the pain

I feel the pain. I feel the loneliness. It is already so tough. I can only do this alone. I must prove that I am able. I know this will be my most difficult journey that I have ever taken as I have failed so many times before. I will not fail. I cannot fail. I must prevail. I cannot live in the shadows anylonger. I want to be free, free to live again for the first time.

Awesome

Okay, I just came across a movie that is coming out in a few months that just looks awesome. It is called Sin City and it is based upon Frank Miller's comic book series with the same name. It has an insanely awesome cast. Jessica Alba, Rosario Dawson, Elijah Wood, Bruce Willis, Benicio Del Toro, Michael Clarke Duncan, Josh Hartnett, Brittany Murphy, Clive Owen, Mickey Rourke, Nick Stahl, Alexis Bledel just to name a few. It is a live movie but in a black and white comic book fashion and it appears that it has some parts which are in color but not full color. It looks amazing. Here is a site where you can see a preview trailer of it. Sin City Trailer

I know many of you probably don't care about this at all but oh well. I think it will be an amazing movie and I can't wait for it to come out. And no I've never read the comic series but that doesn't matter it obviously looks well made and well acted. The movie will be in three intertwining but separate segments.

Beast of Burden

I'm moving on. I have to leave you behind. I cannot live life like this any longer. All you do is hold me back. You have never been kind to me when all I am is kind to you. Maybe I have not actually been kind and that is the problem. Indulging you whenever you want. Was that the answer? Obviously not because it has only made me miserable in return. I have to live for me. I have to live for my future. You are in the past and I won't have you back. Once you are gone life will be so much lighter and sweet. Life will be enjoyed again for the first time. When the day comes a celebration is in order. The biggest bestest ever because I will be free of you.

I wish this road was an easy road. It is not. I will be tempted by you over and over. My will may be wary but it is renewed and shall overcome. My answer to you will be NO!

Here it begins

I suspect that you will see over time. I'm not sharing with anyone. It's more fun when it is a surprise. It has begun and I plan on finishing it. I need to. I've got to. I'll be around but maybe not as much as I have been. I've got to exercise control. Even if it means lockdown. I hope you see as much as I want to see. Until then, adios.

THE TAPE

This is THE TAPE. Watch it if you dare. Muhwahahahaha

Behind Bush's Flubs

Last Laugh '04

Conan Sketch

1864 Baseball Sketch. It is very funny. Check it out.

Birthday Saturday

Tonight my family is celebrating 2 of my sister's birthdays. One was earlier this month and the other is in a week. We rarely see them so we are combining them. I think we are ordering take out from maybe the Pasta House Co. Sister had me print out the menu off of their website. Everything is sounding good. Going to hang out with Crowy, Monchichi, and Creamy tonight. Should be a good time. I'm thinking shooting pool but I'm not sure.

I haven't gotten anything for my sisters' birthdays yet. I'm such a horrible brother but money has been going fast lately. It's hard to plan ahead. It's snowing. Yay!

Sneezy

Well for all you who missed it or didn't ask me to, I stayed out til about 4am last night. It does depend on who is asking and where we are going. Don't think that if I am in the mood to stay out really late that you can ask me to go to the lace or pts. No way. But yes, I went and hung out with a buddy until about 2am and then we went out to perkins for some late night breakfast. It was mmm mmm good. I was home by about 4am. What really sucks for me is that I had been up since 6am. It has been a while since I have gone 22 hours. I did get a 20 minute nap in but I am not really counting that because it actually only made me more tired. I attribute it to the people I was hanging with. Sometimes they are positive motivators. Crow woke me up at about noon today. I was dead asleep and probably would have slept another few hours if he hadn't called. I was unable to get back to sleep after he woke me up. I'm not fond of wake up calls. I almost always let the person know that they woke me up. Not in a mean way but more of a grunt, yeah you woke me up.

Things are going well for me. More like things are not going poorly so that must mean that they are well right? I have this stupid little head cold thingy where I feel fine but I am sniffing a lot and every so often I get that tickle to sneeze which does NOT always follow through which is complete agony. The lingering sneeze that never comes through is torture. I think everyone would agree. It is like just sneeze already. But you don't have control over it and it is so much better when it goes on its own.

Shoo is designing/creating the website for Mojo's. He is attempting to create a website name for it that is not already taken out there on the world wide web. I'm not really a huge fan of any of them. A web address can be a key component of a web site. Something catchy and something that everyone can remember easily without having to write it down. But I do like my idea of www.mojos225.com It is the name and the address # not a whole lot of wording but enough.

busy busy

Today was a very busy day for me. I only got a 20 minute nap in because of the busyness. Sorry for no blogging so far Jessie. I don't have a whole lot to say right now though. I work the door tonight. Crow is supposed to be in town. Come down and see me if you dare.

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sigh of relief

Oh man, I feel so much better knowing that my paycheck is in the bank. I've been scrimping which means I haven't been spending much money at all and making what I have last. I thought I might have to dish out money I don't have towards new tires. But I don't. See in addition to the now fixed problems with my door (key hole, window, dent). I have tire problems. The other day my front right tire was flat. Well my dad aired it up and then it slowly went flat again. This started Sunday morning. So I go get my tire patched because obviously there is a leak and it isn't stopping on its own. Well I go and apparently my rim is rusted and bent and is causing me to lose air. The auto place patched it as well as it could but it was only temporary and I would need an entirely new tire. SO I'm like, crap. But then after I get that patched and aired up instead of my car veering toward the damaged tire it veers insanely to the left. SO I'm thinking that my other tire is messed up too. I chat with my dad about what to do because just 1 tire brand new would be about 113 dollars. At that moment I didn't have enough for that. I barely had enough to pay for the patch. We decide that both tires must be messed up and it would be better to replace both of them at the same time anyway. So my dad was going to refer me to the place where I bought the car but then I chimed in saying what about my uncle's Auto Salvage yard? Great idea! I gave him a call and after a few calls back and forth he found that he has the exact tires that I need at his yard. So he is bringing them to me today because he comes into town on Thursdays anyway so that worked out. Also he is not charging me. I'm like, Awesome! He did mention that maybe I can make some of my famous chocolate chip cookies for him as payment. I haven't had time to do that since he only mentioned this yesterday but I will make them for him soon. He is the biggest fan of my chocolate chip cookies. I hate to see the look of disappointment in his eyes when I come to family functions not bearing cookies. But when I do he usually swipes a whole bunch to keep off to the side so he can enjoy them for days after. So yeah, today I'm getting tires for my car. I'm glad.

Drink Deprivation

So I haven't been to the bar since Saturday. Either I haven't been in the mood or I don't want to spend the precious little money that I have left. Sure I have a tab but I don't want to add to it until I pay it off which will be very soon since I get paid tomorrow.

I've been trying to read my reading assignment for my class tomorrow night. My ability to sit for long periods of time and read something that isn't actually a story is almost non existant. How did I do this when I was a kid? I used to be able to sit and read text books and such and not fall asleep and be able to finish them. In one ear and out the other. I'll get it done. Oh yes, I will get it done.

what - huh - noo -- whoo?

Anti-Valentine anyone?

Who here is Anti-Valentine's Day? I know I am. It ranks up there higher than New Years on "Holidays" that I really can do without. Sure sure, I would be okay with it if I had someone to share it with. Alas I don't. I'm not going out of my way to try and find someone either. All I would do is spend money on activities and gifts associated with the holiday to prove materially that I care. What is the purpose of Valentine's Day anyway? Is it to tell your significant other that you love them? Shouldn't you be doing that every other day of the year anyway? If you don't, then what kind of relationship do you two have?

Here are some quotes I found on "The Purpose of Valentine's Day"...

"is to make lonely people feel lonelier"

"is to brighten the cold, long days of February!"

"is to remind us all to let everyone know how we feel about him/her."

"is to celebrate the love that has flourished."

"is to celebrate each other's company."

"is to make MEN suffer."

"is to make someone special to you feel appreciated."

"is to show love and eat chocolates."

"is to spread love between all people, believers and disbelievers alike"

"is one of those made up holidays that the card and candy companies encourage to make more money off of the vulnerable people of this world"

"is that all of us need the buzz of romance, no matter how cynical, hardened or seasoned we happen to be. "

"If the purpose of Valentine's Day is to show people that you love them, it should be confined to that. There should be no pressure to buy a dozen roses, a superhero teddy bear, or any other material object to display that "love". All that's needed on Valentine's Day are three words."

So there you go folks. Those were quotes I found around the internet on the purpose of Saint Valentine's Day. I like the last one the best. Saying the words "I love You." and meaning it should be the whole point to the holiday and every other day of the year as a matter of fact. You don't need the commercialism of it just as much as you don't need the commercialism of Christmas. At least, this holiday holds water better than the "Sweetest Day" which is always the 3rd Saturday in October. Now that one is a total Hallmark day. It should be renamed that because that is what it is. Valentine's Day is Hallmark Day and Sweetest Day is Hallmark Day 2.

There I go

There it goes, another trend according to Shoo. I've done it a few times and now Ed is quoting rap songs. Shoo feels the need to fit in so he thus will start quoting song lyrics. I can't wait for Mels, Becky, Betsy, Phil, and Jessie to do it too, jk. You do what you want. Don't feel the pressure to quote songs because really there is no pressure. If you feel pressure then the only person putting pressure on you is you.

I leave you with a little Otis

"I left my home in Georgia
Headed for the 'Frisco bay
'Cause I had nothin to live for
And look like nothing's gonna come my way

So I'm just...
Sitting on the dock of the bay
Watching the tide roll away
I'm just sitting on the dock of the bay
Wasting time "

Is that a W?

YES IT IS! OH BABY! The Fighting Illini have beat Wisconsin ending their 38 home game winning streak! Amazing. The game was simply amazing. The kind of game that gives you heart attacks many times throughout it. The Illini (1) are now 20-0 for the season. It was so awesome. If you missed it then you missed a hell of a game. GO ILLINI! Bring on Minnesota!

I guess

So I'm guessing that Ed made it to Florida alright. The most he has chatted with me is when he was looking for airfares online while he was in Atlanta. That conversation lasted about 2 minutes. I know he has had car problems and has written briefly about them on his blog. If you want more infomation on Ed's drive to Florida then check out his blog and Jessie's and Shoo's and maybe Mels' too.

I think a lot of people are going down to Mardi Gras in New Orleans this year to hang with Ed who is also going. It seems like a lot of people at least. I've done that before and it is an awesome time. Remember guys, have your cameras ready. You might get an eye full from people you're with in addition to the millions of other tourists already there. Wear old comfortable tennis shoes too. Your feet will hurt and get very very dirty. Take care of your feet! I myself won't be able to make it down there even though no one has asked me. I'm assuming that it is one of those "I know he can't go so I won't bother asking" types of deals. I've got to keep working. I haven't been able to save a penny for my "visit" to Los Angeles, whenever that will be I don't know. I was hoping to go in the Springtime sometime. Yes, I know that it is still Wintertime but I keep having expenses pop up and I can never seem to save.

I went and saw Ocean's 12 last night with Philly G at the Nice Theater. It was spur of the moment for those of you who will gripe and moan about not getting invited. At 9:30pm we were on the phone and the idea popped into my head for a 10pm movie. Philly G agreed and we went. It was a good movie. I do recommend it. It follows the first one nicely. It is predictably interesting and fun. If that makes sense then good. If not then keep thinking about it.

Tonight is the BIG TEN Illinois (1) vs. Wisconsin (18) basketball game. It starts in just about an hour. I'm so stoked. This could be the best matched game we will have played yet. A ton of people are worried that the Illini may lose this game. I have faith in our abilities to pull out a W on this one. I hope everyone watches and roots them on towards a victory. GO ILLINI!

Other than that I have no more to say. Goodbye.

Gonna take that big white bird

"There's so much I wanna do
I've got love enough for two
But I'll never use it girl if I don't have you

Don't pull your love out on me baby
If you do then I think that maybe
I'll just lay me down and cry for a hundred years
Don't pull your love out on me honey
Take my heart, my soul, my money
But don't leave me drownin' in my tears"

Flubber

In one of the most hapless marketing tie-in attempts in movie history, Hasbro Toys, in cooperation with Disney, issued a toy version of Flubber, marketed just before Christmas time in 1962. Similar to Silly Putty, in that it could bounce like a ball and make comic imprints, the mixture was a combination of rubber, mineral oil, and green food coloring that had been lab-tested with no ill effects and was marketed as being made of "a new parent-approved material that is non-toxic and will not stain." Within weeks, claims came pouring in to both Hasbro and Disney that the toy Flubber was causing full-body rashes and sore throats in many of the children who used it, resulting in several lawsuits by angry parents. Eventually, after much experimentation, and an intensive investigation by the FDA, it was determined that there was a property in the mixture, of unknown origin, that caused an infection of the hair follicles in certain individuals. The product was recalled, but disposing of it turned out to be an even dicier proposition. Trying to incinerate the mixture only produced a heavy, dense black cloud around the Providence, Rhode Island, garbage dump where the attempt was made. Working with the U.S. Coast Guard to sink the substance at sea turned out to be a fiasco, as well, as the next day almost all of the dumped Flubber came floating back into Narragansett Bay. Finally, it was decided to use the mixture as landfill, buried deep under the parking lot at Hasbro's new warehouse, just outside of Providence. Even then, the incredible but true story doesn't end there. A popular "urban legend" among Hasbro employees is that every year, during the hottest days of summer, you can still spot some of the mixture oozing through the cracks in the parking lot.

Surprise!

Yesterday was awesome. A buddy of mine fixed my car. I had a few minor problems with it. Not the engine part of it but rather my driver's side door. My window wouldn't stay up because I broke the rotary thingy that guides the window when I tried to put the window down while it was frozen. My car got side swiped a few weeks ago by a drunkard down by the bar so only my drivers door had a dent in it. Then also my key hole on my door had messed up a few months ago and I could no longer lock or unlock my door from the outside of the vehicle. Well, my buddy is amazing and fixed all of these things for me at his house. He rocks. I couldn't thank him enough times but I tried. He and I spent the early afternoon together while waiting to get the stuff going to fix the car. Had Wendy's together which was mmm mmm good. I love those Jr. Bacon Cheeseburgers but I am a little upset that the Wendy's on Wabash still has them at 1.29 instead of .99 which they should be like everything else on the supervalue menu.

It was also that buddy's surprise birthday party last night at the bar. He certainly was surprised too. He was like, I fix your car today and you can't give me one hint that this is happening tonight. It was great. There was a keg of bud light and a decent amount of food. Most of the people I didn't know except for about 5. I make due though. I know enough people to still have a good time. I just wander around and not stay in one place. That is until my other friends finally start showing up. Then I can sit and relax. That is exactly what I did. I might be calming down in my old age. I'm not sure though. Or else I don't have the right catalyst anylonger. I think I'm getting boring. I have social expectations of myself and I'm not meeting them. I just don't have the energy much anymore. I have no motivation and I'm tired alot. Work, hang out, sleep. That is all that I seem to do anymore. I try to do other things but while I'm doing them I always seem to think about how I would rather be home by myself and then people ask me what is wrong and all that I can reply with is that I am tired. I can't go around saying I don't want to be here... Can I?

My dad woke me up saying that I had a flat tire. That was wonderful. So I was about to get ready to go take care of that and then he comes back in saying he aired it up for me with this little automatic pump he has. So I then decide now I don't have to get ready. I hope that it doesn't leak more and that it is just the cold weather.

If I were a carpenter

"If I Were A Carpenter"

If I were a carpenter
and you were a lady,
Would you marry me anyway?
Would you have my baby?

If a tinker were my trade
would you still find me,
carrin' the pots I made,
followin' behind me.

Save my love through loneliness,
Save my love for sorrow,
I'm given you my onliness,
Come give your tomorrow.

If I worked my hands in wood,
Would you still love me?
Answer me babe, "Yes I would,
I'll put you above me."

If I were a miller
at a mill wheel grinding,
would you miss your color box,
and your soft shoe shining?

If I were a carpenter
and you were a lady,
Would you marry me anyway?
Would you have my baby?
Would you marry anyway?
Would you have my baby?

Born to walk alone

I don’t know where I’m going
But, I sure know where I’ve been
Hanging on the promises
In songs of yesterday
An’ I’ve made up my mind,
I ain’t wasting no more time
But, here I go again
Here I go again

Tho’ I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what I’m looking for
Oh lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
’cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An’ I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time

I’m just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on love’s sweet charity
An’ I’m gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
’cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An’ I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go...

An’ I’ve made up my mind,
I ain’t wasting no more time

An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
’cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An’ here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An’ I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time...

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go,
Here I go again...

Friday

Yeah, today was a full day for me. Worked 10 - 6pm with the little rascals. I had to lay down the rules times. Some were a little upset but they have to realize that rules are rules.

I'm working the door at the bar this evening. Then probably coming home and sleeping my life away. That's all. Have a good night. Byebye

Things to do in Springfield

I've been thinking of non-bar things to do in Springfield. You ask why? Well because I have always felt that life should not revolve around only one activity. You should delve into many activities which in theory should make a person well rounded and content even.

Of course for me, my biggest non-bar activity is to watch movies. Now you think, well, yeah duh. Well this can be broken down though so it is more than 1 thing but still movies. There are movies at the regular movie theater. Showplace East, Showplace West, Parkway Point 8. Then there are movies at the cheap $1.50/$2.50 theater White Oaks Cinema which I consider a seperate experience because it doesn't bust your budget. Following that there is the Route 66 Drive-In during the warmer months of the year. At the drive-in you get a double feature for 5 bucks and the comfort of your own car or if it is really nice then you can bring a lawn chair or if you own a truck you can sit in the back. Just don't leave your air fan running while the engine is off. So that concludes the going out part of the movies. There are also renting movies and buying movies to watch. A night at home is not as terminal as some people might make it out to be. You don't have to be alone but you can be if you want. You can invite a sweetie over to watch with you or even a huge group of friends. The more the merrier. But after the movie don't just disband and leave each other. Take time to talk about the movie and likes or dislikes. Make it worthwhile and get the full experience.

I have other ideas about non-bar things to do in Springfield. I ask you the reader of my blog to add your thoughts and ideas to this. Things that can cost money or even things that are free. Simple things that last only a brief time or things that can start early and last all night. It also can be solo activities or partner or group activities. Please, don't be shy. I would enjoy any and all input. Just click on the word "comments" and type away! I'm interested in what you have to say.

I noticed

Shooey, don't think that I didn't notice that you de-linked me on your website. Shooey has issues with not being the king. Jealous much?

My Pic

Do you like my picture? I hope you do because that is the only one on the web that I can find that is a short enough web link and also is under 50kb in size. I was going to link one from Shooey's photo nailer thing that he has on his website but if you link to a specific photo it is an insanely long address. So I found one of the right size on my old website which can be accessed by the link to the right. I don't know why it is so small, it isn't normally that small of a picture.

So tonight I watched the second night of American Idol 4. Yeah, most of those people suck ASS! Geez whiz. I thought the same thing last year when it started up but it worked itself out although I still don't think that they picked the best one. I think the America Vote screwed that one up and the judges have no say over who America votes off. Neat concept but I don't think that should override the judges no matter how obnoxious the judges are. After that I got called randomly by Crow. We chatted for about 40 minutes. Then I hung out on the computer for a while. I then got ready to go to the bar. Getting ready consists of me putting on my shoes and jacket. Just so that you know. I went in to say by to my parents. My mom was on the phone and my dad was watching a news report and I made a comment question about what the news report was about and my dad turned up the volume and didn't respond. So that means, in my world, bug off Kyle. So I turned around and just left without telling dear old dad where I was going. He doesn't deserve to know where I am going when he does crap like that.

I headed down to Browns. Natalie, Kristen, Laura and others were out celebrating Sarah's birthday. Jeff and his girl were there having a few drinks and Matt and Lori were there. Matt and Lori are the reason I came out because Matt invited me out because they were going to be out but they invited me out at 6ish and I didn't get out until 10ish. So they were ready to leave shortly after I got there. But anytime spent hanging with them is time well spent. Always a good time. So then I chatted with Jeff for a while, then he and his girl and I went to Mojo's for a drink. Admired the scenery for a while then I headed back to Browns. Had 1 more and signed Sarah's poster before I headed home. I wasn't planning on staying out late to begin with but I just needed to get out of the house. So home before 1am is early for me. I need it though. I have some studying to do but I think I may do it after my morning shift before my nap tomorrow. Yay for naps! I won't be able to do this forever so I take advantage of it while I can.

Good news

I should have my car window fixed by this weekend. Bad news, I am a lazy behind and I still have yet to tape it up or anything. Actually now it won't go all the way up because it fell all the way down and now it only goes half way up. Yay! I wish I was in Hawaii! But alas I am not. Brilliant!

So what to talk about. Hummmm. I don't know. OH! Some of my best friends practically refuse to read my blog. They claim that I should verbally tell them everything that is going on instead of them reading about it. I disagree with this idea. My reasoning is that not everything that I have to say is Phone Call Worthy. Or somethings I say if spoken would not have the same impact. Or somethings I say would take all of 30 seconds to say and then what? Hang up? So my friends that are anti-blog are missing out cummulatively on my life. When you add up everything that I write here and there, and then that ends up being quite a bit. But do I remember all of this every time that I have a phone call? NO! By sitting down at certain points in my day I write things down. I write because if I didn't then I would forget most likely. I don't remember everything. I remember big things. I forget people. So I feel that these friends that are anti-blog should read more often. I know that they are online at least 1 time a day if not constantly. So then just reading what I have written can help you to see what's going on and it helps me because I don't have to wrack my brain about what it was that happened the other day that might be funny. Because you have read it. We can still talk about other things. I do not write everything down on here. Some people like to think that I do but no no no. I keep somethings that are up private. Now I even go as far as to try to get more friends to start blogs too for the same reasons that I have just spoken. It's fun. The blogs banter back and forth and it is a record of our lives. Can our parents recall a "conversation" about day to day stuff that they had 30 years ago? No, probably not. So this is something that we can do to make ourselves timeless too. Look back later in life. Providing that blogspot or other websites will be around always. I someday plan on printing out all of my blogging and saving it like the journal it is. That will be a hell of a lot of paper.

I have you all beat

I had Philly G as a roommate. HOW 'BOUT 'DEM APPLES!

Ed is gone

Well not totally but as for me he as left. He will hit the road tomorrow night (Wednesday night) and head for a few destinations before finally arriving in sunny and warm Sarasota, Florida. Highs in the mid 60's lows in the mid 40's. I doubt there will be any snow or ice there. Exactly what Ed had in mind. It's been a good good good last 5 years. So many experiences and occasions that I cannot possibly attempt to count ALL of them. The good times and the bad times. Someone that I can confide in and know that I can return the favor. So much shit that I know. So much shit that he knows. If I ever needed anything Ed was there. I could only attempt to do the same for him. He is "moving on" now. He doesn't know how much moving on he will do but I think it will be more than he thinks. Time will tell on that one. Hell, maybe he will come back sooner than expected? You never know. No one does. Life throws many daggers at us all. The best we can do it attempt to avoid them. If I was in a position to join Ed down in sunny sunny Florida I might consider it but I can't go anywhere until I get a degree that can guarantee a job for me. My pursuit of a teaching degree will help with that. Every town has a school of some sort. It is just as easy of a skill to take around the world as bartending. Ed and I always talked about how you can go anywhere and bartend. Teaching is the same way. Our youth need education. So I wish Ed the best of luck. I'm not good with goodbyes but mainly because I know it isn't the end. It is never the end unless you make it the end. We'll hang again soon enough. When that happens it might just have to be an all nighter with sweet sweet chocolate long john donuts in the morning.

LONG LIVE donuts, zombies, dinosaurs, Jack, double Captains, Photohunt, music festivals, getting lost, rubber chickens, baseball games, new bars in new cities, Superman, Batman, Cream Cheese!, T-Bone, random drives, Cowboy mouth, Running out of gas, Coors Light, following the light, free movies, Natty Ice, forgetting movies, Driving Josh, crazy women, My wedding date, My bachelor party, mistakes, Midnight showings, whipped cream, St. Pat's official and observed, July, Mr. Kirk, never seeing the band, Hard Core, Pot 'O Gore, bacon, The Boot!, surpassing the drunkest we've ever been each time, nerd fest, Ruth's Chris, White Castle, Wendy's, Bellacino's, Tabasco, The Curve, The President, following Jenny home, Tupac and oldies, Top down Cruise control, Swimming with drunk girls, homemade breakfast, the search of the best bacon cheese burger, free comics, successful trips, failed trips, foil bowl, the game of life, sleeping in the car, 5 for 5, GREEN!, mach 3, crushes, regrets, Hug, Early birds and All nighters, insomniacs forever!

Chik chickachicka

Bueller, Bueller,..... Bueller

So today has been a run of the mill day. Worked. Came home. But I didn't get sleepy right away which I always kick myself for later. I got to my nap by about 11:30 - Noon. Instead of the usual 10am so that is some wasted sleeping time right now. Kick kick. But I got up and showered and went off to work yet again for the day very groggily. Work went well. It was big brother big sister day so a few of our kids leave us for an hour to hang out with high schoolers. Something we arrange for them. Then after work I decide that I need to go get my books for my 1 class that I am taking this semester. 3 books totally about 118 bucks. Yeah, I needed that hit in my checking account. Not really though. Then while I was there I decided to go get a new LLCC ID. Awwww yeah, the LLCC ID is BACK! I didn't make a funny face this time though. I just wanted to get it and get home. The girl although she seemed nice and was cute I didn't feel the need to do it this time so I didn't ask. Maybe I am growing up a little bit. HA! I'm always growing up, whatchootalkinboutwillis? So yeah, now I am getting ready to head down to MOJO's for the night. It is the Holiday Party that I was talking about in an earlier post. I hope you are all there. Be there or be SQUARE! HA! You're a square.

I see some people are not updating their blogs. Tisk Tisk. Look around, yeah I see, you. You're saying, who me? Well if you look at everyone's blogs it will be obvious who it is. If you still feel that it is you then CHOP CHOP! Don' bea slacka...

Zombified Dinosaur

Do you realize that if you have a Zombified Dinosaur that you would have to kill it by shooting it somehow in the head. Wow. Think about the difficulty level of that? I bet that would REALLY scare the crap out of Jessie! YES! Muhwahhahahaha. AHHHHHHHHH!

Dinosaurs

BSW: Speaking of Spielberg, is it true you're writing Jurassic Park IV for him?

John Sayles: I'm working on it right now. I've been doing some drafts on it; I wasn't the original writer. And it's fun. I've worked for both producer Kathy Kennedy and Steven years ago, and I've done alligators and werewolves and giant cockroaches--if it eats people, I've done it. So dinosaurs are a nice addition. I'm a screenwriter for hire, and there's only a few genres I don't like; I'm not a big fan of slasher movies or vampire movies or hitmen movies, so I haven't done one of those. But pretty much every genre, there's movies I like within them. So my criteria for taking a job is: Is there a cool movie that could be made of this that I would like to see, and who are the people I'm dealing with? And I've gotten to work with really, really cool people. That's part of the fun of the job. And very few directors get this. Directors meet one another on panels and at festivals and stuff like that, but they rarely get to work together. And whether the movies have gotten made or not, I've gotten to work with some really, really interesting directors and gotten that little window into how they think about story and prepare a movie. It's always kind of a nice fly-on-the-wall thing.

September 8, 2004
Winston: JP4 Script Almost CompleteA report from ol' DJP3P friend Nate this morning, who attended a recent Q&A session with JP series special effects guru Stan Winston. "We made it through the entire night without any mention of JP4 until they very end," Nate says. "A guy in the back row yelled out, 'Hey Stan, whats the deal with JP4?'", to which Winston replied "The script is a few weeks out".

This is a good Jurassic Park page with good info... Dan's JP3 Page

This page has some decent links to news articles Counting Down

Attention

Tonight is Reier's Mojo's HOLIDAY PARTY! Come one, Come ALL. I think it starts at like 8 or 9pm. Tonight, Tuesday, January 18th 2005. Reier is the shizznit if you didn't realize. A much better man than myself. Please come by and hang out. I hear he has 2 kegs lined up.

Not much to speak of

Well like the title says, I don't have much to say. Yesterday evening I had a nice quiet evening. Yes, I did go out. It was the first time I left the house all day Monday when I just hopped in my car and started driving. I didn't know where I was going to go but I started driving. Well, when I just start randomly driving anymore that means that I head downtown. So I decide, it is Monday, Reier should be at his place I will go to Mojo's. Well, it is probably about 6:30ish by this time. I go in and Mary is bartending and she is the only one there. She and I chatted for about 45 minutes probably before anyone else came in. Then Andy showed up and joined in the chat. Slowly people started coming in. Reier showed up after a while. We hung out. Then Reier, Andy, and I went down to Two Brothers for a drink. Then headed back to Mojo's. Browns was closed for the holiday. So I hung out, drank a few beers. Probably had about 6 or so. Shoo was there, then he went out to check out the Posabus, then disappeared. I assumed he went to Two Brothers where Jessie and Ed, Bailey and Farah were for Bailey's birthday. Well, the place started getting busier and I didn't feel like being there anylonger so I cut out. Said my goodbye to Reier and headed home. I started to feel sick to my stomach too before I left. Queasy again. This has been happening quite a bit lately. I didn't have too much to drink and I know I was not going to get sick but this uneasy queasy feeling in my stomach started so I knew I needed to get home. I'm not the most social person when I'm not feeling well. I figure you can understand that.

Apparently I am Mr. Poopy Head because I like to list my site when I post. It sounds like the Poopy Head would be the person who blocks me from posting anything. Yeah, I tried to just do a regular comment about the goth photo but it wouldn't go through. Are you sore just because I list a website that happens to be mine? It isn't like I am listing porn site or screaming profanities. If it is going to be like that then I say "I'm rubber, You're glue, Whatever you say bounces off of me and sticks to you." So that means for those who cannot figure it out that Shoo is the Poopy Head. Get it, Got it? GOOD.

You say you unblocked me. That's great. I'm glad. A true gentleman you are!!! So kind and generous. A really upstanding citizen. God bless you Shoo.

Interesting.

If my ASSumptions are correct, I think Shoo blocked me from posting any more comments on his site. Byebye Shoo

Land of the Dead

Oh boy oh boy oh boy. I can't wait! George A. Romero is making a 4th installment of his Living Dead series which includes the films Night of the Living Dead (1968), Dawn of the Dead (1978), Day of the Dead (1985), and now coming out later this year is LAND OF THE DEAD! The expected release date is October 21, 2005 within the USA. The bigger names that I see that will be in it at Dennis Hopper and John Leguizamo. I say we don't need big names in it for it to be good. The man who started it all George A Romero is writing and directing this one. Hopefully he speeds up the zombies because I feel that the remake of Dawn of the Dead that came out this year raised the bar for future zombie movies. The gore and the excitement were intense.

Here is some trivia on Land of the Dead... "George A. Romero was so impressed with Simon Pegg and Edgar Wright's Shaun of the Dead (2004) that he asked them to appear in this, the fourth part of his "Dead" series, possibly in cameos as zombies." That could have been us Ed!

To check out the movie info for youself, check out IMDB.com

There is no "I" in "team", but there is an "I" in "pie".

Other Blogs?

Are there any other friends who have blogs out there in cyber space? I know people read my site and my friends' sites. Drop me a line if you have a blog or journal that I haven't listed. We've got a nice little Springfield Blog Webring going on. Or if you don't have a blog go ahead and start one up. Blog Spot is an easy site to start it up on and it is free. Not all of us can be as fancy and spend money on a domain name like Mr. Shoofly. He is SO high class.

Starting from my toe

My shoes are falling apart so incredibly bad. I bought these shoes back in March of 2003 and March of 2005 is rapidly approaching so I will just go ahead and say it was 2 years ago. The thing is when I get a pair of tennis shoes I don't throw them in to a rotation or anything. I'm not a girl. I don't have a million pairs of shoes. I do have just enough. Flip Flops, foam sandals, leather sandals, brown dress shoes, and tennis shoes, that is all. Enough for a few different occassions. My thing is that I don't have many occassions to switch. It is usually Flip Flops or tennis shoes for me. So I wear my tennis shoes almost all the time. I am a big guy so they take more abuse than if they were on the feet of some punk skinny kid. My shoes don't last as long as some people would expect shoes to last. So I have to go buy shoes. I hate shopping. Especially shoe shopping. I don't want to make a wrong decision and end up wearing a pair of ugly shoes or have a pair that end up being very uncomfortable even though when you do the gimp walk through the store while trying them on they seem to feel alright. Last time I went with Jenny to help me buy some shoes. I don't think that I will put her through that again. I'll probably just get a similar style because I really did like the ones that I have now. It is just that now my shoes are like slippers. The soles have worn down so much that they are barely there and the sole that is there is half way off starting from the toe back to the middle. Let's see if I get the motivation to leave the house and go buy some shoes today.

The Final Day - Fin

Last night was the 3rd day of Ed Fest 2005.

I thought it was continuing longer than that like through at least Tuesday night at Mojos but I guess that isn't considered part of Ed Fest 2005 at all. Last night we which includes Jessie and Ed, Kirsten and me, Shoofly, Jenny, and Philly G all were at Jessie's place to watch some good Zombie flicks. First was the remake of Dawn of the Dead. Still awesome and still gorey. Although I still think that it could have been turned up louder. Jessie didn't seem as scared as she could have been but oh she was scared. You don't think that someone would cover their eyes so much watching it for the second time. But she did. I think that I am desensitized now because I knew what to expect and I was looking for the little things this time around. Things that I didn't pick up on the first time and stuff like that.

After Dawn we then proceeded to watch Shaun of the Dead. I just have to say that I LOVED IT! The main characters are Ed and I practically or at least what we once were. See, we are moving on in our lives. No more partying. Well, ok, there will still be partying. They are in love with a bar. Their lives don't seem to go anywhere. It is a great Brittish movie. I recommend it to anyone who wants to watch a romantic zombie comedy movie. Well all the while for watching these movies Ed and I are downing the Beast Ice and Jessie is downing some kind of wine. We all claimed not to be feeling it but oh, I think we were. Not in the WOOHA! type of way but in the we're getting mellowed out kind of way. I know for sure that is what happened to me.

I also had not eaten much yesterday considering that I slept so late and had a late start getting going. After the movie the plan was for more drinking. I couldn't drink much more with no food so I stopped and got myself some double cheese burgers and mc chickens at McDonalds.

We all headed down to Mojo's where Reier was open but not for much longer. I was surprised no one told me, he started turning all the lights off at midnight and we were all leaving and going to the Alamo. I had 1 beer at Reier's and then I was getting tired. I also felt a little queasy because I don't think the burgers were setting very well with me. Well, at least I think it was the burgers.

So I just sat at the alamo while everyone just chit chatted around me. I got at least 1 question as to if I was okay. Which I was. I'm not a wuss. No burger is going to beat me. Well, I was tempted many times to leave early but I didn't get the energy for that so I just sat around until everyone else was leaving and then I bolted for my car. Sometimes when it is just me in my car alone listening to the radio is when I'm happiest.

That goes back to the time when I wanted to be a truck driver. I sometimes still ponder that. Getting away from all the crap that I have put into my life and all the crap other people dump into my life too. It isn't all me. But then, that is life isn't it? You deal with the punches. Put ice on it to numb it and then you move on.

I just can't wait to get this Spring class over with and then start classes at UIS and become a el ed teacher. With that degree I could go anywhere I wanted. A male teacher in Elementary Education. It is the gold job, they don't have enough men because men teachers mainly go for teaching high school and college level. It is a good thing that I love kids. Maybe then I can move away. Start my own life. Live for myself.

I've got a good base here too but a lot of the time I feel as though there is nothing here for me. I just have too much time until I'm able to leave all of this. For now I'm just stuck. I brought it upon myself. 5 years of school I should have been done by now.

This is Limbo, the scenery is nice but is it real?

This is a funny movie clip with Chris Parnell from SNL. I don't think that it is a skit from SNL though. Farm Sluts

Happy 21st

Today is an old buddy's 21st birthday. He is more like the little brother that I used to beat up on when I was younger. Nick W. He grew up 2 doors down from me and we used hang out quite a bit. I even baby sat him a little even though he is only 2.5 years younger than me. His mom didn't want him to burn the house down and I was a very responsible kid so if we just hung out and played video games all day that kept him out of trouble. I got paid for it too. I always felt a little bad about that but I do like money. I did a job though and jobs are to be paid for. I suppose. But yes, Nick is 21 today. He apparently got pretty drunk last night around midnight and is feeling it today. But hopefully he will be able to meet up with me later on so that I can give him what he deserves. So if anyone sees or talks to Nick W today wish him a very happy 21st birthday!

Ed Fest Day 2 recap

Well well well, I think that the Ed Fest Part 2: The Bar Hop went rather well. I thought we might have a larger crowd but then again I think that the crowd might have been just large enough.

Meeting at the first bar Spammy's on Stanford, I was the first one there. Which is fine by me because I go in there every so often and I knew quite a few people there already so I rubbed a few elbows and chatted for a while. Then the people started arriving. Ed, Reier, Shoofly, Laura and myself. We hung there for a while then we all headed to Harry's on Highland. Here more people met up with us Jessie, Melissa, and Philly G. We hung out, played some megatouch, sat around chatting and toasting and having a good time.

Then the news came, we are all going to The Still which is a bar in New Berlin. It was probably about a 20 - 25 minute drive away. I followed Philly G out there while the rest went downtown to consolidate their cars. Phil and I took our time though. Sat around Harry's and finished our drinks and chatted a little bit more. Emphasized how glad I was that he came out because he was doing the wishywashy thing and saying "maybe" to us earlier when talking on the phone.

So we all went out to The Still which is a tribute to me, the name looks kinda close to something doesn't it? Well, I liked that bar alot. They did the beer in cans and the cooler is one of those old time coolers that is built into the wall. It may even be rear feed. But it was all wood from the looks of it and it was like a dispenser too. They would pull one and anther would be right behind it on a shelf. I hope I gave a good enough of a description of that because it was pretty cool.

Well, the main reason that we went to the Still was because Posamist was playing there and we had to go and show our support to them. Not that we don't see them often enough with them always playing at Mojo's but it is good to show support when they play other places it means that they can get gigs and draw crowds which is good for a band. So every one but Reier and I left at about 12:30am or before so that they could make last call at DH Browns. Reier and I stayed until about 12:45 and hit the last call at the Still so we were out of there and headed downtown Springfield.

We made it to Browns by about 1:05am and there was still a crowd in there. Ed, Jessie, and Shoofly were the only ones left. Reier decided to call it a night and was pretty tired so he went into his bar to go to sleep on his wonderful couches. So we chatted with people at Browns for a few minutes and then the 4 of us went to Norb Andy's for a few drinks.

Well for me by that time I felt I had my limit. I just had 1 beer there and I was done. I could feel the alcohol coursing through my veins. I was feeling fine but my body said, that's enough Kyle old boy, anymore and you will push yourself too far. So I try to listen to my body anymore. If I say stop then I stop. Shoo left the bar to head home. He was pretty tired. Then it was down to Jessie and Ed, and myself.

Ed and I discussed more of the old times and then how it would be if zombies could drink alcohol. I made the point that the zombies congregate around the shopping center because "it is what they remember" like it is a reflex or something. Well if Ed and I were zombies we would be down sitting at the bar drinking our zombie woe's away. I would be a nice zombie and after I turn a normal person into a zombie I would offer to buy them a drink. Misery loves company.

I can't wait for Ed Fest Part 3: Bring on the Zombies!!!

My night continues on for a little bit nothing much though. I get a hankering for some good food that I don't have to prepare myself. Oh man, going into the premade food section at Schnucks at 2:45am while being pretty darned toasty is just the best ever. I steered clear of the donuts this time because I was craving salty and meaty. I got myself a poorboy sub which is a lot of meats and cheeses and maybe some veggie toppings. I can't remember. But that wasn't enough. I think, hmm, what else would I like to eat. They have all sorts of things premade and I decided to get these oh-so-awesome Corn dog pack, not the cheap kind either these are quality meat and batter I can tell and tasted so so good. So I got that and went home and chowed down while sitting at the computer for a while.

Then I went to bed at about 4am and the world was spinning, oh boy. I made it though, no getting sick and I slept great, well that is until 7:15am when my Uncle is beating on our front door and wakes the entire family up....

Maybe

Maybe I can go back to the old days. The days when things seemed so tough but in reality things were so incredibly simple. Maybe there was something I could have done differently that would have changed the way things turned out. Every decision I make influences so much in life. As the same goes for everyone else. Every single action, decision, and word that is said factors into the continuity known as life. By not saying something or planning on saying something can alter the path for the future tremendously. That is something similar to the Butterfly Effect in which there is a thoery that if a butterfly flaps its wings on one side of the world then the wind from the flap can create a whirlwind or monsoon on the other side of the world. If something never happens can you still say that it was meant to be?

LEX LUTHOR!!!

IESB caught up with Kevin Spacey at a recent premiere who gave us a revealing insight into the production.

Q: Last time we talked at the "Beyond The Sea" Junket you mentioned that Bryan Singer wanted you to be Superman's Nemesis but you had concerns about your schedule, now that you have been confirmed as Lex, how did you make it work?

KS: You make it work, Bryan is a great friend of mine and of course he is also a great director. He has so much passion for this project. Even before any of the X-Men films he had a great story idea for Superman that he would mention from time to time to his close friends and know he will be able to see his ideas fulfilled. Besides we’re talking about Lex Luthor.

Q: Are you looking at any of the previous Superman films for inspiration for "Returns"?

KS: You have to look at the work the Chris Reeve did on his films and of course the great work that Gene Hackman also did.

Q: Singer has said that this new film will resemble Superman 1 and 2, can you see that?

KS: I think that it will resemble those films but at the same time it won’t. From what I have been told fans of the first films will recognize plenty but this film will also stand alone. Superman has been around way before the films of the 70's and 80's so the world has an understanding of he is. You also have a great TV show that is showing Clark’s younger years and that is shaping up who Superman will eventually become.

Q: Are you a fan of Superman?

KS: Who isn’t? Every child, for the last sixty years, has had their bump in with Superman.

Q: What do you think of Brandon Routh?

KS: He, like Singer, is a huge fan of this franchise. He has so much respect for the character and also so much passion. I could not see anyone else right now as Superman. Fans won’t be disappointed.

Q: Kate Bosworth has also been cast as Lois Lane, who will be Jo-rel?

KS: I am sure that there will be plenty of casting announcements in the next few weeks.

Click the link above for the full interview from S-V's favourite red carpet stalkers!

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6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
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Gotta love those Illini

Boy oh boy. I love those Fighting Illini. This afternoon's game against Northwestern was awesome. Such a great game. Luthor Head was the player of the game with 26 points. The Illini have now set their new record of 18-0. The best Illini season start ever. They are 4-0 in Big 10 Conference play. The Illini have the 3 best guards in the nation Williams, Brown, and Head.

Tonight is bar hopping night in Ed Fest part 2. As of 6 o'clock I have yet to hear anything from anyone. I don't know when or where we are starting out or even what bars this hopping will include. I'm sure it will include only the best bars that Springfield has to offer. I wonder how many people are participating in the bar hop/crawl?

Crazy

Crazy is as Crazy does. I know I'm not crazy. I now figure that I am probably the most sane person that I know. A push over (according to Matt) but damned sane. I am more aware of life than you would ever know. I guess sane is not the new pink so why would that matter. Don't worry. Consider it already let slid.

Wow

Wow, what a night! Woooo! The night started off like many have the last few weeks. Which is me not really wanting to be out and I would have rather been home and in bed watching a movie or some tv or just sleeping. Well, I started out with a few beers out of the Ed Fest Keg. Beer I could tell was not going to be my drink of choice for the evening. So I switched to water. I felt a little dehydrated and I figured water to be the best drink for me. Well, at some point I figured what the hell. I don't feel like being out but hell, I can have a few double captain and sprites. Alcohol is an awesome way to deal with your problems. I will say, those captains were even better going down than the water. In a good way too. I slowly and slowly started relaxing and let everything slide that was on my mind. Well, let us just say that worked out for the best. Because I got a little flirtatious with a few ladies. I think that I smooched on at least 4 fine females before the night was over. 1 which Mr. Shoo noticed and kept questioning me who it was. Is Mr. Shoo jealous that I was gettin a little play for the evening? He says he thinks he knows who it was, ok, good, who cares. Doesn't mean that he was the one having fun even if he knows. I still know that I had a great time, did my job, celebrated my buddy's going away party, and got paid. All in a good night's work. I love this job. It is nice having friends that could watch the door. Thanks to Phil, Kristine, and Josh. All who were official askers to watch the door when I had to take pauses for the cause. Josh, I did take advantage of your "want" for watching the door. I don't appologize for that. I had some "catching up" to do with a "friend" when I had you watch the door. So your 2 - 3 minutes turned into about 10 or so. So random that I had a person that I have rarely seen bring up how they love my carmels. WOW! I didn't even recall that this person even knew that I baked carmels. She was like, I will give you my address and I want you to make me some because those were the best I have ever had. She said her Grandma couldn't even do better. Flattery will get you everywhere. So that is a request for my carmels. (She never gave me the address.) Yes people. You are probably thinking what in the world is this... Yes, I cook and I bake. I am damned good at it too. For one I know how to follow a recepie and also I know how to do it well. You ladies don't know what you are missing. Fun, Considerate, a good family, a good cook, loves kids, on the track for a respectable steady job within the Teaching Profession.... I just have to say, Your Loss. You miss the boat then there are no refunds and no rain dates. It will be tough to do business again.

Saturday night is "Bar Hopping Night" for the continuous Ed going away week. Call Ed, Shoo, Farah, or Myself as to what is going on. Even though tonight was good I cannot predict my mood tomorrow. Call Ed for definite plans I suppose.

I'm glad I wasn't blind sided by that. Parker Louis can't lose. Well, You know that I am NOT Parker Louis. That's for sure. I need someone new to roll dice with. I look to someone new and get turned around. Who else is new. Cause I've figured that it has to be new cause no one old likes Kevin Bacon. New becomes Old too damned fast these days. Where is my parcheesie?

I've got a Lock Box (SNL) and Vault (Seinfeld). Would you please respect that?

I won't give in

No name dropping today. I won't give in. I'm not a putz.

T.G.I.F.?

It's Friday and you know what that means? Well, that it is Friday. Also today is Ed Fest 2005 down at DH Browns on the corner of 3nd and Monroe. Well, rather it is tonight at 7pm and after. Come 1 come all and tell Ed how much you will miss him or even how much you won't. As long as you show your support I think he will be happy about it. I'm working the door down there from 9pm until 1am. Ed plans on living it up so you should live it up with him.

I have not lost my mind. Actually you should have seen the post that I deleted before anyone saw. Maybe I have lost my mind. Did I ever have my mind to begin with? Maybe I was very good at putting on the show and I just got tired of acting sane and slipped a little bit.

Yesterday was a long long day. Work 7:00am - 8:30am, Nap 9:30am - 2pm, Work 2:30pm - 6pm, One Class 6:30pm - 9:30pm, Bar 10pm - 1:30am. Besides the nap it was a non stop day. I don't know if I could have made it without my nap.

I'm just tired of getting crapped on. Not literally crap though. Figuratively. I've done nothing to get crapped on in life. I don't deserve the short end of the stick that the powers that be have given to me. Maybe I will just stop talking. Maybe I should stop thinking. Maybe I could just disappear for a while. I want to say people wouldn't notice but I know they would. It is more like they would notice but would they really care. Life goes on for everyone. I'm not needed. I wish I was Superman because everyone needs a Superman. Who needs this?

intuition

Yeah, I feel like something is going on. Should I be pissed or say yeah that is what usually happens. I have no claim to any riches so why would I be pissed about someone getting the riches. I gotta get out of this place. If it's the last thing I ever do.

I didn't win

Yeah, yet again I did not win the lottery the past 2 days. When will my cash cow arrive. I'm waiting. Hello? Yeah, I don't think it is going to happen but I will keep trying. Life will be so much easier when I win. Yeah yeah, I know people say that money doesn't make you happier but I'm sure that it would be a lot easier in life. Not worrying about bills or having to stay home because you barely have any gasoline in your car and you cannot afford to do what everyone else is doing. Just being able to do things with ease would be my favorite part of the money. Being able to treat my friends and family more.

Well, I didn't get any sleep yesterday and I didn't get to sleep until 1:30am last night so I am going in to take my nap now. I have class tonight. YAY! I'm going to nip that Composition class in the bud and get my Associates in the Arts certificate finally. Then on to getting a BA

What to say

Yeah, I don't have a whole lot to say right now. Today was a long ass day. I have been up since 6am and I have not had a nap. I am surprised that I am still up. Watched the Illini. Friends visited me from ISU. Went out with Ed had a few beers. Saw Merf, Folker, Buck, and Jessie. Saw people I know from HS and they didn't even recognize me so I said, fuck it and didn't make an attempt to be like, Hey! It's me! If they don't realize that it is me standing right in front of them then they are not worth the effort. Came home and now here I am. I still have to get up at 6am which is in about 4 hours by the time I pass out. Super Mario Brothers ROCKS! Sure Becky, you can be my princess or how about concubine. Then it isn't incestual. Ha! Could B be the 1 who walked J to the R on NY?

The King, eh?

So I have one friend who thinks that I am the king of blogging. Thank you for that Becky. I appreciate your comment very much. I also have a friend who apparently disagrees and appears to be jealous. Shoo can't handle me getting praise on my blog. He has been blogging for a while now and when I do good all he can do is make an attempt to cut me down.

An excerpt from Gotshoo.com

"So Becky calls Kyle the “king” of the blog. That’s a lot of responsibility to put on a person. Being the king and all. So, K. Do you like rule over the internet or just Blogspot? Where are the peons, jokers, and whores? What makes a person king? By blood or corporate take-over? Do you feast and blog at the same time?"

Can you feel the hatred of his words? He really is against this title that I did not self impose. I guess you will just have to try harder to win people over Shoo. Sometimes you've got it and most of the time, I guess you don't. Now as to where my peons, jokers and whores are well, I'm not telling you because you would dirty them with your evilness. As king I treat them well. Their taxes are minimal and the courts are just. And the thing that makes a person is king is the people. If I truely am a king then I am a king of the people. I put them over everything else, which would be myself. I take pity in your words to cut me down. I did not ask for the title. The people gave me the title which makes it more fitting. I did not act evil to acquire it.

Apparently Ed's party weekend is now going to be called ED FEST 2005. With a name like that it has a lot to do to live up to it. Although Ed's demise could be this weekend also because he crossed the wrong lady. It isn't smooth to piss a beautiful woman off such as Jessie. Sounds like a death wish to me. Ed couldn't handle the fact that Shoo and I got some lovin from Jessie so he had to liquor her up and then pull a fast one to get a kiss. That is just deviant and uncool. Shame shame shame. It has been nice knowing you Ed.

I enjoyed my kiss for what it was. I didn't have to strive for more, it was good as it was. Everyone was happy in my scenario. I don't like to piss off good lookin ladies. Thank you very much.

Philo has yet to write some fun stories. :( SHOW ME THE MONEY! SHOW ME THE MONEY! SHOW ME THE MONEY! You had me at hello. tear.

Tomorrow is a long ass day for me. I work 7 - 8:30am and then 11am until 6pm. 8.5 hours for me. A lot longer than my usual split 5. That's more money on my paycheck though. So that's nice. I went and rented Swiss Family Robinson. A GREAT movie. I didn't get the reaction I thought I would from friends at the bar when I said I rented it. Apparently they are not a fan of the classics. This movie was the first movie we ever rented and played on our first VCR back in the early 80's. I was really really young but I do actually remember when we rented it. It was a cold dark and rainy night on Octobe.... oh just kidding I don't remember it that well. I just remember the first time to the video store. The OLD Family Video on Macarthur where that bright yellow Cash Store is across from penny lane infront of the do it yourself car wash. Before it was even family video at that spot it was a KFC and we used to call it Chicken Video Place. Then Family Video got to be a big business and needed a bigger store. So it moved down past Baskin Robbins. Ah the good old days. But yes. I actually rented this movie to show tomorrow for my kids during their half day. We watch a movie on every half or full day of SCOPE. Even though I really wanted to get the DVD, cause I am all about quality when it comes to movies I had to break down and rent the VHS because I didn't feel like lugging my PS2 to the school and hooking it up and then dealing with all the kids being like OH, Mr. Kyle has a PS2 and then they try to ask me questions about games that I've never heard of before. I'm like yeah, sorry, never heard of that one. I play Hot Shots Golf 1, 2, and 3 and Bloody Roar 1, 2, and 3. That's about it. I have other games but those got the most play time. So VHS it is and tomorrow for 2 hours I will relive my childhood. Kinda. But I am just hoping that the kids enjoy it. It DOES have pirates in it and it is hard to find a pirate movie that is rated G. Those are the only movies that we can show to the kids.

Well, sorry I didn't post every few hours today. I was working and napping and then working again. Then I came home and ate and chilled. Reier came by and chilled with me. Then he went out and then I rented the movie and headed down to the bar for 3 quick drinks and to see the lovely waitresses and my buds. Then when my buds went next door I finished my last drink played some 11 ball and then headed home. Here I am. Now I am going to bed. Long day tomorrow. Byebye ALL!

Actually Tuesday

Whoa man, it is finally here. Tomorrow has made it and now it is today and it is Tuesday. It's about damned time. HA! I say this as if today is a special day or something. But alas it is not. Nothing special about today. Just the fact that it is no longer Monday. I'm not a big fan of Monday. The weekend is over. The WHOLE rest of the week lays ahead of you which is crap. Unless you have an exciting life and you know that everyday is going to be a blast. I used to have that life. I miss that life. Not working. Going out everynight. Eating out all the time. Watching movies whenever I wanted. Sleeping whenever I wanted. Sigh.

Some of you people think that I am all boring and crap. I beg to differ. I warned a lot of you. Working Kyle is not as much fun as Jobless Kyle. Working Kyle has responsibilities and obligations. Working Kyle cannot sleep until noon or later every day so that he is energetic and vital every night until 4 or 5am. I do what I can though. I do go out on week nights still. I am able to do this because my work schedule provides me with time to take a nap in the middle of the day. But still I have broken sleep. 5 hours here and 3 hours here are not the same as 10 hours straight. See... it does not add up. So I won't have as much energy. I say, be happy that I am even out. When I first started my job I refused to come out during the week because I needed to focus on adapting to my new job. Now I have adapted and have found my limitations and I am able to hang.

Last night I hung out at the bar. Until about 10. I was too tired to stay out any later because of lack of sleep from the night before. I came home did the internet thing for a little bit then headed to bed. I think I actually got to sleep by about 1am. Which is good for me. I even when I go home at decent times usually end up staying up until about 3am. I know I have something wrong when I am up until about 4am. Just because I am up though don't think that I am chock full of energy though. There is a huge difference for me between having energy to be out and about and energy enough to no be able to sleep.

So yesterday I had an insane amount of people checking my site out. Yay! I love it that people like what I have to say. Granted I write on here because I want to and not specificly for my fans but knowing that people enjoy checking out my thoughts is cool to me. Or even if you don't like what I have to say the fact that you are checking out my blog means that it is of some interest to you. Even if it falls under the catagory of boredom.

At the top I said there is nothing special about today. Well, I rethought that and there actually is something special about today for everyone. Today is special because you are alive. Be thankful that you are alive and well. You think things could be better but if you really think about it, things could be so much worse. So walk around today with a huge grin because you know that you are ALIVE!

Looooong Monday

Today has been a long long day. At one point in time I swore that it was Tuesday because it felt like Monday had happened already. I was corrected. So moving everything from the stage to the library was a lot of fun. Carrying boxes upon boxes on a handcart up and down stairs and then back again. It was so strenuous that I decided that I had no need to walk the Hilton this evening because I just got a hellofa workout at work. So after work I decide to go to the bar because well, I wanted my paycheck. Ed just happened to be bartending and Jessie also just happened to be waitressing. So I hung out there for a little while. Yeah I was there until about 10pm and I got there shortly after 6pm. So I hadn't eaten since about 10:30am so I was getting hungry. I did have a bowl of popcorn at the bar but that wasn't doing it for me. Tonight is Ed's 2nd to last night bartending at the bar. Thursday will be his last night as an employee of the bar. From then on after that he will only be known as 1 of the owner's son. Or that guy who used to work at the bar. I'm sure he will fade from memory sooner than anyone could hope for. Ha. I'm kidding. No I'm not. Yeah I am. No I'm not. What was that again? Googenheimer?

Consider this a PSA. (For those who can't figure out PSA I will spell it out for you. Public Service Announcement. ) Ed is having his going away party down at DH Browns sometime after 8pm on Friday night. Since he will be leaving us in a week from this Thursday to move to Florida to get a tan and be healthy wealthy and wise. Well, he might luck out and get just one of those... the other 2 I'm not sure he will fare well in those departments.

Well folks, I am soooo tired. Hot ladies and friends weren't enough to keep me out this evening. I was about to fall asleep at the bar right before I left. If I waited any longer then I would worry about driving home so tired. It's the truth. Trust me on this one. You wouldn't want any hard wood to get between you.

ARG! Dad!

So I go by the bank to do an inquiry of my checking account at the atm. I do this every so often just to make sure that everything is fine. Now, you say, Kyle you should keep your balance in your check book! Well, I do. I have been keeping very accurate records for about 2 months now. That is really good for me. Everything has been matching up on the bank statement. Last statement matched fine. I was at the right amount of money that I thought I had. Not enough in my opinion but that is besides the point. Also my account was still matching up as of about a week ago. I could factor in and out checks that are outstanding and everything was working out fine. Well, I get my balance. It is in the negatives. I'm like WHAT THE HELL?! I've been writing everything down and I should have a little over 20 dollars to the good. Well, I'm griping about this when I am at home. My genius father decides to put his 2 cents in. A very old and decrepit 2 cents that I most of the time don't need. He makes the claim that I am not balancing my check book. I'm like, well I balance it after every transaction that I make. He says that isn't what he means. He says, when you get your statement you are supposed to use this form on the back and balance outstanding checks. I'm like, Yeah... I match up every check and debit and deposit that is on my statement with what I have written down in my checkbook and it worked out the way it was supposed to. He says that isn't what he means. I'm like I just said the same thing that you said in different words. He says no, you didn't, the outstanding checks, I like well yeah, I match everything up. So then he starts his "Oh, we're having a fight" Sigh. Which irritates the hell out of me. Because he then trys to talk slower and dumb it down for me which then insults me a hell of a lot. I think my dad thinks that I am stupid. I know how to freaking balance my checkbook. So then he says, well it is either the banks fault or Your fault. I'm like, oh thanks, I think I know what you mean by that statement. But because I said I don't use the form on the back of the statement he thinks that it must be my fault. That form is for people who don't know how to balance a check book/checking account. I've had classes in HS and have a ton of life experience where I know how to add and subtract a transaction, damnit. He insulted the hell out of me trying to make me feel stupid. Saying I don't know what I am doing. I've had checking for years. I know what it is about. I try to explain this to dear old dad but for some reason he acts as though I do everything in life for the first time. I'm not too stressed about this. I do plan on taking care of it soon. I have no need to take care of it just yet because I don't have any transactions to make for a day or 2 so it can sit. I have had times where something is actually wrong on the bank's side and it works itself out. Like I've had it show hundreds of dollars negative before when I haven't even used an account for like a week and hadn't written any checks in over a month while knowing that all checks cleared. Stuff like that. I would let it sit for a few days longer and then check balance again and it would be corrected. So that was my run in with my dad today. We probably won't talk the rest of the day either because we are not in the same room, not because I'm pissed at him but because our schedules don't converge much. Which is good, thank God. Mental note. I've got to learn to not have problems around dad. He thinks that he can solve them all. I'm not a kid, I've been down this road before. Now I admit to him often that there are somethings that I really do need him for. That's great. I know I need him for things but not everything. He seems to think that it is everything. He needs to learn also when it is appropriate to help, if you can call what he does help... More like getting in the way and annoying the hell out of me.

3:30am

Yeah, it is almost 3:30am and I am still up and wide awake. I have to be up at 6am to get ready for work. I hate when I do this to myself. I will definately need a nap after my morning shift in a few hours. Blah!!!

It is Monday again

Yes folks, it is Monday yet again. No matter how many of them we have it seems that another one is always around the corner and then BAM! there it is. No big plans for today. At work we get to move from the stage to the library permanently. The library is cozier but not as much space to put all of our stuff. I'm not too excited about the move. We are getting moved because of other after school activities that are interfering with our daily routine. Bah, who needs them anyway. After my morning shift I have to drop by the Scope Office to submit my official college transcripts thus far. Something I must not have been told or I was for some reason not paying attention in the hiring process but they need my transcripts because my rate of pay is based upon my college credits. My position requiring a minimum of 60 credit hours to hold it. I was notified last week of this saying that I have about 2 and a half weeks to submit it or else I can either get a reduction of pay or immediate termination. Well of course I jumped on this immediately and I actually got the transcripts mailed to me within 2 days. But they came a little late on Friday so I am just taking them in tomorrow. That is a load off my chest. To think I could lose my job over something like that. I wouldn't stand for it. So tomorrow consider my job safe and secured.

Sorry to anyone looking forward to a movie night this past evening. I left it up to Ed, Shoofly and Jessie to keep something going but as I have heard from Shoo, he didn't see a movie. That's too bad. I was hoping it would continue without me. Natalie and Reier were up for seeing a movie. Did anyone else go out for a movie?

I did end up watching a movie here all snuggled up in my bed though. I watched Shrek and Shrek 2 back to back. That was fun. Maybe tomorrow I will watch/listen to the commentaries on both of them in order too! I'm such a movie geek. But hey, I LOVE MOVIES!

My mom is up right now. She is in the other room unable to sleep. We just had one of those awkward moment that a Mother and Son try to avoid. She is in there and was watching the movie Frieda with Selma Hyak and it is good. I come in and sit down and start watching the movie with her. Then a part comes on where Frieda is getting all bisexual and is buck naked (and looking very hot) and having sex with another woman. Now I can't just get up and run out. That isn't very mature. But hell, how much more uncomfortable can that be. It's like, well, isn't this nice. So I kind of do the awkward looking around thing. You know what I'm talking about. It's like, you're looking at the screen but acting like you don't want to be looking at the screen. I try to rationalize and say that we are both adults so it shouldn't be a problem but SHE IS MY MOM! Dudes are not supposed to watch with their mom, entertainment containing women having sex together. Even if it was straight heterosexual sex it would still be weird cause that isn't something your mom and you should watch at the same time. Now I have had movies where I know that my mom would like it. And it has parts that I know would be uncomfortable to watch with her so I preface to her that she would like it but I won't watch it with her. She totally understands where I am coming from. Bah, enough about that. I feel icky even mentioning the awkward moment. But I feel that maybe some of you out there might be able to relate.

Is it time yet?

I'm just wondering when it will be time for girls to stop looking for their Brad Pitt hunks. I've been told (since I'm not a Brad Pitt hunk) that as women get older they stop looking for the pretty boys that are so into themselves that they don't actually treat girls the right way. Women are supposed to start realizing how great the normal looking guys are. We are getting into our mid 20's now. Someday demand for a guy like me will be high but now is obviously not the time. So go ahead ladies and keep hooking up with the jerks. All in due time, you will see, oh yes, you will see.


Ogres are like onions.
They stink?
Yes. No.
Oh, they make you cry.
No.
Oh, you leave em out in the sun, they get all brown, start sproutin' little white hairs.
NO. Layers. Onions have layers. Ogres have layers. Onions have layers. You get it? We both have layers. [sighs]
Oh, you both have layers. Oh. You know, not everybody like onions.

You know what else everybody likes? Parfaits. Have you ever met a person, you say, "Let's get some parfait," they say, "No, I don't like no parfait"?

Pitt and Aniston Split - Official

9 January 2005 (WENN)
Hollywood golden couple Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston have officially split after four and half years of marriage, the actor's publicist confirmed Friday. The Ocean's Eleven heart-throb's publicist Cindy Guagenti released a statement on behalf of the couple, after months of tabloid speculation their marriage was in trouble. The statement says, "We would like to announce that after seven years together we have decided to formally separate. For those who follow these sorts of things, we would like to explain that our separation is not the result of any speculation reported by the tabloid media. We happily remain committed and caring friends with great love and admiration for one another." Pitt and Aniston, who own a production company Plan B together, did not indicate if they planned to divorce. The couple began dating in 1998 when they were set up on a blind date through their managers. They went on to wed in Malibu, California in July 2000. Only days before Christmas, Aniston was photographed without her wedding ring at Los Angeles' LAX airport. A week later the couple were photographed kissing and cuddling on the Caribbean island of Anguilla, where they were taking a New Year break with Aniston's Friends co-star Courteney Cox and her husband David Arquette.

Music

I just stumbled across a music website that I used to frequent all the time back when I first was on the internet back when I was a wee lad. It is very comprehensive and very professional. It is how I used to keep up on bands before they all started making their own official websites.

All Music Guide

Ode to the Nice Guys

Ode to the Nice Guys

This rant was written for the Wharton Undergraduate Journal

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.
Fu-zu Jen, SEAS/WH, 2003

Only in my dreams

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away

Everly Brothers - Dream


Sometimes I don't know why I feel the way I do. I can't help who I feel attracted to. Obviously it shouldn't be you. I'm not like that to you, it's true.

I have had some of the best dreams lately. I've give you that much.

But now when I face reality and see what is going on. I feel a little queasy now. I think I'll go back to bed, I don't feel like dealing with this or rather I don't know how

Sleepy Sunday

Yeah, today is one of those days. I think that everyone just likes to sleep a little bit later and lounge around a little bit longer. Never really getting anything acomplished. I've got things on my mind but they are not appropriate for you to read. And I just lost all motivation to keep writing. I'm outta here, later, peace.

I hate inconsiderate people!

ARRRGG! Tonight was such a good night too. It just HAD to end on a really crappy note didn't it? So, I go out to my car after I get out of working at the bar. It is parked in my usual spot in the loading zone. I walk up and see a hub cap on the ground. I'm like, hmm that is weird, I wonder where that came from. I get closer. I see. It is MY hub cap. I'm like well shit. Someone came along and busted my cap off. Why the hell would someone do that? Some jackass I presume. Well, I pick up the biggest piece because I think, well at least I can get the numbers off of it and order a new one or something. So I go to open my drivers side door. I notice the part that reallllllllly pisses me off. I have a huge ass dent in the side of my door. Some jackass sideswiped my car and hit my drivers side door and it kept going into my hub cap I guess. So then I'm just outraged. I do the first thing I think of and look around. There is no note underneath my windshield wipers, no nothing. I do notice that someone must have thrown a snowball at my windshield in the process of looking but at this point I could care less about that. So what do I do? I am assuming that I can't do anything about my door and hub cap without paying out of my own pocket. I can't call the cops cause it would be like, um yeah, my car got hit. They will be like, were you driving? Did you see the car that did it? And I will be like no and no. That means that I am Shit Out of LUCK. I think that I only have liability so I think that means that would not cover damage like this. The upside to this is that I don't think it did anything to my paint. The dent isn't horrible either. I mean, it's there. There is no doubt about there being a huge dent in my door but it isn't an eyesore or anything. I'm pissed that the bastard who did this didn't leave a note or anything. I'm parked there allllll theeeee TIME! If you come down to the bars enough I'm sure you would think, well this might be someone right inside of this bar riiiiight here. I wish I would have heard it. OH man, I really do. I would have ran out and jumped on that car and said. Hell no, you're not going anywhere fool. As I called the cops. Unfortunately it didn't happen like that. Damned inconsiderate people. I hope something horrible happens to them. I hope that their karma is soooo bad from this that they get what is coming to them. Hitting a car and driving off. You have to be a horrible inconsiderate person to do that.

If anyone knows anything or has seen anything relating to my car getting hit RIGHT outside of DH Browns let me know. I doubt anyone saw anything though cause that is always how things like this happen.

My poor beautiful red Geo. Poor poor Geo.

You like me, You really really like me

So this is my 7th day in a row of 22+ viewings of my site. That is just awesome. I love you guys. Usually people just view my site more on Mondays and Tuesdays and then dismiss it the rest of the week but the dedicated have been viewing my writings every day. So keep on viewing and post comments if you feel like it. Seems that Shoo and Mels are mainly the only ones who post but hey! Phil O just posted for the very first and second time on my site. Yay for Philo. I always love to hear his insights because he is an interesting guy.

The Illini just barely WON over Purdue. Wow what a game. I hope that everyone watched it because it was riveting. They were down almost the entire first half and on into the 2nd half. Finally Dee Brown got his act together and started sinking some 3 pointers. They are 16-0 now, the best college team in the nation. 17 and 0 is the record for the Illini I believe and their next game is at home. Let's all root for another win. This is a season for the history books.

Thanks for seeing it my way Shoo. I'm tame in the ways of graphicness.

I'm horrible.

I just woke up for like the millionth time a few minutes ago. Lately the last few days I've been having the kind of sleep where I wake up every few minutes feeling uncomfortable. I've got this head cold thing going on where it will give me headaches. It isn't anything serious. So ladies that are afraid of getting close, don' t be. It has just been exhausting me with trying to go out and hang out with friends, working during the day, and trying to exercise regularly now. So I'm staying home until I go to work tonight at the Bar. I am passing on going to my cousin's college graduation open house. Which I'm told when it is an open house it is more of a people come and go. It isn't really hey, be here the whole time type of thing. The thing is that it is about an hour away down by St. Louis. I'm not feeling mentally or physically up for the ride. My parents are going and representin.

I in the mean time will be able to watch the ILLINI kick PURDUE'S ASS! At 3pm today. I'm so stoked. Can't get enough of that fighting illini. I wish they played every day like baseball but that isn't happening. Basketball is a little more demanding physically because of the constant running and 1 on 1 in your face ball.

Today is my sister Keri's birthday! Happy birthday to Keri! I believe that she is 36 today. Cause she was 12 when I was born and I will be 24 later this year. I think today is also Elvis's birthday. I always seem to hear mention of that on Keri's birthday. I'm sure she hears it every year too.

I'm a whore for the money

Yeah. I worked the bar tonight. It was a decent night. Mike, Lori, Stacy, and Jessie were working with me tonight or rather I worked with them. I'm just the door guy. I check IDs and make sure no underagers get in. We weren't extremely busy tonight either. Other people came in such as Ed, Farah, Jenny, Melissa, Anna, Jeff, Shoofly, Reier, and so on.

Ed is moving in about a week and a half to Sarasota, Florida to start his new life without us. He wants to be closer to family that lives there and that is understandable. Live life for yourself and what you want to do first. Don't be a slave to the man.

Farah is doing well. She loves me and she told me so. That is in that you're a great friend and you'll never score kind of love. Which is cool.

Jenny got back from her trip to France to visit her sister who is studying abroad there. She apparently didn't have much to say about France. I noticed people trying to get information out of her about her trip and she wasn't too talkative. She and I chatted Scope gossip since we both do that for a job.

Melissa stopped in. She is doing well. I inquired as to whether or not she worked out today. She said she did, which is awesome. I let her know that I did my Hilton hike today since the soreness of Monday and Tuesday has finally left me. It was good to see her out. Although it would be nice if she would join us on movie nights too. Sometimes we all need a night where we can do an activity outside of a bar/alcohol setting. Sometimes I think everyone is a little too dependant on the stuff. It is empowering to exercise restraint. I know I like to do it every so often.

Anna and Jeff, it was great to see them. I pair them together because well, they are together. Anna has been making it down here from Chicago a decent amount in the last few weeks and I'm loving it. I can't get enough Anna and I also love it when she "accidentally" leans over and rests her boob on my hand. Props to that. :)

Shoofly was his usual self. He partied. He mingled. He watched the door for me at least once while I used the bathroom to PEE. We didn't have a whole lot to chat about except that I found out he didn't have internet for most of the day and that is why there were no posts during the day after he left for work. So sad to go for a majority of a day without internet priveledges. I know that it must have been tough.

Reier is doing well. He has finally decided to go back to UIS and finish his progress towards a Bachelors in Psychology. He doesn't have much to go but it won't be done right away. It is too hard to own and run a bar and go full time to college. I totally understand where he is coming from. He is really stoked about going back though. He even bought a UIS ballcap. Pretty spiffy.

I didn't talk much with Jessie tonight. Hard to do that when I'm at the door and she is waitressing and I'm not in her section. She appeared to be having a good night which is great.

Stacy was great as usual. On top of asking if I needed drinks but I took it upon myself to go to the bar to get refills tonight since it wasn't that busy. Plus I wasn't in a huge drinking mood. All I drank was a messup that was a Captain and Coke that she brought to me. Then later I had a shot of Jack. All the rest I had was water.

Lori and I were in agreement that the night was going incredibly slow. The hour from 11pm to midnight went the slowest out of all of the evening hours. It was a little eerie.

I almost made Mike pass out tonight. At about 12:15 I went to the bar and ordered a round for him, Lori, Jessie, and Stacy of whatever they wanted. Mike asked me if I wanted a drink and I said. You know what. How about they get their drinks and you and I do a shot of Jack together. So we did. It was good. I owe so many drinks to so many people. The best way to pay them back is to buy them a drink. Mike was funny about it. He didn't really almost pass out but he acted like his knees were all wobbly. I'm just glad that I could do something for them. I plan on getting them back more as time goes on. I still am not great on money though.

Aunt Molly. The coolest Aunt Molly that I know was in tonight. She informed me that she has read my blog. I was like, really? Cool! But she then goes on to say that I need to mention her more. Well. Before she headed out for wherever she was going she stopped to chat with me at the door. She tried to get information out of me about who my New Years kiss was with. This sure is getting to a lot of people. I'm loving it. People actually interested in my personal life? Heh. Funny stuff. More like they are surprised I have a private life. I am a very open person. I don't hide much but it appears that the more aloof that I am the more people are interested. I've heard things about this type of scenario before but I never quite believed it. So, I will not be releasing that information just yet. I will keep you thirsting for more. All of you!

I'm surprised that I didn't get pressured more into going out tonight. I think people are starting to realize that I will do what I want. If I am not in a mood for a 3am bar then I am not going to do a 3am bar. Sometimes I am in the mood though. So it is alright to still ask me but excess pressuring probably won't help out the cause.

I work again tomorrow night, which is my official night scheduled. I took on tonight to work for a little extra money. I need it. I don't get paid until next Thursday and I just hope to make the money last.

Well, this is a nice LONG POST. I hope it satisfies your lust for me. I love the way you smile at me.