here really soon. Let us all cross our fingers. I also filled out an online profile/application for a managerial position at the about to open Dicks Sporting Goods store at the mall here in Springfield. I hope that could pan out also. I just need a job with some decent income. I would like to be able to start saving up money so that I can move out of my parents house with in a year. Although I like living at home, it is easy and comfortable I can't do this forever. It is hard to advance in life when you still live with the parents.

Ed is working down at the bar this evening. It is Monday and unfortunatly there are no specials on Monday. Just good company I suppose. I will probably be heading down there at about 9ish. At 6 I plan on mowing the yards. It is freaking hot outside and I need to get the mowing done, I have tried to put it off until it was later evening and that time has almost come.

Adios,
Peace, Love, Life - K

Life as I know it....



So, life is moving along and it feels as though it is without me. I'm still trying to find a job. Trying pretty hard to get a job at Family Video. I have now dropped my application off at 2 locations and also filled out an online application that goes to the district manager. I am supposed to go in and talk to the manager at the Jefferson location tomorrow but only because the guy that I gave the app to said I should talk to her. He was pretty upbeat and I think they really need people right now too. I also submitted a resume to corporate a month or 2 ago for a managerial position but I have yet to hear anything from that.

I had received an email from the district manager of Finish Line about 2 weeks ago and it sounded like they wanted me. Had me fill out an online application and then said that the store manager would get back to me. I have yet to hear anything from anyone since I filled out the online app.

I've been trying to just keep myself occupied with little things in the mean time. When I am not sitting around the house just being depressed I am usually down at the bar hanging out with the Browns Crew and Ed. Shoofly is the most recent addition to the wonderful crew at the bar. Also there is a new cocktail waitress that I have yet to meet. Dana is her name. I didn't even know about her until some older people came in and said they were related to someone who works there. I was like, "who?" and they replied "Dana" and I'm like, riiiight, I have no idea who that is. So later on I go look at the schedule and crazy as it sounded there was a Dana on the schedule. I'm like well I'll be... apparently on one of my nights of staying in a new waitress started at the bar and no one said anything about her. Look what I get for taking a night off from hanging out at the bar, they slip in a new waitress and then I look stupid a few nights later. In case I haven't mentioned it I do work the door at Browns on the weekends. Not necessarily both nights but usually just 1 night. I have a pretty free schedule right now and the little extra cash helps out. So I am looking forward to meeting the newbie.

The Megatouch machine at Browns got messed up and all of Ed and my scores have been erased. We have to start over from scratch. So much hard work and effort and money has been put into that machine just to have it all disappear...

I haven't seen too many movies lately. I saw Spiderman 2 on the first midnight showing. That was fun. Ed and I went at spur of the moment an hour before the show. I was surprised that it wasn't sold out but they had it on 5 screens so that is probably why.

I went to another Cubs Cards game down in St. Louis on the 9th of July. It was fun. The Cubs lost though because they are in a slump and also the Cards are just playing good ball right now. Not a winning combination for the Cubbies. Although tonight the Cubs won and I am happy about that. There were 12 of us that went to the game on Friday evening, Me, Ed, Farah, Reier, Brenda, Natalie, Buck, Philly, Crowy, Jenny, Shoofly, and Blake Nibbe. I got to drive Farah's vehicle back to Springfield and that was a lot of fun. She has a very nice ride. I think it is the nicest vehicle I have ever driven and I am happy that she trusted me enough to drive it. That means alot. Not that I have ever show reason not to be trusted but people are usually picky about who can drive their vehicles. You know what I mean?

My dad wants me to consider this one job in the classifieds. It is with the State of Illinois, Department of Human Services. It states... loking for special people interested in a challenging and rewarding career. Tests will be given for position of Mental Health Technician Trainee 1 on August 12, 2004 for Jacksonville Developmental Center. Candidates required to participate in and successfully pass full day of testing in Jacksonville which includes: written and video observation exams, physical ability tests and formal oral interview. As a Mental Health Technician Trainee 1 you will be provided instructional classes and receive on-the-job training in working with adults who are developmentally disabled. No formal education or previous experience is required. Excellent benefits including paid vacation, sick days and holidays, health, life, vision and dental insurance, retirement plan and much more. Advancement opportunities and paid overtime are also available. Entrance salary for a fulltime position is currently $1,843.00 monthly.

I am considering this. I have to call to receive an information packet. This would or could be a very rewarding career and also give me life experience I cannot get many other places. I would think it is a satisfying career and yet very demanding. It isn't a job where I would have to bring work home with me. I'm sure it would be a set schedule and that is something that I need in my life. I have always thought about doing something like this that helps people as a career. Which is why I originally wanted to go into Psychology but that didn't follow me to ISU like I had hoped. They never accepted me into that major so it was tough to focus on Psychology and my actual major. Plus homework and I didn't mix very well. It was like me and jogging... I could do it if I kept trying but it wasn't fun whenever I started so I would stop. hehe.

I know that this is only my 2nd entry of the month and it is already the 12th. I am sorry but I haven't felt like writing much lately. I'm not too happy with myself. I don't like how things are going in my life right now. I feel like I have no direction. Granted I am having fun but I am not letting myself have as much fun as I could. It isn't like I'm on vacation right now. It may seem like I am but vacation means that I have something to go back too after all of this fun ends. I don't. I am living by the seat of my pants. Friends help me out and it is appreciated. My parents helped me out with a few expenses right off the bat and I am thankful for that also. I just feel like I am going no where. I don't want people to sit there and say, oh there is Kyle, he still doesn't have a job or any money. What a bum. I feel like a bum. I don't like being a mooch. But I don't want to sit at home and do nothing all day either. Even though some days I do just that. Like today, I didn't leave the house. I never got dressed. I didn't shower. I just sat around doing jack crap. The highlight of my day was to watch the Cub game with my Dad.

My sisters were here last weekend and through the week. Jennifer, I hadn't seen her since Christmas time. She lives out in Burbank, CA with her husband Jeff. As of today the 12th they have been married for exactly 1 year. Crazy huh. It has been a whole year since the wild celebration that I call my sister's wedding day. It was great to see her. I beat her 4 times at scrabble which just bugged the hell out of her. My sister Shannon came home from Chicago and she played 3 or those 4 times and I beat her each time she played too. They hailed me as the Scrabble King. They couldn't believe that I was capable of beating them at a word game. They don't give their younger brother enough credit. I'm smarter than I let on. Just because I don't apply it to things that are worthwhile doesn't mean that I'm not intelligent.

While they were home I got criticized on the usual things, my weight, my lack of job, my not helping out my parents more, I got ordered to help my Grandma out more by running errands for her. This is easy for them to say because they live way way out of town. They are not here every day. I bet if they both lived here they would not be doing everything that they apparently expect out of me. I am not selfish but I feel that I need to sort out my life situation before I go jumping head first into other people's lives. You know what I mean? I know my weight is still an issue as it always has been. Jennifer saw a picture of me and it was when I was about 50 pounds lighter I would guestimate. She was like... Look at how thin you look! Trying to make a point. I get the point but it isn't that easy. It is never that easy. Or is it. It could be so damned simple and I am a wuss and won't do it. Hell I don't know. Any hot girls want to promise me sexual favors to lose weight? eh? eh? Any takers? Well, it was worth a shot. hehe.

I am getting tired of catching up. It is 1:30am and I probably should get to sleep. I have to call about that Mental Health job in the morning and also activate my debit card which finally came. Although my pin number is being sent seperately for security reasons. woo yay I am overjoyed. I need to go into Famvid in the morning also or afternoon. I don't know.

Later party people,
Live, Love, Laughter - K

Dashboard Confessional...


So today my sister Jennifer and brother inlaw Jeff came home. I haven't seen them since Christmas time. First thing my sister Jen says to me is that I look like I am Mexican. I'm like, oh thanks great to see you too. It is great to see her because it has only been phone calls for the last 6 months. She and her husband live out in Burbank California and I am like the only one who has yet to go visit them. I'm poor and it is tough.

I worked the door down at the bar this evening. It was a slow night but it was a good time. I had fun. Most of my friends came in and hung out so that makes it much more bearable when it is slow like it was. I got to see Jessica Bursi also. She lives out on the west coast and doesn't make it in to Springfield very often.

I am going to bed. I am a 'wuss' and people hate me because I wouldn't go out to a 3am bar but I don't care. I wanted to go to bed. Bed is nice and I like sleeping in it. It is so nice and cozy. I love it. Mmmmm Bed....

Well this has been a brief post. I plan on sleeping in tomorrow because I have nothing to do. I might go buy a book with the money I made tonight. BUT I have other books that I need to finish first before I go and spend money on more books. You know what I mean?

Well, Later,

Peace Love and Happiness, K