A rose by any other name

So, I'm surprised that I haven't been criticized for not blogging since last Thursday. It is now Wednesday evening and people have not seen me since Monday night at the bar. Anyone getting worried yet? I'm not. Yet.

I've only talked to 1 person since seeing people Monday night. We were going to go work out after I got off work tonight but I ditched out, not in a mean way or anything. I was exhausted, my back hurt, and my tennis shoes were at home. Valid excuses but excuses just the same.

Michael Jackson parody

Check out this link. If the video doesn't eventually play then I'm sorry. I actually had it stop on me then I hit reload and then I could play it. Check this out. Very funny.

http://toccionline.kizash.com/films/1001/139/

Long long road

I've got a long (hard) road ahead of me still. I went in and met with a counselor from the education department at UIS. I have the gen ed classes done and a few prerequisites done but yeah I'm not near anything. First of all I need to raise my GPA. Then there are a lot of classes. I have to take the basic skills test. Then there is the fact that they don't offer a Education as a major and only a minor. So I'm gearing towards getting a mathematics degree. Yeah, imagine that. Of all the courses that I would want to be able to teach though I am best at Math. At least I think that I am. Maybe I could go into Science. Who knows.

Sitting around

Tonight was a waste. I sat around as though I was waiting for something to happen. What it was that I was waiting for, I have no idea. I sat, I waited, nothing. Nights like this are the ones that I hate the most. I feel as though I could have done more. Life was not designed for sitting around. I have to make something happen. I feel the need to make every day a special day in its own way. Today I have failed. I feel the emptiness and loneliness creeping into my life. I try to fight it off but somedays I do not succeed. Tonight I feel overwhelmed. I go to bed this evening praying that tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow I shall do more good. Always looking toward tomorrow.

You don't want my eye

So I have some of the worst vision ever. Well not ever. If I had the worst ever I would probably just be blind. My eyes have deteriorated every year since I was 6 years old. So bad that the big E on the chart is a blob of blurriness. So I assume that you do not really want my eye or even both.

Today has been relaxing. Work, then nap, then work, then dinner and now here I am. I got an offer to go out to lunch today but I was all cozy in my bed getting some rest and I didn't want to leave that bed. I love my bed. It is the most comfortable bed. I'm tempted to just go hop in it right now and sleep sleep sleep.

Tomorrow I've got my appointment with the Education Dept about getting into it at UIS. I'm nervous but not really. It is more of a I'm not sure of what I need to be doing and if I can afford it and all that fun stuff.

I just found out that I am getting forced to volunteer. Yeah. You heard right. Forced to volunteer at a March of Dimes walk up in Chicago in April sometime. I'm like "what if" I don't want to do it, and I was told, You're doing it! You're welcome Shan. I'll be there with bells on. Maybe I could show up in a speedo or a running spandex suit. That would be cooler than bells right?

Nobody Makes Me Bleed My Own Blood.

Free food is the best.

Last night was a good time. I hung out at 11 west for a little while. Friends joined me. I also ran into this girl who I hung out with a little bit up at ISU. Apparently she is now a teacher in the district. I'm like whoa. Because it isn't like I knew her before ISU. She even remembered my cell number which was impressive for not really calling it all the time or anything. Although, it IS my number. I'm thinking I might be seeing her around more. We have people in common that we know apparently. Plus she says she is a big fan of DH so I told her to come in and see me sometime.

Other than that it was a calm night. Hung out and conversated with friends which is what I enjoy doing. Drank my usual Top Shelf Water on the Rocks. Sometimes I wonder if I have a Water problem. Are people thinking intervention? If so, then what will be there for refreshments? Milk?

Stupid Kids

Okay. A friend and I went and saw THE RING 2 last night. Went all the way out to the new theater on a monday night at 7:30pm. Guess what we ended up enduring. Yep, that's it. A whole lot of annoying young teens who wouldn't be quiet. First, before the movie even started I got pegged with a piece of popcorn. I'm a nice guy but I acted tough. First just turning around shut them up, then I said "We're not going to have anymore of that are we?" Then said no. So I got no more popcorn. Thank goodness. But they are kids and it was a horror flick so they are all freaking chatter boxes. My friend was about to lay the smacketh-downeth on them but she bid her time and did not go off. Although I would have enjoyed that immensely. The movie was alright but nothing too great. Maybe if I had seen the first one and maybe if there were not a ton of kid who wouldn't be quiet. It could have been better. I don't know though.

Compilation

A piece of fried chicken, 2 bites of potato salad, slice of red velvet cake, acroissant pocket, and peanut butter straight out of the jar. YES! That was my dinner tonight. I just thought about how awful that all sounds when put together but it was all seperate over the period of about 45 minutes. I am full so the mission has been accomplished.

Posting?

OKAY! Apparently people have been unable to post on my blog. Mr. Shoo seems to be the only one who can get through. I have no idea why... but it's true. So I had it set up that the comment window was a popup window. You people's browsers probably are silently blocking popups nowadays. I put it back to the old way where it doesn't pop up but just goes to a comment page. I have always had it set up where you should be able to post no matter if you belong to blogger or not. So everyone try to post. Tell me if you have any further problems. A way to get in contact with me apparently is through Shoo's blog. Heh, who would have thought?

Beef sticks and a parking ticket

Oh man today has been a trip.

SO I ordered food from one of my students about a month ago and it just came in which is awesome. I got a supreme deluxe pizza and a package of beef sticks. I'm eating the beef sticks right now and they are mmm mmm good. I love beef.

So I went and ordered my new debit card. For those that don't know it slipped out of my wallet sometime on Saturday. No, I didn't leave it anywhere because I never used it but it fell out. I had it on my way down there and then later it was gone. Anyway, I went and ordered a new one so I should have that in about 7 business days or something along those lines.

After that I decide that I need to go register out at UIS for fall classes. Well, I go. I have no clue as to where I am going. I park in Lot D because I have parked there for Sangamon Aud. shows before and I figure I can figure out where I am going from there. So I go. I'm walking and walking and finally after asking for directions from the kind staff I find the admissions. I go in and fill out the app. Then the person is like, and all we need now is the 40 dollar application fee. I'm like AH! I didn't think about that. Never crossed my mind that they would want money already just to consider me for enrollment. So, then I'm like, well, I would pay right now if I had my debit card but NO! I don't have my debit card because it is laying in a gutter somewhere with a mcdonald's wrapper. So I'm like, I didn't think to bring my check book. I then go back out to my car to leave.

I get out to my car after my long long trek back to it and what do I see? A freaking parking ticket on my windshield. Yeah, in an unmarked parking lot. I double checked, I got a freaking parking ticket for not having a decal in a decal lot. AGAIN, NO SIGNS! I am going to attempt to dispute it because it is 25 bucks. That is a lot of money. I could go see a few movies for that.

So I hop in my car and curse and swear to myself that this has happened. I go back to my bank and withdraw some money, which I should have done the first time that I was at my bank earlier today. Again, money had not occured to me. So then I drive back to the school. I find a closer parking lot. I find a meter. I plug that puppy up so as to not get another freakin ticket. I go in and pay. I have to wait for a receipt because I am paying cash and they apparently are not prepared for something like that to happen on the spot. Then I ask, if it is possible to see guidance about getting into EL ED. They send me over to the library where their offices are.

I go back outside and think. This may take a while I had better put more money in the meter. So I go put in another quarter for another half hour and it only goes to 30 minutes. I'm like what?! I take a closer look. It is a 30 minute limit meter. This school is already trying to take all of my money! I haven't even been accepted yet.

So I hop in my car cause it is a little trek to the library from admissions. I find the library parking lot. At least I hope that it was the library parking lot. I park and go up in the building. I go up and find a room that says dean of education. I think hey, this should be the right room, right? Wrong. I sat there for about 15 minutes before someone in that office came out and asked if they could help me. Well I was about half a hallway away from being in the right spot. So, again I move on my merry way.

I get to the right spot. I get to the right person but she is with another student and then on the phone for probably about 20 minutes or so. I get in there and tell the lady what my plan is and ask what I need to do. She then tells me that I need to set up an appointment. I'm like, AHHH! FINE! So now I have to go back at 9am on thursday to get things straight. Also while waiting to get in with the lady I read a paper that is on the wall and it says the deadline for application into the education program for the summer and fall semesters was March 15th which was last tuesday. THEY WERE ON SPRING BREAK! WHAT THE HECK! I'm a little upset. I could have done all this running around last monday when I went to llcc to meet with their guidance and then done the UIS one too at the same time but I had to wait a week. Now I cannot actually get into the program until Spring semester of next year but the lady said that they have prerequisites that I can fullfill in the mean time. Whoopdeeedooooooo. I just want to get done with school and on with my life.

All that I really wanted to do today was go to FitClub and start my workout routine. That didn't happen. I don't have time for that now since I have to be at work in less than an hour now. Although I did get a butt load of walking in by running all over the campus today. So I figure that is my exercise. So now I'm sitting here munching on tastey sticks of spicy beef recounting my morning and afternoon.

CAKE!

Okay folks. I don't know if I will go ahead and try to organize this but this would be awesome. I was sitting around chatting with Em about music and mainly the band Cake when Jess interjected that Cake is going to be around here somewhere soon. I'm like, no way! So thinking about that I checked out good old ticketmaster.com to see what I could find and lo and behold... They will be here in exactly 1 month from today. Here is the ticketmaster page http://www.ticketmaster.com/event/07003A68F559D888?artistid=750989&majorcatid=10001&minorcatid=60

Who would be interested in going? It is a Wednesday, Apr 20, 2005 at 07:30 PM in Champaign. I would probably go ahead and work until 6 and then leave immediately from work. So like maybe people could meet somewhere near a highway exit like southgrand and leave cars at the parking lot of someplace and then carpool. Time would be tight. Just an idea. Let me know what all of you think about all this, people! OKAY?

Hey hey hey

So I just did a little tweaking with the links on the right. Which makes me wonder, do all of you party people actually visit the links that I take the time to put over there? I have added a few to the right. Including links to Merfe Lee's Birthday Blog, Mojo's:The Bar, The Posamist Website, Inspected By 12, Plead The 5th (the new site), Plead The 5th (the old site), The Station, F5 (the cover band). I already have a ton of sites listed, I know. I want to give you variety. Not only can you come to my blog to read my musings but you can get to other people's sites through me. It's that easy. I'm actually surprised that I haven't put up the links for local bands sooner but alas they are there now. So go ahead and visit the links listed, don't worry, they won't bite... hard.

All By Myself

This is one of those times. I think it may be best to just be by myself. I could call all of you party people but I won't. If I did then I would just be going through the motions. I already know the answers anyway. There is a mood in the air. People used up everything they had yesterday and if that is all there is then that is sad. As I preach, life is to be lived, let's get started living it already.

A joke from P

Two tall trees, a birch and a beech, are growing in
the woods. A small tree begins to grow between them,
and the beech says to the birch, "Is that a son
of a beech or a son of a birch?" The birch says he
cannot tell.
Just then a woodpecker lands on the sapling. The birch
says, "Woodpecker, you are a tree expert. Can you tell
if that is a son of a beech or a son of a birch?"
The woodpecker takes a taste of the small tree. He
replies, "It is neither a son of a beech nor a son of
a birch. It is, however, the best piece of ash I
have ever put my pecker in."

I ROCK!

I just have to say. I have been out downtown since 11:30am on Saint Patrick's Day Observed. I drank Guiness like no other. I flirted with girls like no other. BUT the most important part of today. I am smashed and I still have the common sense to have someone drive me home. I recognized that I am really not good to drive and that I really should be heading home now. As much as I would love to see if someone is working at Norb's I would rather see if I can get a sober friend to drive me home. People say that I shouldn't talk because I have drove home after drinking before but I know my limits.... How about you? I KNOW when I should have a ride home. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! Well, that is all I have to say about that. I am soooooo HAPPY that I saw AMANDA this weekend and her BO. Was it MIKE? I'm not totally sure. Thank you and have a good day.

I was a little disappointed (not mad) that it took so long for people who told me they would come hang out to come out. Some people never showed at all. I was very surprised by Ben and Crow showing up with their respective counterparts. That was awesome. Most people were like, yeah, I'll do the parade with you and then nada. I did have 3 friends hang and meet up. They hung out but did their own thing at the same time. I had the man in the kilt with me for most of the day. He knows how to hang and hang he does. OH I just remembered I met an awesome girl who is only 3 generations out of ireland and has family still there and such and really knows her stuff. The man in the kilt and I talked to her for a good 20 minutes or more. I hope she stops in to see me sometime at the bar.

Crow is gay

Donating one pint of blood can save 3 to 4 lives.

So tonight I am going out for some good dinner at Gallina's downtown with peoples. Then I am working the door down at DH. I don't have much else to report except that I plan on partying hearty tomorrow at the parade and bar hopping maybe. CALL ME if I DON'T CALL YOU!

Hate Myself

So my great mood from earlier is gone. I am about to sit down and write an essay which shouldn't be too tough but still. I'm upset because I think that I threw out almost all of my old papers that I have written. All the essays, term papers, and whatnot that I have done are gone. My old computer hard drive is no more and even though I think I might have saved my documents onto a disk before the cpu became no more, I have no idea where the disk could be.

So Nice!

OMG it is so nice outside. I really don't want to go back to work but alas I have to because I am responsible. I think I have a topic for my essay that is due tomorrow. That is the hardest part right now about writing for me. Just coming up with the ideas because once I have them I am awesome at brainstorming and writing the paper. Well, not much else to report. Monty's was great. I had a corned beef ruben on rye and broccoli cheese soup. Very delicious. I will talk to you later. Hopefully I can get the paper written in no time flat after work this evening and then I will be able to hang out with a friend for her birthday today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSIE! You have been blessed with beautiful weather for your special day. I hope you were able to enjoy it.

Lunch Ho

I am the lunch ho this week. Monday I did lunch with Nat and company as I tagged along and went to Darcy's with her. Yesterday I went to lunch with a friend and we were supposed to have Indian food at Gateway To India on Chatham Road but apparently it is closed on Tuesdays so we ended up going spur of the moment to The Feed Store downtown on the Old State Capitol Plaza by Osco. That was really good. Now today, which is only Wednesday, I am going to lunch with yet another friend and we are going to Monty's for some mmm mmm good sandwiches. I really should balance my checkbook and make sure I'm not delving too deep into my checking. I like for there to still be some money in there when I get paid which isn't for another week. Funny thing is for the longest time I never ate out. I might get a burger at McDonalds or something on rare occassions but lately I've been on a try new restaurants or go to places I haven't been to in a long time. This is great. If you are interested in lunch don't be afraid to call me. Usually the worst that could happen is that you wake me up from a nap which I am trying to get out of the habit of anyway. So it's cool. So, I need to get ready to go out. Later Player Haters.

I do enjoy

I do enjoy buying things for friends no matter how cheap you all think that I am. Now, I haven't actually heard anything about people calling me cheap so you can stop holding your breath. I just know that sometimes I possibly come across that way. My thing is that I usually spend a lot of my money on myself. Then when it comes time to be nice and get something for a friend like an alcoholic beverage or a movie or dinner, I have barely enough for myself or no money at all. I do what I can. Granted I may be more likely to pickup something for a female friend than for a male friend but I do not mean to offend. It is kind of like covering my behind with the ladies. Being a gentleman I hope someday will get me somewhere in life. Granted I'm not like the "perfect" gentleman but again, I do what I can. I am only human.

Lately my thing has been getting my buddies birthday gifts. I have never been much of a birthday gift giving kind of guy but yet I am huge on receiving gifts, who isn't? So, I've been trying to be selfless on this fact and try and get my buddies things to show that I care in that we're buddies kind of way. Now, my thing also is that I may not get you a gift on your actual birthday. I don't like to get stupid generic gifts. I like to get something that reminds me of the person or that I know the person would actually enjoy. So in a current example I will be giving a buddy of mine a birthday gift a month after his actual birthday. I finally saw something that I just had to get for him. He probably thought that I was an ass for not really doing anything neat for his birthday but sometimes the right time is not the right moment.

Catching up

Yeah. Sometimes I think that I am a horrible friend. I would like to think that I do as much as I can for friends but at the same time I feel empty as in I don't do enough. I just called a friend out in Arizona last night because she IMed me a few days ago saying that she is coming to town this weekend and wants to hang out. So, I called her and ironed out the details of her trip home. It was great talking to her. The first thing we both admitted was that we neither had each other in our respective cell phones any longer. With my old cell phone I only had so many spots for phone numbers. I am meeting new people all the time and some people I barely talk to anymore. So some got phased out but not completely. I usually write a phone number down before deleting it so that I have it somewhere.

Now, I have more number spots in my new cell phone (500). I am going to be adding and editing everyone's entry but as time goes by I know that some people may have new numbers having moved around a little bit. I also know that a lot of people keep the same cell number no matter where they live for convenience. I sent out a huge email for people to email me back with their current cell numbers and even landline numbers so that I can verify that I have the right one still. Even if I am a horrible friend and never really call that much or even at all, I like to know that I have the number available to call incase that I get that itch. Plus, I enjoy being able to help a friend get in contact with another friend if they don't have the number then maybe I do. So I can be the middle man, I like to help out. If I did not email you it might be because I don't have a current email for you either! I have a ton of emails that don't work anymore and I have no way of getting in contact with you via internet. So email me with your stuff. Don't put it on here, shady people lurk in the shadows of the web.

Also, as mentioned by my friend out in Arizona, she asked me if I was going to do the address list that I used to do while everyone was in college. I told her that I may do it after June because I know I have a few friends getting married and moving so if I do it after that then everyone would be up to date and I would not have to send a follow-up inquiry. So, as summer comes along expect to see an email from me. I'm probably going to just keep it to people from SE or close friends of the group that I hung with. You know, cause a lot of my new friends have no idea about even a half of my old friends. So I think I will keep it to old friends.

Another Errand Day

Today has been fun so far. I've been out to LLCC to make sure that I am able to graduate with an Associate in the Arts. I actually can even get an Associate in Science if I would like since I have enough math credits. If I want my LLCC degree to be focused in Elementary Education then I may need 2 more classes. I might go ahead and do that this summer. I'm not sure though. I have to meet with a UIS guidance to iron out the details first. Then I will figure out my plan of attack on getting this El. Ed. degree.

I went into FitClub today and finalized my membership. I am now a member there with the keychain card and everything. I may attempt to start working out tomorrow. I need to go purchase workout clothing though first. Some good gym shorts and a few loose Tee shirts.

I also need to look into getting my bicycle worked on. Any suggestions on good places that work on bicycles cheap? The handle bars are still messed up from when I lived up at ISU. There is a little rust and it may need a brake pad or something. I can't recall totally. I would like to start riding my bike and when the weather is a little warmer maybe even ride my bike over to FitClub to work out. That would be hardcore. I know Workout Philly has done that before and it is a longer ride from his residence.

Right now I am getting ready to go join Nat and friends at Darcy's Pint for some good lunch. I haven't been there in a while and I'm looking forward to this. I hope it isn't too crowded and we have to wait a long time to get a table. It sounds like it will just be 4 of us and it isn't hard to seat a party of 4 there when seats are available.

Who is up for a movie tonight? I'm going to push for people to see The Jacket. Starring Adrien Brody, Keira Knightley, Kris Kristofferson. There is a 7:50 and a 10:30 showing that I would be able to make it to at the new theater.

Friends

People may or may not know this but I try to do help out my friends when I can. I am not always in a situation to help when it comes to money but advice and a shoulder to lean on are guaranteed.

Tonight I am helping out a best bud. He called me up and asked me to work the door of his establishment by carding and taking a cover charge and after some back and forth within my own mind I agreed. I only went back and forth because I was hoping for just a laid back night without responsibility but as the song goes you can't always get what you want. So later on I will be carding and charging at the door of Mo-ho's. I've had my coffee so I should be good to go. Come see Inspected By Posamist. It will be a good time. Btw, everyone has gotta pay the cover. Don't go thinking that because it is me that I will let you by without some mooh-lah. I care.

Hey babe, take a walk on the wild side

The Illini barely won today. They had at least 24 turnovers for the whole game. It was absurd. Passing was horrible, shots were not sinking, and missing key free throws. Augustine was the money man for the day with 14 rebounds and something like 10 points. They should have got the ball to him more often because nothing else was working. Head did alright but he could have been 100 times better. Tomorrow they play either Iowa or Wisconsin in the Big Ten Finals.

I did the vaccuuming for the old folks this afternoon. That was fun.

I think it is colder outside than the temp gauge says. Cause I stepped outside and it felt freezing.

I'm ready for the dry warmer weather to get here. I think maybe I should just move to New Mexico or Arizona or something. You know where it is warm yet really dry. I HATE humidity.

I've been thinking about calling you up. I bet you assume that I don't think about you since we rarely see each other. I sometimes think we have a thing but all of it could be in my head.

No stories today. Nothing exciting happened last night. Probably nothing exciting will happen tonight. Except you never know because I can drink tonight. Wooo! Anything can happen when I do that!

Lackluster night

Tonight was rather dull. I was extremely tired because I'm lacking on sleep. The bar wasn't too busy tonight either which did not help matters. Barely anyone came to see me tonight. Mainly 2 people. 1 brought people with her but I know that it wasn't me that brought the other 2 in, it was her. I still had a good time. I can enjoy myself even if I am extremely bored and tired. I enjoy the small things. Just seeing anyone at all makes me happy. I'm a people person.

I found out tonight that I got scheduled to work the door actual Saint Pat's Day night. This sucks. Why? Oh maybe because I have class from 6:30pm until 9:20pm and I start working at 9pm. I could find someone to work it for me but I know I should be able to cut out of class early. It also sucks though because I work my day job and then get off and drive immediately to class and it starts as soon as I arrive if not before I arrive, then I will have to leave early and drive straight to the bar to start work without any down time between. It will be an insanely long long day for me. Then I work my day job and the door again the next day on Friday. No love those days. None at all. Then I have the rest of the weekend to myself which is good because a lot is going on with people coming into town from out of town. I want to be able to hang...

Stupid Blogger

So yeah, I've had a problem with Blogger over the last day. I am unable to post comments on people's sites because when I go to click the link to post a comment it says Blog not found and sends me back to the Blogger Homepage. I'm like, BULL! I just looked at the blog and I just want to comment but nooooo it won't let me. Mine works well enough but maybe it is because I implemented the popup comment window when people want to comment. You can do either or.

This has been a good week. I think I may have been out every night. Yeah, I did say I think because it ends up being so mononatenous that I cannot remember although you would think that if I stayed in 1 night then that would stick out like a sore thumb. But yes, I believe that I hit up some bar or another at least every night since last Wednesday. Don't go thinking that I'm a lush. I only drank Sunday because of the Lent Loophole. I just enjoy seeing people. I'm a people person. Even if I have nothing to talk about just hanging out with friends and aquaintences is a good time for me. Much more fun than sitting in front of the television with the exception of Smallville and Everwood on the WB.

I'm really looking forward to starting FitClub which should be official this coming Tuesday. The paperwork is going down the pipe. My new cell phone is still an amazement to me. It is like Christmas for me and I keep showing everyone my new phone. At first I thought about not telling anyone and just letting them notice for themselves but I love it so much that I'm just saying "Have you seen my new phone?' all of the time. I'm not trying to brag, cause it isn't that great of a phone but I'm just excited and I like to share my excitement. I fiddle with it often too. I'm still learning all that it does.

I don't have very big plans this weekend. Tonight I am working the door at the bar. Tomorrow night Inspected By 12 and Posamist are both playing at Mojo's and that should be a good time. Sunday is movie night and I am still contemplating what I will try to get everyone to see. In the last 2 weeks I have already seen Sideways, Meet the Fockers, Million Dollar Baby, and The Aviator. I'm thinking about seeing Pacifier or Be Cool or Jacket. I'm leaning towards Be Cool even though I really want to see Jacket. I try to pick something that everyone would be like, "Heck Yeah! I want to see that." OH! I just noticed that National Treasure is at the cheap theater. I wanted to see that when it was out before. It looked like a good treasure hunt action movie. It may even be out on DVD now because it has been so long since it came out. I may see that a different night. They don't have late movies at the cheap theater Sundays - Thursdays.

WOWZAH!

OH MY GOODNESS! What a night! All I gotta say is that I just saw Ed and Shoo's women making out tonight at Mo-Ho's. That was the coolest damn thing that I have seen in a long long long time. I think I need some time to take this all in. But damn that was hot. While the boys are away... the women will play...

BIG NEWS!

SO as in my previous post you see that I am soon to be a member of FitClub. That is big news in itself. But this is BIGGER folks! I should just say that and let it slide. Say something like Mr. Shoo usually does like "to be mentioned later" just to leave you hanging. I won't do that. teehee. Although I'm thinking about it just to get you back. Alas I will tell you now. I got a new cell phone! WOOHOO! K came into the 21st century! Yes folks I have upgraded my phone. Now don't get insane on me, I didn't get a camera or video phone but I did get a flip phone. I also upgraded my plan to have night minutes start at 7pm central time and continue until 7am. BOOYA! 12 hours! Also, I got myself a nifty little text message package of 50 a month prepaid so text message away. I can receive digital pictures but I don't think any video. And I've got Vibrate! WOO! I've always wanted that feature. So I know, the last man standing has fallen. My ghetto zack morris brick phone is no more. They even confiscated it when I upgraded. I was like, NOOOO! But it had to be done. It won't be coming back so I know that it wasn't meant to be. So you all know, it is the same number and I still have cingular. Don't freak out on me, just call me! Later player haters.

Captain's Log

Do you know what would be funny? It would be funny if I were really good at telling jokes and then I could put a punchline in the title spot and maybe at the end of the post. That would be great but as for now I am just putting a punchline and hopefully you have heard the joke before. Which is kind of funny in itself but not really too. So yeah, I am about dead right now because today is the busiest day I have had in a long long time. Ran errands like crazy this morning. I joined FitClub finally. Yeah party people I'm a Clubber finally. Well, not officially, it will start on like Tuesday for when I get the paperwork going through. So I should be starting to work out sometime next week. My plan is to go during my lovely 6 hour lunch break that I have. That is the best possible time for me to go. No other obligations usually fall within then unless it is a day like today where I had a lot of errands to run.

Self Esteem Hurter

Yeah, that didn't help. So I don't have great self esteem. I'm a big guy and I have been for most of my life. I'm the nice buddy buddy friend who apparently will always be a friend. I'm a guy just like every other guy out there. Maybe I am nicer than most but I have feelings too. Hearing that more than one female cannot see me as more, as in the sexual sense, kind of cuts deep. It's like that is just BULL. If I flirt, it should not give a woman the creeps, especially if it is the tame kind between friends because mainly that is just TAME. It gets a little old when ladies only see me as a little brother. I used to get LYLAB all the time in high school. LYLAB = Love You Like A Brother. That is not what any guy wants to hear except from his siblings because that is the only place it should be coming from. How does someone get rid of this reputation? I'm an adult and I cannot shake the image of being the little brother to women. It is a load of crapola. Should I stop being a nice guy and just be rude and obnoxious all the time? I like being nice, I'm a nice guy, but it does not get a person all that far. How does someone deal with this stigma? I'm at a loss. Feel free to actually answer the questions in this post. Feedback is appreciated.

Little did you know...

So today has been a good day so far. Slept in until about noon. Got ready then went and picked up a friend for lunch. We went to Norb Andy's and both of us had their Hamburger Horseshoe. Oh boy was that good. I think it was better than the horseshoe that I had at Red Coach Inn last week. I'm still a big fan of the horseshoe at Darcy's Pint though but now it has been a while since I've had one there. Well after lunch I just came on home. Hung out here. Caught up on posting comments on Mr. Shoo's site. Then I realized that the Cubs were playing a televised Spring Training game. That was pretty cool but I didn't know who half of the guys were because they were invitees just there for Spring Training, hoping that they get hired on at the major league level. It was still great to watch. I miss baseball so much. I'm so glad that the regular season is about to start. GO CUBS!

I don't know if I mentioned it previously but yesterday the Fighting Illini lost their first game of the season which also happened to be the last game of the regular season. They made it 29-1 including that unfortunate loss. A record breaking season. It isn't over yet though. They still have the Big 10 Tournament and the NCAA Tournament to clean up in. I expect them to go all the way. We are going to run circles around the other teams. Have faith. Who wants to be a realist(pessimist) when an optimist feels so much better?

I saw the movie Million Dollar Baby with 2 friends last night. That was an amazing movie. Hilary Swank did a great job and rightly deserved the Oscar for performance by an actress in a leading role. My take on it is like this. She does such a good job that when I watched the movie I didn't see Swank playing a character I only saw the character. Now with Clint Eastwood's character I watch him and I think, ah there is Clint the entire movie. Understand what I'm saying? I hope so. If you have not seen Million Dollar Baby yet, GO! GO SEE IT NOW! It rocks. Oh also, Morgan Freeman is the MAN! I'm a huge fan of his performances. He picks good stuff and does a great job.

Tonight I will hopefully be able to go see the movie The Aviator. I have really wanted to see it since it came out but friends seem to be dancing around going to see that one. Hopefully I have found people to go see that one with me. It is almost 3 hours long and is a period piece about a guy that people of my generation really don't know about. But it looks really good and it did well at the Academy Awards and even without doing well it was still high on my list. The Awards just reinforce me wanting to see movies that I have put off seeing for too long.

Lots O' movies in theaters for me the past few days. I saw Meet The Fockers on Saturday evening, Million Dollar Baby last night, and hopefully I will see The Aviator tonight. I also saw Sideways about 1 week ago too. I sure do love movies.

You want to not hang with me then I can let that happen. Why should I bother with someone who doesn't want to chill? So maybe I will just let you be until you get your act together. You've got a little soulsearching to do. Better get on that.

Beautiful Day

Wow it sure it a beautiful day today. I just took a drive. I thought about walking but then my laziness kicked in. The park was packed and since it is Sunday it was blocked off to vehicle traffic so I would have had to park on the street. I thought about calling people to do something outside but I'm getting a little tired of that. Lately it seems like people want to hang out but then don't want to hang out. One friend has been all down and out and it is starting to get me down too. It is like, why wouldn't you want to hang? Is staying at home and not doing crapola that much fun? I know I hate staying home. Unless I have good reason. I've been thinking about doing the recluse bit though. Which goes against my belief that life is to be lived. Being a shut-in is no way to live life. If you are bored, wouldn't it at least be better to be bored with friends? I know I hate to miss out on life. Life is happening all the time all around us. If you don't hang out that one time you could be missing out on the best night of your life. Sometimes the small laid back times are the best times too. Just knowing that you are happy and content enough to just chill is the best.

I feel like things are falling apart though. It is hard to explain what I mean and how I feel about this but maybe the best way to explain it is that the tide is changing. Friends' lives are changing and taking different directions. New jobs, new relationships, new hobbies, new friends. Take a look around. Is everything the same as it once was? I know the world around us is constantly changing. That is a fact. We won't be the tight knit group that we once were. I can see the change happening right now. My dad makes a point that once people start getting married I probably won't see friends of mine anymore. They will have their own lives to live and sometimes that moves in a direction that doesn't include people of the past. He had buddies that he couldn't have been closer to and then they married and moved or even if they didn't move they still lost contact. Talking to each other once a year becomes the extent of the friendship. Just enough to keep tabs but the lives are no longer connected except for the times they had in the past, stories, events, memories. Is that all life friendships are going to become? A memory of the past? I don't want to lose what I have. Things will change though, so all we can do is embrace it and do the best we can with what is dealt into our hand. That is why I push for people to hang out, to be together, to create memories because someday that is all we will have. We won't always be together. Sure new people will come into our lives but the old friends may phase out. I try to postpone that as much as I can. Friends are my life. Sure, I have family. Family will always be there but friends are a different and special part of life and make it worth living. When you stay home and alienate friends then you should ask yourself, Am I taking the fullest advantage of what life is giving me?

Movie and a Dinner

Today has been good so far. I've been doing laundry. Yes, I do laundry. Every so often I get to the point that washing 1 load when I need it is not good enough. So I started seperating my clothes and I have been trying to get the chore done. In the middle of all of that washing and drying I went to a movie with my dad. My mom is out of town for the weekend so I decided to invite the old man to a movie. We finally saw Meet The Fockers which I had planned on taking him to see over the holidays but he is so busy or else is in a "I'm tired and pissy so bug off" mood. We both enjoyed the movie. I was surprised at the number of people who were there to see the movie. It has been out literally since Christmas and it is now March. People should not be seeing it anymore. But I guess that is why it is even here still. So afterwards we got ourselves some pizza at Coz's Pizza. Oh boy, that was mmmm mmmm delicious. I love their pizza. So far each time I go is a great time. Then we came home, we both agreed that we had a good time.

Tonight I'm doing the door thing. Maybe I'll see people out. Who knows?

Maybe Not

Well, I had thought that the weekend was going to be a blast but hell if Shoo didn't just put me into a bad mood. I was in a great mood all day with a fun, happy, energetic mood. Now I feel like not doing crapola. I'm assuming that my mood will change back to great if not at least good soon.

No plans for tonight though. A friend said she would call me to hang. Hopefully that pulls through. Other than that. I'm outta here.

A Chill Pill?

So, I made a comment that Mr. Shoo's site has gimmicks in my previous blog post. He took it as though I said he only had gimmicks. Then I made the statement that I don't have gimmicks. I said this because I'm saying to my peeps that read my blog that I appreciate them because I am unable to provide them with more and they still read. People enjoy what Mr. Shoo has to say too BUT he has other stuff on there too that people read religiously. I mean, Jesus, calm down. I've never seen someone make a press release badgering his buddy because his buddy said his dotcom had gimmicks. Way to go on the creative outlet.

He wants me to "keep K'ing it up somewhere else". Easy to do buddy, easy to do. I appreciate and thank-you for saying please. Something that I emphasize with my children, pleases and thank-you's.

Working for the weekend

Yeah. The weekend is almost upon us. I get a 3 day weekend. I'm stoked. I've been off and on sick for a while now and it is driving me nuts. I hope that I get better soon because mainly the weather is starting to warm up. Barely. I hate being sick when it is nice outside. I feel like such a waste. I'm working Saturday evening. Everyone come see me. Not that people read this much though. Mr. Shoo's site is the popular one with the movie quotes going on all day long. I've got my readers though. People come here for me and not for the gimmicks. That is what I like. Ed headed back to FL for 2 weeks now. Everyone else is back to work. I think that this weekend is going to be a blast.

I hate writing essays

Writing an essay is something that is very tough for me. Once I have a good topic is becomes less tough but I never feel like a topic is good enough. I want topics to be original and interesting. I feel like I cannot do something that someone else has done before because then I feel as though it falls in the catagory "been there done that" for anyone who is reading it. I have to write an inductive argument essay that is due tomorrow evening. This means that I take commonly known factors and take an inductive leap with them and then wrap it up concluding how things probably will be.

Trumped

There is this guy Jeb. He is a great guy. He takes a friend, Ruth, out to lunch. It is a mutual lunch date but he wants to be a gentleman because it is the first time that Jeb and Ruth have ever hung out as just the two of them. He picks Ruth up in his El Camino and they go to the local pub n grub for a meal. They go there because he heard great things about their food and Ruth had never been there before. All goes well although Jeb gets nervous but he has been known to be like that. Jeb felt that his conversation, upon reflection, may have been a little dry but that wasn't the biggest problem. The bill for the meal comes toward the end of the dining experience. Ruth picks the bill up and says I got this. Totally shocked Jeb internally freaks out. He had wanted to pick up her meal as it was the gentleman thing to do. He then spoke up, he said he had planned on getting the meal. Ruth said that Jeb could get it the next time and she put the money out and the waitress took the money. He felt like he just got trumped. The biggest ace up his sleeve, as he thought, was to get the bill and tip well. This was unable to happen because Ruth beat Jeb to the punch. His thunder was stolen and he wonders did he handle the lunch date in the right way.

Should he have been more forceful and made the waitress take his payment and not Ruth's? Do you think Jeb should be upset that Ruth bought his lunch because his intentions were to treat her the whole time? Would Ruth think differently of him for his lack of payment?

I am POOL BOY!

The Pool Boy
Random Gentle Sex Dreamer (RGSDm)


Friendly and eager. You are The Pool Boy.

A teen at heart, you anxiously move about your daily tasks, hoping, praying for a good, instant lay. You're carefree, enthusiastic, and rarely discouraged. Love is cool, but it's not for you right now. You know what is? Crotches.

You're a fun person in both big and small groups, and your friends trust and love you. Inside you, meanwhile, your lust is only growing. Imagine your beating heart sprouting pubic hair. Exactly. Try shaving that.

If you're not scoring enough--which you aren't--you should adopt new strategies. Lower your standards. Be aggressive. Pool Boys are often submissive and hope (desperately) sex will find them. Realize that passiveness will not hook the horny girls you desire. A bolder approach and sheer repetition will.

When browsing OkCupid, consider both The Dirty Little Secret and The Playstation.


ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe, The Priss

Your exact opposite:
The False Messiah

Deliberate Brutal Love Master

1 Year anniversary

Today is my 1 year anniversary of my splenectomy surgery. Due to immune problems my immune system was killing of my blood platelets that help a person clot and this was happening in the spleen. This had been ongoing since I was 15 years old. I had a very rough time with it a year ago last January and February and decided to nip it in the bud while I was still on my parents' insurance. So out came the spleen and as it turned out my spleen was 3 times larger than a normal spleen equating, it should have been the size of a baseball but it was the size of a football. I had a graphic account of how one of the surgeons had to "scoop" it out. Then there was also a smaller accessory spleen which only a small small percentage of the population have this. I'm one lucky guy. So far, a year after the actual surgery date I am still very healthy as blood problems go. The problem was fixed. Although it is not a 100% success rate of the surgery getting rid of the immune problem it had a very high rate and was the best alternative than besides to live with it. I never thought I would have major surgery, at least not while being this young. I was in the hospital a week following the surgery. I watched a lot of baseball and sportscenter. Friends and family came to see me.

The last year has been an interesting one. Full of ups and downs but that is how life is. The only thing you can count on in life is death. So just have fun. Actually live life and don't be a stick in the mud. Who knows, I could have had a complication in surgery and lost my life. Things can happen. I know that things worked out for the best because I am here today. If you are ever down and out just remember that you are alive and things could be worse. Smile!

Brooks To Make Sequel to 'Spaceballs'

30 September 2004 (StudioBriefing)
A day after announcing plans to film the movie version of his Broadway musical The Producers in New York, Mel Brooks is being quoted as saying that he is currently working on the script for a sequel to his 1987 Star Wars spoof Spaceballs that he would like to rush into production. Asked by Playbill magazine when the film is likely to hit the screen, Brooks replied: "Best case scenario: a week before the new Star Wars opens. Worst Case Scenario: a year after the new Star Wars opens." The new Star Wars movie, Revenge of the Sith, is due to open on May 19, 2005. Brooks also indicated that he will appear in the sequel (although, he said, he won't have a role in The Producers). "It wouldn't feel right to have anyone else play Yoghurt, and the first one was the best experience I've had making a movie since Blazing Saddles," he said.

Horseshoe Baby!

An excerpt from Wikipedia: The Free Encyclopedia

Horseshoe sandwich

The horseshoe sandwich originated in Springfield, Illinois sometime in the early 20th century. Local lore names the inventor as a chef at Wayne's Red Coach Inn, although this is subject to debate. You can get horseshoe sandwiches at most Springfield restaurants, at some restaurants in central Illinois, and at a few restaurants in other parts of the state. Horseshoes are not generally served outside of Illinois.

A traditional horseshoe sandwich consists of:

2 pieces of Texas toast (thick sliced bread, lightly toasted)
2 hamburger patties (cooked to preference, usually medium)
a mound of french fries (preferably skinny fries)
cover the whole thing with cheese sauce (preferably "Welsh rarebit")
Variations:

Variations usually substitute another meat for the hamburger patties. Common alternatives include turkey, chicken (fried, grilled, or buffalo-basted), ham, or Italian beef. Less common alternatives include shrimp, crawfish, egg, or tomato.

Some restaurants substitute English muffins for the toast.

Smaller versions of the horseshoe sandwich are also available, and go by the name of "ponyshoe."

Critics of the horseshoe have noted that its composition is extremely similar to the old U.S. Army dish of chipped beef served on toast, known in slang as "S.O.S.," which is short for "S--t on a Shingle."

Recent Movies

Movies that I have seen within the last few months:

Blade: Trinity
The Life Aquatic With Steve Zissou
Spanglish
Elektra
Ocean's Twelve
Lemony Snicket's: A Series of Unfortunate Events
The Incredibles
Hitch
Hide and Seek
Constantine
Sideways

I feel like I'm forgetting some that I have seen but of course would remember if someone mentioned them.

hands clean

Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cuz you're such a pretty thing when you're done up
properly
I might want to marry you one day if you'd watch that weight and keep your firm
body

Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

Extreme Coffee

So today we ran out of the regular drip coffee. So no pot of coffee to devour in order to not have to nap today. My dad shows me that we have instant coffee. Just one spoon of the powdery coffee grounds into one coffee cup with water. Well, I'm drinking it for the caffeine and I do like the taste or else I wouldn't touch the stuff. I have figured out how to make this better than to have to make a cup every few minutes. I put more coffee powder into one cup of water. It is stronger, better, and MORE CAFFEINE! So I figure one cup is now like two cups. I can get the caffeine and not have to go to the restroom as often either since I won't be taking in as much liquid. It is a win win win situation.

Eros

So what do I need to do to get you to notice me? Do I have to do the stereotypical male things to get your attention? For example, I call often because girls cannot just up and call guys that they may like for fear of what the guy may think. Also I would pay for anything that you could possibly want while I'm with you (food, trinkets, drinks, entertainment). I could spend money on things that you don't even ask for. Little surprises maybe like flowers, candy, or toys like if you liked butterflies then I could get you something like that. When would that be crossing the line though if you are not even dating? I feel that too much can feel like stalking and smothering. I also feel that a guy shouldn't have to buy a girl a ton of material things just to get her to notice him as more. Because if then she notices after many purchases wouldn't she just be noticing the money and not him in actuality?

I would enjoy it if I could just go around to people whether I know them or not and make judgments as to whether they are right for each other. Tell girls to not waste their time with womanizers or jerks and tell dudes to not waste their time with nut cases. I've spent most of my life being a great observer. Rememberer is a different story. I would like to think that by observing the ups and downs of all my friends' relationships and siblings relationships that I've got a pretty good handle on the relationship scene. My thing is that I haven't been able to find that open window to get into that clubhouse because someone is standing on the door up above.

Dumbo

I'm dumbfounded.
I always thought I was grounded.
I just do not know what to think anymore.
If it were as easy as going to the store.
I do my best.
You know the rest.
It is not that easy.
At the risk of sounding cheesy.
You pick the wrong one.
My wings have melted in the sun.
I fly too high.
All you say is buh-bye.
I know what I'm looking for.
Then you just knock me to the floor.
It is a sin.
I cannot win.