Stuck

Yeah. Yesterday was the longest day ever. Not really. It was the exact same amount of time that every day has in it. I went to my Aunt's retirement party. It was an alright time. There was a lot of family there. A lot of nonfamily there. A lot of food and a few free beers here and there. It was crowded as hell when I got there. Yeah, I wasn't up for that. I sat along the wall until I saw a cousin of mine leave her spot at the bar to go home. I was like, Jackpot. So I moved over there and sat at the bar for the rest of the time I was there. I probably headed there at about 4pm or so adn then I stayed until 8pm. I watched the Illini win. That was a plus. I still really didn't want to be there but then once I got there I just stayed but I kept thinking about how I would rather be home laying in bed. Well, finally after everyone left and it was just my dad and I and the regulars. Dad said he was heading home and I said well I guess that means I should go too. But I didn't head to the house, I headed to the bar. Because I didn't want to go home and lounge and then get my hopes up and then a few minutes later have to get up and leave again to go down to the bar to work. Yes, I worked the door down at the bar last night. I was not wanting to be there either. Yes, I saw friends which made the evening more bearable. But I bolted as soon as I got the waitresses walked out. Home home home I went. To sleep the good sleep. The sleep where you know that you are going to fall asleep immediately and sleep for a long time and know that you don't have to wake up for any stupid crap in the morning. That is the best sleep ever. I hate stupid crap.

Blah

So yeah. It has been a long time since I have had the feeling of blah. Do you know what the feeling of blah is? I am very familiar with it. It is probably a mild depression and that is probably the best way to describe it. You don't feel like seeing anyone. You don't feel like doing anything. You just want to escape from anything that you do. I am in this blah stage right now. I'm surprised that I am even blogging because I have not had much inspiration to write even though things are happening around me all the time. The holidays have been great. I can't complain. I saw all of my family and I love seeing my family. But since Christmas I have felt a little off. I've been keeping up with my vitamins so I know that it isn't that. It isn't anyone in particular either. It is more than likely just me being blah.

New Years Eve is tomorrow night. It is a big night for a lot of people but I have never been a big fan of New Years Eve. What I always deduce to probably be the source of this is that I never have anyone to share it with. Sure I have my friends but I don't have that one person. The one that makes it that much better because I am with them. Although this is always a deal for me I don't think that this is really why I feel blah. Why would I feel blah for almost a whole week because of one day? I guess it is possible but I doubt it. You may think... I can help Kyle get out of this funk. I wouldn't worry about it if I were you. Sometimes people need to be alone. Sometimes people want to be alone.

Right now I should be getting ready and then heading over to Spammy's for my Aunt's retirement party that she is having there. I have been saying that I would go for the longest time. I have wanted to go for the longest time. Now though, I don't want to shower, I don't want to get dressed, I don't want to leave the house. I would rather just lay down and watch a movie and escape into the world that I love so much in movies.

I have 2 going out options for New Years Eve. 1 is to go to Peoria and hang out with my buddies Crow and Ben and their friends there. If I go there I am afraid that it will be all couples and I will get even more depressed. I could also go to Melissa's pre party for New Years. Which isn't supposed to go late and then people from there will head downtown. I'm thinking I don't want to go downtown for sure. I have been to the bars each night for the last 8 out of 9 nights. Only Christmas eve did I NOT go to a bar. I did drink at home though but not at a bar. I go out because I feel the need to see people just to keep up with people.

My dad just walked in and asked me why I am not over at Spammy's yet. My aunt says that everyone is there and it is hopping. I answered him with an "I don't know". And it is the truth. I don't know why I am sitting here still with having yet to shower or do anything today. I really don't want to do jack shit....

fast suckers

I don't have a lot to say. Sunday I got a huge ass group of probably 14 people to go see the movie Spanglish with Adam Sandler and Tea Leoni. It was a very good heartfelt movie with funny quirky moments that are simply life or a crazy person. It felt good to organize such a gathering again. It has been years since I have tried to organize a non bar related gathering and been sucessful. Back in HS I used to organize quite a bit after Izzy got a little tired of it. I then got tired of it too. You can only be the organizer so much before you think. Man, why can't someone else take the time to pick times and places and then call everyone finding what works for everyone and then try to get everyone to come. It is exhausting. This was well worth the effort. I think that everyone liked it although about half of the group that came ran out the door while I was getting a refill on my way out. I never heard a goodbye or anything. It's like some people wanted to get the hell out of there as fast as possible. Cause I never even saw them leave. Oh well, it must have been important to not say bye......

Sigh

Well, Christmas is winding down. Jennifer and Jeff have headed back up to St. Charles to be with Jeff's family for the remainder of their stay in Illinois. Shannon will be leaving tomorrow afternoon to head back to Chicago and then on Monday is leaving for a 5 day trip to Florida with her bf. Shannon's friend Laurel stopped in like she does every Christmas. Crow should be coming here to visit for a little while here soon like he usually does. It is nearly tradition for us to hang out on Christmas night after all of our family things are over with. Last year I don't think I hung out because I was so incredibly sick. Right now I'm just sitting around enjoying a few glasses of wine before I get anything going for the evening.

I got a few shirts for xmas, trivial pursuit dvd pop culture edition, nose hair trimmer - yes a nose hair trimmer, you may scoff at that but hey, it is something that some people need, but it is also a side burn trimmer too. OH! I got one of those Atari Gaming things that has like 21 games on it and it just plugs right into the input output plugs. I haven't tried it out but it has some classic games on it. You know what is really funny? On the packaging it says "A blast from Mom and Dad's past!" and we are like, oh god, this was when we were little kids.... Are we getting to be a blast from the past? Are we really that old?

Merry Christmas!

Woooo! It is Christmas Day folks. It finally arrived and it showed up with bells and whistles on. What a great time. I got to see my whole extended family last night and I've been hanging out with my sisters for the last few days. Happy times are here. I miss being able to see my sisters every day. I gave out a lot of presents this year. Something that I don't usually do. My family was very impressed with how much thought I put into each gift. I got a lot of WOW, How did you know? Or WOW, I love it! They were surprised that I actually listen to figure out what it is that they like. I do pay attention.

She did it again!

GAH! That darn sister of mine. Last time she was home I came home from the bar. I was about to go to bed and I couldn't find Shannon anywhere. So I'm like, that's weird. Then I think, wait a minute. I go into my room and there she is asleep in my bed. No not in the upper bunk but in my bed. I'm like Damn it. So knowing that she has a perfectly comfortable bed in the guest bedroom I kick her out. She apparently has created a vice for herself that she needs to fall asleep while a television is on. Well, there is no tv in the guest room but there is one in my room now. So she goes into my room to fall asleep while watching the tv. BUT she doesn't factor in or even think about how she will get out of my bed after she falls asleep. Yeah, that's right, she can't because SHE IS ASLEEP. So yeah, last time I kicked her out. Now she has done it again. The thing is that my other sister and her husband are here with us and they get the guest room. So Shannon can either sleep on the couch or my upper bunk. Shan usually doesn't sleep on my upper bunk because she claims that I "snore" so she usually takes the couch. Well this year we talked and she said she would try to sleep on the upper bunk. I'm cool with that. Well, I get home a bit ago and she isn't on the couches. So I'm thinking, hey, she actually is on the upper bunk. So I take my time going into my room because I don't want to wake her. So I finally go in. All the lights are out and I am in there getting ready to change. I turn on the monitor to my computer so that I can see because it emits just enough light to see with. Well, it warms up and comes on and what do I see? I see Shan sound asleep on my bed. I'm like, what the hell? I cleared the upper bunk and everything for her. She could watch tv from the top bunk. But noooooooo that blasted girl falls asleep in my bed. So I think to myself. Should I be an ass? Should I kick her out again or should I let her stay? My quandry is that I don't sleep on my upper bunk. Being a big guy it is too tough for me to get up there. Coming back down sucks even bigger balls. Sure I can get up there. I get up there to make the bed when the sheets are washed. Last time I did that I forgot to turn my fan off and that hit me pretty hard. But also when I got up there I didn't want to come down. It's like climbing a tree to get to a platform that is really high. Yeah, once you get up there, you just want to chill and admire the view, you don't want to climb right back down after all the effort you just put yourself through. So, I am deciding to be the nice guy. Now I will probably be grumpy as HELL tomorrow because we have to be up early and do family things out of town and I can't get an actual good night's sleep on the couch. But I am going to subject myself to this because I don't feel like being an ass and wake her up and make her move to the upper bunk. I am going to make sure as heck that she isn't in my bed tomorrow night. It is like if I'm not around to keep her in check she just ends up in my bed. Tomorrow night the fam will be together all the way up until bed, so I know she won't be trying to pull this again. Plus I will be sure to give her a little grief about it tomorrow. I'm not a fan of the couch. I slept on the couch over thanksgiving too because she brought so many people home with her. Sleeping on the couch wasn't fun at all. My back was hurt at that time too which made that suck even more. Ugh. Oh well. That is my rant about Shannon. I hope she appreciates what I am doing for her.

I still want a hula hoop

Yeah, It is almost Christmas. The reason I know this is because I am done with wrapping my Christmas gifts to my family and friends. I am so stoked. I hope everyone likes what I got them. I just tried to get things for people based on what I know that they really really like or just based on their personalities. I think that a friend should just know what another friend would want. You know what I mean? Sure you can ask for guidelines but to be totally stumped kind of shows that you don't pay attention. Unless it is someone like my dad who never eludes to liking anything at all. But get this, he comes into the kitchen a little bit ago and starts telling my mom and I a few things that he would like to get. We looked at each other in disbelief. Then we informed him that this was a little too late and that he should have told us this about a month ago. My mom and I are both totally done with our shopping. Well, I need to get a card or 2 and a few fillers for cards but for major gifts I am done. Yay for being done. I just laid all of my family's gifts out under the tree. I am not the first one to put presents out yet but it is starting to fill up. I wish my gifts had more bulk to them so they could look a little better but they still look nice.

Ok, question. Say you are getting gifts for a few of your best friends. Not you friends but your best friends. You don't usually do this but the occassion struck you and you have the money to be generous this year. Well you go ahead and buy the gifts. Then a friend informs you that they got you a Christmas gift. This isn't someone you would expect to ever get a gift from. They are a friend yes, but best friend, not really. So what do you do? Do you break the self imposed rule of only getting gifts for best friends and get something for this friend too. Then what about other friends who you didn't get anything for either? Just leave them dry too? Knowing that you are getting a gift from someone but were not planning on something for them, would just a Christmas Card be enough?

Damn I'm good

KyleStill5: damn
KyleStill5: it is midnight
KyleStill5: I have to go
KyleStill5: I turn into a pumpkin soon
KyleStill5: Ha, I just saw Shoo's comment on your site
EDK218: the recap of nov for me
KyleStill5: yeah
KyleStill5: about my last hair cut
EDK218: it's the best comment ever
KyleStill5: I think it was September actually
KyleStill5: It's been a few months
KyleStill5: I'm going to grow dreads like those awesome football dudes that run like hell when the have the ball and their dreads fly everywhere
EDK218: you don't run anywhere
EDK218: they would never fly anywhere
KyleStill5: no one has chased me with a knife yet
KyleStill5: hence the only reason in life to run
KyleStill5: unless you aspire to win an olympic gold medal, I will let that slide
EDK218: hey, stretching a single into a double in baseball in acceptable too
KyleStill5: eh
KyleStill5: that started back in the 1800's with the first baseman having a knife and chasing the baserunner because he slept with the dude's wife the night before and he just found out.
KyleStill5: the runner was like, SHIT! I'm not staying at first base
KyleStill5: I thought you knew everything about baseball
KyleStill5: tisk tisk, I'm disappointed in you
EDK218: ha ha
KyleStill5: Then it was just tradition because that cheating fool helped to win the game, the coach was like everyone act like the first baseman has a knife from now on. I hear that pujols sometimes has a real knife just to keep it interesting from time to time

Tedious

I am decently awake now but without any motivation. Do you know what I mean? It is like, I'm not about to fall asleep anymore but if I attempt to do anything I'm like UGH I don't have the energy for this, maybe later. All I need to do is pair my socks and put the rest of my whites away. This may seem like a simple task but I have an insane amount of socks and also they are not all the same style. SO that means sitting there for 20 minutes just sorting them into piles of style, then for some reason even similar styles have different lengths and this all gets to be way to damned tedious. I'm not a big fan of tedious. Some people may be, I don't know but I do know that is NOT my cup of tea, and I do like most tea too. So I am mustering the energy to do that then head to bed. I need sleep which is obvious from my last post. 4 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!

So tired

Wow, I haven't done this in a while. Well I'm sure you all know how most of the days during the week I take a nap inbetween shifts. Well, Today was a full day and I wasn't able to take a nap. I got up at 5:50am after getting to sleep after 2am last night. I worked from 7am until 3pm. I came home and relaxed because it had been a long day. Well from about 4 until 5ish I was nodding in and out of a nap while watching tv, never fully getting to sleep. Well all of a sudden I woke up at 8pm in the recliner but I felt like I had no freakin idea where I was. All I could remember was the 5 o'clock news being on and finishing up and now all of a sudden Everwood was starting. I couldn't believe it. I felt like I had passed out or something. It was the weirdest feeling that I have had in a long time. I jumped up and stumbled around the room like I was drunk or drugged or something like that in a state of confusion. It was not pleasant at all. I almost feel kind of bad because I fell asleep. I didn't want to sleep that long. I had things to do. Obviously getting some much needed sleep is more important especially the kind of sleep where you have no control over actually going under. I was planning on going to the store for my mom, I needed to do laundry, I did make the effort to run and get myself food and I kind of felt as though I shouldn't have even done that because I was still so groggy. The thing is that I still feel like I have no energy. The Pass Out 2.5 hour nap didn't refresh me at all. I've just been sitting and watching tv even more but not passing back out this time. Now it is getting late. I've got to run an errand because I need to get a Christmas Gift that I HAVE to have by tomorrow and I won't be able to get it at 6:30am on my way to work so that means that I will have to go out and get it now because the place is still open. Well, that is all for now. I think I'm hitting the hay before midnight tonight. Another full day tomorrow but THEN! 5 DAYS OFF! YAY!

When I am rich... Part 1

I want to be rich as most people do. I like to think I am already a worldly person. I can't imagine how worldly I would be if and when I become rich. First thing I would do is pay off any and all debt for myself and my immediate family. I wouldn't want that following me around while I travel the world. I want to be a world traveler. I've always loved trips and roughing it but in addition I love living in luxury. Another thing I would do is have a different outfit for every day of my life. I hate laundry. I'm doing laundry right now and it sucks. Yeah yeah, I know that there isn't much to it but I hate standing there washing my clothes knowing that this is all I have and that this has been worn hundreds of times and that it will be worn hundreds of times more. Perks of wearing a brand new outfit all the time include never having to iron the clothes. They are new and in great condition so they never will be wrinkled. Also you never have to worry about stains or if something has a hole in it. Nothing you wear will ever look "dated" because you know it is brand new. I'm not a big shopper but I believe that it is because I don't have a lot of money. I only buy a new shirt or 2 maybe 1 time a year. I ask for clothes at birthdays and Christmas because I'm not big on picking things out and if someone gets it for me then it makes it that much easier.

I will write more on this later

Gotta keep the blog entries short for Ed and Shoo. They are not very good at reading long entries so I have to dumb it down and keep them small in order to keep them happy. Keeping them happy is my main objective in life.

gifts

So, I have things on my mind but they are the kind of things that I don't know specifically how to put down nor am I really sure about if I want to share everything.

I finished my Christmas shopping last night. I never set foot inside 1 store to do my own Christmas shopping. Now I did go out and help my mom do some shopping but that was just me being a good guy. I should probably start wrapping my presents now since I have almost all of them. A few presents still have to arrive on Tuesday. I wish I could get presents for everyone that I know. I really do but I cut it off with just getting a little something for my best buds. Ed, Crow, Philly, Benny, Shoofly, and Reier. Cause look at that. That is 6 people in addition to my family right there. So if you don't get a gift from me and other people did, don't be offended. In no way does that mean that I don't like you. I do but I can't do everything. I idolize Superman but I am not him.

Christmas time

Who is coming back to Springfield for Christmas? I want names and dates. I'm not sick as a dog this year (I was too sick to leave the house last year) and I will be able to hang out plus I'm actually living in Springfield now so no commuting.

I got my first Christmas gift from one of my kids this morning. A little boy and his mom got me a Pot of Gold box of chocolates. Looks yummy.

Yay, we have a new addition to the Circle of Friends blog ring thing that my friends kind of have going on. Welcome Becky to the blogging world.

http://www.bakaya.blogspot.com/

Critique

Thanks for the pointers Shoofly. You want my entries short. Good great grand wonderful. I bet on the college bball game of Depaul and NW last night. I was going for Depaul and they lost so I lost money to Ed. It sucked. I drank beer. I drank water. I hiked up more than 500 steps. I saw Shoo, Ed, Mandy, Lu, Kirsten, Jessie, Natalie, Kurt, Kristine. Great to see all of you. You want a beaten man. You like that better. SO BE IT! This will be my only entry for today. Good bye.

Shorter entries

BULL SHIT SHOO. The entries come as they may. I have no control over how much I have to say about something. If the mood strikes me and I feel like writing a novel then a novel it will be. Other times I don't have a lot to say and it will be brief but then I feel that brief sacrifices quality. I am a quality man. I like quality things.

Oh here is one for you shoo. Yesterday I'm sitting in the family room watching Regis and Kelly like always after I get home from my morning shift. All of a sudden my dad walks by and stops and prefaces this before a comment. I know you are an adult and can take care of things on your own. I'm like oh crap. What did I do now? He says that I don't look very well kempt (clothing wise not hair wise). Like my collar wasn't pressed on my button down that I was wearing and I didn't iron it but it wasn't too bad. I'm like yeah, okay whatever. My boss wears old St. Louis Cardinal t-shirts. I am a whole lot more dressed up than she is. He said that isn't the point. I say that is the point. I shouldn't have to outdress my own supervisor because my dad thinks a collar that lays down is not very distinguished. So, that was our "run in" for the day. It got me reiled up but not too bad. We didn't get into it beyond that so, no yelling and no storming out of the room or no refusal to talk about it anylonger. I know that those are the best ones. I got off light this time because he didn't press it further. So that is my Father Son conflict story. I know that Shoo loves reading those because we btoh butt heads with our fathers every so often about stuff that probably shouldn't be fought over in the first place.

Also, something that bugs me while on the computer. Not anyone in particular but I'm sure most of you have done this to me at one point or another. Is you make the effort to IM me. First you just say a "Hi" or something along those lines. Then that's it. I say hi back. Nothing... I'm like um ok. So the jist of this is that people IM me and then expect me to carry the conversation. Hell no. If you IM me with nothing to talk about or can't even make something up then why do you IM me in the first place. I don't want to have to start giving you prompts to give me information when I didn't even want to IM you in the first place. I know everyone will keep doing this anyway but it is always good to actually have something to talk about instead of how is the weather.

And Shoo, what do you mean by "I think I was just moched. "?

Where is everyone?

Wow. I've been sitting here at the computer for quite a while now. No one called me tonight. No one IMed me tonight. Not many people have checked my blog. I think a tumbleweed just blew across my computer screen and down onto the floor and out the front door.

A joke from a kid of mine

Q: What do ducks eat?
A: Milk and Quackers.

Why read?

Why read what I have to say? Melissa makes the point that her blog is so much more interesting than mine. Go ahead. Posting in my blog is not a job but with all the requests to post often and to keep them interesting is making it into one. I try to keep my life interesting but sometimes the most interesting thing in a day that happens to me is the television shows that I watch in the evening. I'm sure that most anyone can relate to that. Sure I get philosophical every so often. What is the fun of a friend who is constantly philosophical though? I would think that it would get annoying pretty quickly. So Melissa makes claim her blog is better. Sure okay. It just depends on what you're looking for to fulfill your midday break from boredom. If anyone writes about their lives then there is bound to be some interesting information. Everyone is unique. Everyone has their own individual thoughts to put on the table. More people should blog about what is on their mind because then with that others might begin to attain a better grasp of how people as a whole, tick. But don't knock on someone because they are not in the mood to share what's on their mind or have a lack there of of information to write out for the world to read. Yes, the world to read. I've got people from all over the world who read this. Just today I had someone from Japan read my blog. I have people from all around the country too. I believe someone from Cincinatti read my blog today too. Sure I have my regulars that I know personally but then there are also those of whom I have never met. I'm sure that if I haven't done jack crap for a day than they don't really care to hear about it. I could be wrong but if I don't have anything to say then all that would be put on here would be a boring dictation of what I have done for that day. Which is purposely why I made that post to sound like it did. I did have an obvious agenda behind it, to make a point that I haven't done jack crap for the last day and a half worthy of posting.

Now I might have something that you may or may not find interesting. But does it really matter if you find it interesting? Nope. I know for a fact that if I post a nice long blog about something that I feel is interesting then some people just scan it. They don't actually read the whole thing. That's crap. If you are willing to be a voyeur and read what I have to say then read all of it. It's all or nothing.

I've started a new workout regiment. It is free. It is indoors. It should be very damned effective. One time a day I walk from the ground floor of the Hilton up the stairs all the way to the 30th floor. Right now it is taking me about 20 to 25 minutes to make it all the way up. The only thing keeping me from going faster right now is the fact that I get insanely out of breath after just a few short flights of stairs. I can push through the burn. I have no problem with that. If it starts to burn you just keep moving one foot infront of the other. Even if it slows down quite a bit as long as the movement upward is happening then it is doing a good job. But I get so out of breath that if I keep going I would probably hyperventillate and pass out. So right now I take 2 floors and then pause for a minute or 2 and then I take another 2 floors and so on. Today was my second day. Also as of right now I am just going one way. Once I get to the top I take the elevator down. I know you might say, what the hell Kyle, going down is easier. But for right now I say Great Job Kyle for making it to the top without dying or passing out. I'm thinking about maybe doing it 2 times a day since it only takes me 20 minutes or so. But when I go right now I can park outside and not pay for parking because it is after 6pm. If I go when I have to pay for parking then it wouldn't really be free then. My first goal is to make it 15 floors before I have to stop for a breather. My second goal is to of course make it all the way to the top without having to stop. When I get to that point I might make multiple trips up and down. You know, kick it up a knotch. It is all about improvement. As for doing it 2 times a day. The reason why I may want to do this is because about an hour after I do this I feel great. So I feel that my body would be able to handle it more often but just spaced out. I really need to get in shape. That is about all there is to it. I would like to be able to go for a jog and not be winded. Take a single flight of stairs and not be winded. Be able to keep up with bastard speed walking friends when walking from bar to bar downtown.

Also to friends looking for love. Don't look. Enjoy the freedom that you have now. Sure you will more than likely enjoy being married with kids but you know how you probably have a job now. You get to go home from that job and say "what a crazy day" glad I got to get away from that. Well marriage and kids are a full fulltime job. You can't just go home and get away from it for an evening every evening. It is the job that you have until the day that you die. You have to do it well to. At no point in time is it acceptable to half ass raise your kids. Also marriage can be perfect but not always. As much as someone compliments another person there is always something to be worked on. It might be small but it would still need to be worked on. ALSO Marriage and Kids cost money. Make sure that you are willing to spend nearly all of your paycheck on someone else wife, husband, kid(s). Because when it comes to marriage it is no longer your money. It is our money so instead of it being enough for you to live off of, it has become enough for two or more people to live off of. Just some thoughts from my brain on that one.

I know I'm not ready for marriage for quite a few years. I need more education. I need a girl. And I need a really good paying job with benefits and I'm not talking about less than $20,000 per year. That is not enough for 2 or more people to not be struggling. At least in my mind. Sure if the situation presents itself that I know that everything is great then I will look into it. But I know that I will need to date for a while too first because I am not jumping the gun. Once I'm married that should be it. Totally committed.

Melissa wants a post

So, here I sit. Melissa wants me to post in my blog. Just shy of a day and a half and she is fiending for more Kyle. I know she loves me and is riveted by my every word. All women are.

Yesterday I woke up. I went to work. I came home. I napped from 10am until 2pm. I woke back up and went back to work. I got off work. I went and exercised for a half hour by myself. I came home and ate dinner. I watched some television. I went to the bar. Hung out with Ed and gave him his Christmas present which was the Jurassic Park trilogy DVD boxed set. I went to Mojo's and briefly visited with Reier. I came home and got to sleep by 2am.

Today I woke up and went to work. The kids behaved fine. I stopped at Quik n EZ and got chips and a soda on my drive home. I am now at home. I watched Regis and Kelly. Jim Carrey was on. He is funny. Now I am sitting at my computer and Melissa wanted me to update because "it is time" and "you have to think of your public". So here is an update. I'll probably be napping soon. Then I will go back to work. Then I will get off of work. Then I will go exercise for a half hour. Then I will come home and eat dinner. Then I will watch television. Then I will probably call it a night.

Sequels in 2006 or 2007

Fahrenheit 9/11½ (2007)
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (2007)
Spider-Man 3 (2007)
Untitled Star Trek Prequel, The (2007)
Big Momma's House 2 (2006)
Die Hard 4.0 (2006)
Final Destination 3 (2006)
Hellboy 2 (2006)
House of the Dead 2 (2006)
Indiana Jones 4 (2006)
Italian Job II, The (2006)
James Bond 21 (2006)
Jurassic Park IV (2006)
Kung Pow 2: Tongue of Fury (2006)
Mission: Impossible III (2006)
Pirates of the Caribbean 2 (2006)
Resident Evil: Afterlife (2006)
Return of the Living Dead 5: Rave from the Grave (2006)
Shrek 3 (2006)
Superman Returns (2006)
X-Men 3 (2006)

Um no

So I opted out of movie night. Shoo has seen it, Phil said he wouldn't go, and Ed couldn't get ahold of step sista. I totally lost my mood for a movie. I called Ed and broke the news to him gently. I just got so tired and I don't feel like doing anything. I did just watch a movie though, but it was sitting on my couch, in my jammys, under a blanket, with my parents. I'm about to head to bed. I need sleep. I plan on decorating the Christmas tree tomorrow during the day. I don't know how long that will take but I am hoping to not have to take a nap. I'll just have to see how that goes when I get there.

ILL INI

Yeah yeah, OOOOOHHH YEAH. The University Of Illinios Urbana-Champaign's Fighting Illini Men's Basketball have the right stuff. Their record as of yesterday is 9 - 0. Yes that is right NINE WINS and ZERO LOSSES.http://fightingillini.collegesports.com/sports/m-baskbl/ill-m-baskbl-body.html

I can't wait to see MEET THE FOCKERS.

Movie Night

Yay for movie night. Tonight Ed and I and whoever else we can get to go are going to see a movie. Tonight's movie is going to be Ocean's 12. Yes the sequel of the remake of the original! So far I know Shoofly has seen it already so he won't be joining us on our own movie night. Phil hasn't called me back yet but hopefully he does cause I want to get him in on this fledgling of a new tradition. So far it has been the past 3 Sundays. We have seen The Incredibles, Friday Night Lights, and Mr. 3000 and now tonight I will add Ocean's 12 to the Sunday Night List. Ed and I are going. Ed is calling Step Sista. I might call other people. Depends on if I'm up for it or not. I used to see like 2 movies a week back in the day when I got to see movies for free. There was a time when I couldn't go to the video store because I had seen all of the new releases. I would just have to tell people, pick something you know you would like because odds are I will have seen it already and it won't matter to me either way. I just like to enjoy the time I have with my friends. Who knows. I could find a girl, get married, and move to Maine and none of you would ever see me again. You say, that could never happen. Well folks just remember with the world that we live in ANYTHING is possible within reason.

Stand in the place where you live

Can you change things if you really try? Can you change your life or are you in a forest path that has mildly deep grooves. You might be able to get out of those ruts but would those measures be drastic. To get out of that groove though means leaving everything there in the groove unless there is a way to bring something out of the groove with you. But the other things in the groove have their own grooves too. Although those other grooves are somewhat similar they are not identical because no one has an truely identical groove.

I'm here if you want me, I'm here if you need me, I'm here if you do, I'm here if you don't. I'm not perfect and I never claimed to be. I can't smile all of the time although I try to be. I try for all of you can't you see. I'm here for you and not for me.

I think I need a break. I need a break. Break meaning I don't want it to end but I feel the need for a breather.

You read or skim. If you read what someone has to say then read all of it. You don't watch a movie and then go read the novel it is based off of and then skip chapters because you get the gist of it because you saw the movie. It is the desire to read all and know all that draws you in to begin with. Maybe that one sentence will say something that can change your life or stimulate your mind in new ways. Don't skim. The only skim that is acceptable is the milk.

I had a pine tree on the roof of my car today. That was fun. I should have taken a picture. I let my dad drive my car. He is the human car diagnostic machine. I can find everything out about what is wrong with a car if I put him behind the wheel. Things that I never even noticed in the first place.

I'm just tired.

After Clark Griswold (Chevy Chase) unsuccessfully attempts to demonstrate his handiwork with the house Christmas lights to his family, he asks his son, Rusty (Johnny Galecki), to help him check all the light bulbs again. Rusty looks at his bare wrist, pretending to have a watch, and excuses himself. Looking at a bare wrist and pretending to have a watch is one of Chevy Chase's trademark gags.

Crazy Game of Poker

I say hey, you say hi.

Yeah, not too much happening today. Been hanging out with the family and extended family on my great uncle's side. Today we are celebrating his 90th birthday. Lots of conversation, lots of food, and just a fun warm atmosphere. I'm starting to get a little bored though. I have to admit. I've had like 6 or 7 pepsi's. I work the bar again tonight. I drank a good amount last night. Still within reason. I wasn't wasted or anything. I wouldn't disrespect the bar by doing that while on the job. I was very toasty though. I spent the 2 hours after the bar's closing just cooling down because I knew that I didn't need any more to drink and such since I was driving. I like to be somewhat responsible. Ed and Shoo tried to get me to go to Chicago Style with them after leaving Norbandy's but I was not up for food. I instead had a call from Reier and he and I chatted while I walked back to my car. I ended up getting home at about 3:30am and got to bed by 4am. Yeah, I slept until about noon and I could have gone for longer but I knew that I needed to get up because of the party today. We have guests and I didn't want to be showering and walking around scantily clad with them here nor did I want to be unshowered when they are here smelling of the bars that I was in last night.

Better

For those who don't or didn't know. Natalie was in the hospital this week with asthma/respiratory problems. She went in on Monday morning and got out of the hospital this morning. She is doing much better now but still will probably be taking it easy for a few days following her release.

This week went by fast. Wednesday was a crazy day because I was in charge at work in the afternoon since my lead was observing another scope and a substitute was in for her. I had to wrangle those kids all by myself practically. That was fun. Thursday and Friday we were working on the kids' Christmas presents for their parents that we are making. I manned the glue gun and the days flew by while doing that. Now it is the weekend. I work tonight at the bar and I also work Saturday night too at the bar. Saturday day my family is celebrating my Great Uncle's 90th birthday. His relatives from Chicago are coming down and it is going to be a good time. Not often do you get to help celebrate someone's 90th birthday with them. His actual birthday is on Sunday but Saturday is more convenient to have the party and it is being held at our house.


14 days until Christmas 2004. Have you started your Christmas shopping yet? Or are you finished with your Christmas shopping? I for the most part am done. I might get something else for my mom in addition to what I have already gotten for her. Depends on money. As of right now I have less than 10 dollars in my checking but I will be working tonight and tomorrow night so that will be some extra money that can be put to good use. Then the money I make at the bar will tide me over until I get paid this coming Thursday from my other job.

Well, I'm about to head down to the bar. So I'm done for now. Laterz

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

I always feel like there is nothing really happening in my life. Do you feel the same way? For example, when a person asks you what's been going on you reply with not much. Why do people say not much? Surely things actually have been going on. People usually do more than actually eat, sleep, and watch television. I know that I do more than that. Why is it that I almost always say not much? It could be because my expectations of what I feel worthy of talking about are very high. I've done some pretty exciting and fun things in my life. I've been around the block a few times and taken short cuts through alleys just to see what's down there. So when people ask me what is going on and I haven't done anything of great magnitude lately I feel that they probably wouldn't want to hear about it because I know that I wouldn't want to hear about it. Or would I? I do enjoy the small things just as much as the big moments in life. Sure would like every day to be a huge blowout party but I really do enjoy the small things. For example, just being in the presence of my friends is a very enjoyable time. Knowing that I don't have to have an entire conversational monologue to tell just to keep them from walking away is great. They are my friends and I know that they are there for me and I am there for them. We don't have to reiterate that to each other all the time because we just know it. It's there, plain and simple. Now back to saying not much. There can also be another reason as to why I or people in general say not much when others ask of them what has been going on and I think it is the real reason or rather the most likely reason. It is because people just don't feel like talking about it. I know a lot of the time I don't want to sit there and tell you all about what I have been doing since I had last seen you. Sometimes there is just so much to tell that I don't know where to start so I figure why even start. I can kill this conversation right now with 2 simple words, "not much". I do enjoy hearing about what other people have been doing so I usually will throw the what have you been up to? question right back at the person. If they give me not much then I may even give them prompts like are you done with school or what work do you do now or how is the family. Now if it is someone that I see more often to the point that I would know all of the previous questions I will get more specific asking things like how was work yesterday, did anything happen while at work, seen any movies lately, when was the last time you were out. Questions like that can keep a person going for a decent amount of time. With me I give you guys some slack by posting blog postings such as this one. It saves you so much time and you don't have to actually come up to me and ask me what is going on because you have more than likely already read it and know exactly is going on and probably in more detail that I would bother telling you in person. Now sometimes that is not true and I keep it vague on here so that I can actually sound like an interesting person when I see people in person.

And that is how the cookie crumbles.

asses and elbows

I thought it would work and yet again I am wrong. Not the right place and time. Who am I to think such things anyway? I appologize for feeling that way. Why I even start to begin with? I don't know. If I could ever get real feedback things might have been different. Could you see the uniqueness in me as I can see the uniqueness in you? I know not what I do.


How could it ever be?
If you were not meant for me.
I get misled by your smile.
Something I would follow for many mile.
Longing for your warm embrace.
Knowing I am not your pocket ace.
I feel it in my heart.
I'm alone with only a feeling of tart.
I know that this poem sucks.
I may as well get kicked in the nuts.

Sunday's Eve

Today was rather uneventful. During the day I was a lazy bum but did get a majority of my Christmas shopping done online. I love the internet. I can shop for everyone's gifts online, buy them new or used, and get them shipped straight to my front door. I can bargain hunt online. That is the best part. If I can find it cheaper somewhere else that doesn't mean that I have to drive clear across town, for me that means that I just plug in a different web address and BAM! I'm there. Then I click proceed with order and it gets shipped right to me. And yes I do this all in my underwear just like the comercials say. I'm not going to get all dressed up to sit at my computer in my own house.

This weekend was alright. The bar was really dead last night and I have no explaination for it. My only far fetched idea is that people are staying home and saving money because Christmas is so close and they are making the "sacrifice" of not drinking and spending money so that they can spread joy and cheer by buying people they care about pointless gifts that they may only use once or twice.

Tonight Ed, Shoo, and I kept up our Sunday night movie. We 3 went and saw Mr. 3000. I am definately glad that we saw this at the cheap theater. It would not have been worth paying more than 2.50 for the movie. It had its funny parts. If it completely sucked then why would they make the movie and release it in the first place, right? We laughed, We cried, we ate spam. Okay, only one of those actually happened. But the 3 of us plus Mels went to steak n shake and they all had Dessert. I myself waited until I got home because I am saving money so that I can actually buy everyone gifts this year. Which as I said have bought a few already. I hope they get here sooner than later. I just did standard shipping and that means that I don't have a time specific date of delivery.

Shoo is finally feeling better although crazy dancing kids must make him feel sick again. Ed is still sick and lets us know about it. Friday night he was all like I just have to get home and get to sleep cause I'm sick, but then still sick Ed on Satuday night after work goes out. I'm like, shouldn't you go home cause you still are not feeling well. I forget his response but it was something to the extent, I don't care I'm going out. So now that today he still isn't feeling well I say Cry Me A River. HA! Ed is worried that he is my new Phil. I say no one can replace Phil but watch your back.

Tomorrow night is Fighting ILLINI vs Chicago State. I say BRING IT! I look forward to seeing the ILLINI keep their winning streak going. They play at 7pm. Also tomorrow is the 1st day of Reier's bar becoming MOJO's. We all should start calling Reier, MOJO. Cause well, he asked for it by making the name of his bar Mojo's. Later on in the evening on Monday I plan on being down at Mojo's bar.

ILL INI

The Fighting Illini have done it again by beating Arkansas. A little shakey this time around though. I never felt like we had it in the bag until the last 30 seconds of the 2nd half. A whole lotta yelling things like "come on, just hold the lead" and "just keep getting 2's and making those free throws, that's all I ask". They did do it though, thank goodness and now their record is 6 wins and ZERO losses. An awesome season start and well on their way (if not already ) to being the top college basketball team in the country.

Sacrifice

So I'm allowing myself to not have too much of a life for the next 2 weekends. Now for some people, you might think that this is having a life and it is but the point is that it is limited. I worked the door at the bar last night and I'm doing it again tomorrow night. Then next weekend I am working it both nights again. I didn't have to do this but I need the money and I am a whore for money. Whore in the ligitimate way of working to earn the money. But if I win the lottery I will have no problem with that either. But yeah, since all my money in savings seems to be going to bills. Half of my check I just got thursday is already gone. I'm like GOOD GREAT GRAND! How am I supposed to buy people real gifts this year if bills keep taking my moo-lah away? I'm not even married homeowner with kids. I shouldn't have to be worrying about this yet. But yes, if you want to see me tonight or the weekend nights of next weekend then I will be carding hard down at the bar. Earning my dough so that I can buy people I care about Christmas gifts. I would spend everything I have but I can't do that to myself. I have to have a little left over for gas money and things like that.

Shoofly and Ed are both sick puppies. They unfortunately have gotten sick at the same time. I gave them my prescription of sleep in and take lots of vitamins. Because I think that they don't give themselves enough time for a good night's sleep. Jenny made it out last night and she got an ear full as to what she actually did last Saturday evening while out drinking. I wasn't there so I wasn't able to recap her evening but Ed and Shoo were able to fill her in. I was able to recap a girl's drunk night to her from the other night. She was all drunk and crazy and kept saying how hot she is and not in the temperature way but in the I'm conceited type of way. She kept slow dancing with Shoo and Philly and I even got a dance in and she doesn't remember that. She was pretty shocked as to what happened not that anything bad happened but for the fact that she drank so much that she didn't remember the latter half of the evening. Sometimes I just want to make stuff up so that previously drunk people think that they are even crazier because who would discredit what I say? Not many people.

So far so good

Today isn't too bad. I woke up fine this morning. Considering that I went to bed at about 9 and probably fell totally asleep by 10:30pm means that I wake up easier at 6am. The morning shift went by quickly. I had a ton of kids and coworkers at the school ask how I was today. My answer to them is still pretty sore. My back and abs and neck are slowly getting more sore. My bump is still on my head and only hurts to touch it but I know it is there.

Jenny called me up and we went to lunch today. That was an enjoyable time because we don't get to sit and talk too often besides at the bar really. It is fun swapping stories about our kids. We went to Suzie Q's because Jenny had never been there before and wanted to try it out. I got myself a bacon cheese burger with american fries. Good stuff. I saw Robbie right before we headed out to bring me back home. Just time for a quick hello, that was about it.

My computer sounds like what I think a dog whistle would sound like. I am sitting here and all I hear is this high pitched whistle or something. It is driving me insane so I can't sit here anylonger and type because this is too much. It doesn't do it all the time and sometimes stops. But this time it isn't stopping so I am getting up. BYEBYE!

Horrible Day

I don't have much to say except that today was a freakin horrible day. First I get woken up at 7:20am by my dad saying, "Kyle, Do you have work today?". My answer to that was AHHHH! So yeah, I overslept again. 2 times now. Very very very unusual for me but for people at the main office they might start to wonder. So I'm all freaking out about being late. I do my morning shift. Then I'm on my way out and in no rush at all. Let me preface that it rained all day yesterday then snowed and then everything froze again because it was very very cold this morning. I walk out onto the parking lot. I slipped and cracked the top back of my skull on the ice/pavement. Now I've got a huge ass knot on my head and I also must have pulled different muscles in my back because it slightly hurts to reach for things and bend over but it doesn't hurt when I'm not doing anything, not like my previous back pull. So I am decently alright now. The head pain isn't as much as it was at first now. But it still hurts to have my head touch anything on the spot of impact. Then this afternoon we have a kid acting up severely and we inform the mom that we're suspending him. She was pissed. We say deal with your child. Also today because of cracking my head I was not allowed to take my daily nap. For fear that anything had happened I didn't want to go to sleep because that is when crazy stuff like concussion or death happens after a blow to the head so I've just been up and at'em all day. THIS DAY SUCKED! I'm glad it is over. THe only cool thing to happen was that the ILLINI kicked WAKE FOREST's ass tonight in college basketball...